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Food, more regularly, might help.  I don't think that will be all of it.  As I suggested, I doubt if I can just fix it all.  I know doctors can't.  Between what they offer and my own tending, some better health, from time to time, might be possible.  That is all.  I really need to get back on eggs.  They really rock, as far as food goes.  They do get a bit dull.  But what they offer, along with the grains and beans, is pretty good.  Assuming I can eat, that is.  I simply haven't been able to eat as easily lately.  Hmm... perhaps smaller batches, too.  Less waste.

Oh, it happens.  I am almost sure what I pass as minor complaints, some of them, would be lethal to others.  Some think that might even be a brag.  If you ever get this close to death, however, and get stuck?  You won't consider it a brag.  Not a shame, just a major suffering.  Thankfully this has become rather rare.  And, really, this one is quite mild.  Still, it is what it is. 

I'll get to a few things today.  I've reset the dishes, in a fresh soapy soak.  I'd like to do a bit of sweeping and take laundry back.  Might hit the dishes after messing the laundry and sweeping.  Eggs, later, perhaps.  And I best reset medicine.  I have missed three evenings in the last three to four weeks, of medicine.  Not bad, really.  Oh, and I ordered that new form of CoQ10.  I won't be changing that out until I run out of CoQ10, however.  I just hate wasting.  And CoQ10 does work.  It's just, if this other stuff works better...  I'm not a total believer, I simply think it's worth a shot.  And some people have proven to be pretty decent sources.  Desert Cat and foam sometimes just have something.

It did seem a curse, at one time.  Now I realize, if at a high cost, it is a powerful blessing.  I probably can't explain it to you.  Especially if you think pain is evil. Or that suffering is weakness or sets one outside of God's graces.  Jews, at least in the old days, believed worldly success and health was proof of right living.  Many, today, of Christian and other faiths, also hold this as a truth.  It is not.  If you think to pray for me, in my suffering?  Don't.  Do me a grace and pray that you might see.  If you lived my life, certainly in the worst of it, in time, you would see.  Trust an old fool.  Later.