Cranky body. Mind at ease.

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I got a shower.  Then considered what to do next.  Cleaning?  Still a bit too warm.  23:19 and it's still 74 out there.  I think, at 21:00ish, it was 81 or so.  A trip to town.  A drive, an outing, supplies and food of various sorts... but too temptation.  As much as I truly am beginning to dislike fast food joints, free (no work or dishes or... just money), fast, hot, done.  And, hating softserve soda, salty tasting as it is to me, going with tea almost makes it possible, even on my diet.  A double or triple burger or thin sliced beef sandwich, without the top bun?  With tea, no sugar?  Doable.  The fried potato might have to be ignored.  But that would leave room for more meat!  Well, and even if I could pass that up, I would be grocery shopping in the middle of a fast.  Just the economic risks!

Still, off I went.  Fearful, humbled by my situation, and yet hopeful.  How is that for a tumble of contradictions?  Mix and mash, then freeze dry for tomorrow, or soon.  I had hoped to wash the car but I didn't need gas.  Yeah, I... mix those two almost exclusively.  When you are mostly dead, and have been for a long time, you learn, like or not, to use energy stones sparingly.  If you can hit two birds, might even wait until you can hit three or four.  And, yeah... if you are patient it works out.  Usually it is grocery shopping and those two things, plus another sort of shopping.  The tanks was full, if my shopping was split over two stores.

I kept trying to make lists.  But when I looked, it pretty much looked like I needed... well... everything.  I didn't think that would be a good thing for a starving man to write on a list when entering a grocery store.  Plus, it didn't work for any other type of shopping I could imagine.  So I skipped the list.  Foot spray, foot powder, insulin tester, this, that, the other thing.  Not so much food, though two things for sure, plus perishables (forgot eggs, but not bad for what I did get).  Liquid sugar replacement to try and... bleh... losing it.  I did get them, I just can't remember now.

So, I get home, get everything put up, find the diabetes machine and... no test strips!  The last one I purchased had them.  So... I went digging for the ones that never worked in the device the VA sent.  Crazy, but... it worked.  At least this once.  Blood sugar?  At 145, it is a new low.  Now, before I thought about it, I had tea, with one of the sugar replacements.  I don't know, yet, if that affects glucose levels so... that might not be absolutely accurate.  Though, on the good side, if that is false it is false in the high range.  Oh yeah.

Shopping was pricey.  But beside several types of foot spray, various sugar substitutes, this, and that, I had cat litter and food to buy.  I buy enough for several months, or more.  Yes, pricey.  However I am finally, mostly, rather well caught up.  I looked for fruit, simply wasn't satisfied with the selection.  I'll wait until fall, picking off grapefruit, or this or that, lightly, to limp by, until then.  It looks like the world just took a major dive.  Can't even get good fruit now?  Wow.

Later.