Still awake.

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A bath and a lot of work with the pumice stone.  It just isn't really getting through.  I found a dermatology prescribed lotion and put that on.  I've got to get my feet back in shape.

I called my mother.  It sounds like she may be second guessing the trip this fall.  Just not up to it.  I don't know if this is just a bad day speaking, or what.  I hope to go, I have at least one other planned stop I would have to renege on.  I couldn't see my brother solo.  I am honestly not sure I would be welcome.  Given all of our ages and health, this may be the last time all three of us could gather together.  And yet, I understand my mother's difficulties.  While I have improved, the weight of life even now would be like adding twenty to forty years to my life age.  It used to be as if I was even older though.  So while it seems like I am getting younger, the improvement is a truly relative thing.  At least so far.  Then again, I am beginning to go through periods were I am more my age, or younger... or potentially.  Anyway, I know her suffering.  And I know her worries, about... arguments.

Travel would be quite expensive, driving.  I am guessing right at $1,500-$2,000, with gas and lodging for ten days on the road, total.  Hmm, well, and whatever food costs would go in there, and a few other things.  Though planned well, I would only be slightly road weary, and would have seen parts of the US I haven't seen.  Is seeing the world important?  Yes and... no.  I suppose I could consider comparison values, and all that jazz.  It just... either it would be worth it or not.  I must say, I have been pleased to see parts of Arizona, Nevada, Idaho, and Montana of recent years.  And I'd like to see a bit more, even just by train.  I am sure I have been to San Diego, but I have never seen L.A., San Fran, and a few other cities.  I'm not a city fan.  But if you can visit such a place, and avoid the worst parts, hit it at the best time, avoid the tourist traps but hit the truly good spots...  A distraction, and something new.

If the trip is off, I have plenty of things that money could be used on.  A bit more grain, if I am going to start using that.  A manual grain mill for backup is the next big item.  Perhaps some coin spilled on commercial or constructions bins in order to clear out the cave.  Doesn't matter if I go or stay, I will want to get to work on that.  Many things are wanted and needed.  Hmm, I'd like to buy components for reloading.  I believe it is time to work up hunting loads, and better defense pistol loads.  I'm simply not interested in pure target loads.

Ah, but it is past 15:00.  There is a good chance I can get out for shopping and some minor business tomorrow.  I'll keep at it, if not.  Soon, I hope.  Later.