Rough and gruff.

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Oh, reasons, perhaps.  Not enough, not nearly enough, sleep.  Still feeling a bit battered about the margins, and more.  Though to be truth, feeling battered is better than feeling green about the gills.  Still, battered is bruised is painful.  I have started being hungry again.  While a good sign, it is... a driving factor, one I am not quite ready to manage fully.  I did make it to town, bought milk, fruits, eggs, butter, and cream... so, with a few other things, perhaps I can manage some feeding needs.  And, of course, what is happening in the world.

Republicans are absolutely flouting that they don't give a flying fuck what the base and more and more independents want.  Choosing Ryan, a worse cuckservative than even Boehner, to fill that position tells me that there is no conservative power, or will, in D.C.  Our politicians are actively, and brutally, anti-American at this point.  My guess is they realized how easy it was to sell out to rich Americans, but realized the rest of the world had even richer people and chose to open the bidding for their votes to those as well.  Chinese government and billionaires, muslim oil barons, even minor despots here and there, all vying for a US vote.  No wonder our "reps" see no reason for a border.  At this point, resisting this government in every way possible, until it is broken and defeated or begins a shooting war at which point we will see how that plays out, is the only way forward.  I am calling broken arrow.  The enemy is not just in camp, they are in C&C and putting out bad calls.  Resist, fully.

I did, since I got out obviously, get another shower in.  Love those.  A bath would be better, I just don't have the energy.  Plus, I set the dishes up after the shower last not.  Then, to town and shopping.  Plus, when I returned home, I began tearing into the living room.  I have the loveseat open, and part of the short table (coffee table really) that I will be working on.  I had forgotten to buy something.  The fans I wanted.  I had forgotten that I had held off on those until the case arrived and I could give it a solid review.  Various online sources had... either contradictory or confusing (comparing one to another) views on what the case could actually hold as far as fans go... and what came with it.  Those were ordered and should be here by Friday.  More time, which I ended up needing, to get that area sorted.  And, I think, Friday is payday.  A good thing, as I have some gifts to get (if available), and a new power protector outlet... for the second machine and to ensure grounding through the power supply while I work on the machine.  Bleh.

Oh, something I just realized a few days ago.  As bad as it might seem, life truly has improved.  As for the bad?  Most likely I am simply more aware of it.  It isn't worse, mostly, even if it seems like it.  This is the first year since I have been ill in which I was able to figure out calendars... the type you hang on the wall?  Yep.  Just changing them at, or near, the first of each month.  This is the first year I have been able to be aware of the flow of time enough to do that.  Not even in college was I able to do that.  A simple thing, but... a huge thing.  Even last year, there were months that would go by without me noticing the change.

Well, on to... waking?  Yes.  Later.