Good, very good.

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I was awake until a bit after 21:00.  Rounding to 22:00 I set the alarm for 6:00.  Wasn't sure I would make it all the way.  I was correct.  A spit before 4:00 I started waking.  I tried to return to sleep.  I could only rest, and just a bit, waking a bit before 4:00 anyway.  I dreamed of the women in the Otep song.  A gift, in a way.  The singer isn't what she portrays.  But she does play the part in the song.  Seeing some of the raw memories, but through a filter.  It's as if God has... forgiven these things so allowed my conscience some peace from what was.  A part of me still clings to the old, if not for want, for guilt.  And, so, I must yet see.  Less, do I see, to suffer than to remember, and compare to what may be at hand.  Not a burning, this dream, so much as a sadness, another step in letting go, and hope for something much better.  Compassionate, patient, kind.  Beside loving, attempting to serve, and fearing in a right way, God... I also actually like Him.  These days.

In spite of the later long day yesterday, and the effort I put out, I am doing quite well this morning.  I will still use a bit more time for waking, then consider my options.  The recent small spell has left me with a bit of straightening to do, a minor pile of dirty dishes, a couple loads of laundry, and what remains of my list from yesterday.  Oh, and a few more things.  I need to set up my printer, make sure it works.  If so, then I will set up a return ticket for one of the watches I ordered, print that, get the box ready, and return that when I am in town next.

The watch that died was found.  I had reset the analog portion several times, to no good ends.  Still, being the eternal pessimist, of sorts, I wanted to, once again, prove the thing a rip-off.  So... I reset the analog hands and... it works!  I checked it fifteen minutes after, then when I returned from town, and finally again this morning.  All good.  So... I can just return the watch that was impossible to read and not look for a third watch.  Yes, for me it seems, having several watches is the way to go.  It isn't so much accessorizing as it is making sure I have at least one working time piece.  I am brutal on watches, somehow.  And being able to change them out, from time to time, might add some life to them while ensuring when I kill the next one, even if I am not so up to finding and ordering another, I will have something with which to keep pace on life.  It's... good to be a pessimist!  :p

So much to do!  But first I really have to wake more fully.  In an hour, or two, I hope to set a load of laundry to wash.  Then a shower, after that load is ready to put in the dryer, then a load of dishes.  Hopefully I can get each of those cycled before deciding what next.  A trip to town, grocery shopping and the return if I can get the printer going easily enough.  If I get all of that going, when I return, I may try the snowshoes on, and practicing walking in them, learning how best to stand, move, and get to my feet, in them.  A few sessions of that, I suppose, before going out into the wilds.  Well, those are the goals.

I have much more to do.  If I can get just a bit ahead, here and there, I can expand much.  Currently, the down time put me in the 'uncomfortably behind' category.  Easily fixable if I can keep on my feet for a week or two.  Yes, I am enjoying this.  A new life, a fuller life, a... an n'th chance.  Later.

Just take it by feel.  Mostly.

Don't get cross-eyed.  I mean... finding a woman.  And only mostly.  I like keeping the door open but keep the screen door locked.  Bah!  Never mind.