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Days of just sitting, with bits of work thrown in very occasionally and randomly. I can do some things, mostly to the finish line. Sometimes there is no price, sometimes I get completely zapped. There is a little fear of trying. It's great when it works but when it doesn't, back in the cage I go.
I would really like to sort. But as things stand, when I begin to sort, that which is sorted, as poorly as it gets sorted, ends up going right back where it came from after I stretch my capacity to think and do beyond their means. And it doesn't take long or much. It ends up a wasted time and me simply feeling foolish for having tried one more time. Maybe in a few days.
I would love to sleep. Problem is that I can't sleep. My hope is to get into town tomorrow, to see my friend, and early enough to go to the Verizon shop for a charger. I just hope my mother isn't freaking. My neighbor brought dinner tonight, and told me that the sprinkler had been on for... three days? Hmm, well, okay. I thought I turned it off, guess not. Only two of those were going though. I need to get one area watered still. It looks like some of that water transferred over to parts of the area missed, but not enough. I suppose a single day on that one should do. :p
So, gaming? Ugh. Sounds delish. Problem is I am not sure I am up to the usually steep control learning curve that they can hit you with. Look, with stories being hashed rehash, I suppose, all they have making the controls confusing enough that the story seems better and the game play seems more challenging, so they dinker with that. It's... why they get the big bucks? Fine, some games are entertaining. But would they be as entertaining if game makers homogonized game controls and functions? Probably not by half, honestly. Hey, it's a pastime, one of the few a sometimes nearly fully crippled ogre can partake in. Yes, forge. Yes, even just a shop and wood and metal working. Being on my feet for six hours though? Organizing and tinkering with parts until they fit and it all works when I can't unload a box with a dozen dozen items? Yeah, sounds good though. And I am working on it. But, for now...
Dunno. I'll at least get out of the computer chair and away from the blasted computer, for a bit. Maybe longer if I can get into the game.
Shush! I made it out of my home, county, state, across two other state borders, and was somewhat active and mostly civil for a couple weeks or so. Can't say I don't try, and test the fates doing it, from time to time. A few days, weeks, months down is a small price for having flown. I'm good with it, if I don't have to like all aspects of it.
Later.
Get back on your meds, man. Get into it, over it, through it, and back to becoming more healthy. Just get it over with.
ReplyDeleteYeah, no, I know. But it's like trying to get your hand to the throttle, and they try to ease it into place, but with 3 to 3.5 g's on me. I can't just "do". I aim for it, work at it, and hopefully reach the controls in time.
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