I did make it.

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Brutal though.  While I am "doing days" again, finally, I am pushing it to do whole days.  Tossing in prep for a trip, then driving several hours up and back, plus a doctor or medical visit, and I am toast.  An appointment yesterday, but much closer.  Then again I almost canceled that.  Rough I tell you. 

The appointment today regarded carb counting.  As well, I wasn't sure where to start my insulin, so asked about that.  Okay, despite my... doubts... I think the trip was well worth the effort.  I certainly understand things a bit better, at least from their standpoint.  I was also orally and in paper, given information about what is what.  I had actually considered milk as a protein and fat, but they showed it as a carb.  A list of various carb charts, by levels, some added information.  Yeah, well...  I suppose I had tried to consider a diet, not as in weight lost but as in what to eat daily, for some time.  I became tangled up.  Perhaps I will try to eat a bit more often, as well, and begin exploring these things again.  Start from the start and go from there.

Now, after the appointment, I splurged right away.  Beef ribs, smoked, with tea, coleslaw, and steak fries.  The meat was probably fine, if the sauce was probably not.  Fries, I am told, are to be limited to ten.  I only, officially, counted nine.  I am unofficially certain there were more.  Ah, but that is the most I have had in some time.  My bad, probably one I will repeat each time I go to town there.  Thankfully, like the police at the door of a loud party, they don't want to see me again, or soon.  So, no problems.

I want to go to bed so badly.  I will push it though, at least to 19:30-20:00, maybe a bit later.  I sleep better if I push it.  I am also hoping that the last few days won't break me down but build me up.  So that I can then get to some things here in the house.  Gosh but I need to do some things.  Zapped though, hard.  Tomorrow?  Not so much, probably a simple recovery.  Though I will be trying to motate a bit more, and... see and do.  Just little things.  But those lead into bigger things if I focus the little things on getting to the bigger things.  *sigh*  I do try, you know.

Be well.  Later.  Unless I don't make it back to the machine.  Good night if not.