Very strange.

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The thermostat and another thermometer both read between 72 and 73 today.  Now, for me, that is, usually, especially for as cool as it has been, a warm temp.  Actually, generally, this time of year, for me, it is hot.  And yet all day I have been fighting the chills, and losing.  It made doing anything a struggle.  Thus little was done.  I hadn't planned on much.  I did less.

On the good side, I woke relatively early and am about to go to bed at a good time.  A good time, as I define it, is a time which makes maintaining a day schedule more likely.  I have to work hard to do very simple things.  Things you take for granted, or mostly.  Even so, I often... no, I will... fail.  It's just a matter of time.  It's like going swimming in the ocean for the first time, not knowing about the true power of the waves, undercurrents, and such.  No, you will go down.  So it is with me, often.  And yet I don't quit.  Do my best, push and pull actively and passively.  When failure occurs, rinse and repeat as able.

Oh, I had a strange dream, between a few moments.  She asked if I thought I could make her happy.  I laughed.  No man will make you happy!  So, no, I won't.  I would merely be able to fulfill your nature as a woman to be a wife and mother, God willing.  I would be able to keep finances and the relationship in check and going, with a little help.  But, definitely not as to making or keeping her happy.  I think they know this.  Oh, just because a question is asked, doesn't mean anything is in play.  I think it was... interesting.  Not in that way, just in the attention garnered.  A terror then, possibly still now a bit, to be in a spotlight.  But, now, just a curiosity.  I do believe.  Still, that was the question and answer.  It's like I hit REM sleep between this, and that, second... somehow.

All good.  Good night.