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I really do wonder why I haven't died.  Between the swelling, tending that sort of, then the pains, I really thought this really could have been it... in one sense.  In the other?  As I said, I simply don't die well.  I have this idea that I have a long time to go.  Not a preference mind you, and yet His will, not mine.  Christ had it worse, on both ends of the spectrum.  Death and pain to this day, beyond what I can know.  Though I don't think this is it either, for me.  Yeah, I know.  But then how many even actually believe in Christ today.  Just, for the sake of argument, assume He is real... then what else is real?

I have the medicine set up for through Monday.  As I said, I just set up the potassium and water pill.  I should have skipped the water pill tonight, but in my unthinking regimentation and rush I took the potassium and water pill.  Oh yes, there will be trips to the loo tonight.  Though that has been rather usual.  It will probably be a bit more often even so.

One of the things I purchased tonight was pepperoni.  But a stick of it, and a gooder brand.  I will attempt to slice it quite thin.  I have thought of purchasing a slicer.  I just don't think I'd get enough use out of it.  Paper thin is ideal.  Still, now  I can do a meatzza with pepperoni, finally.  That, mushroom, fresh herbs, a bit of onion, maybe three cheeses this next time, and... who knows.

As soon as I am feeling better, I will set the timer for a week.  If I feel better the whole week?  Back to intermittent fasting.  Initially, however, just daily.  Fasting for 20 hours, then having four hours in which to eat.  If that goes well for a week, I may go back to what I was doing or even skip to the 68 hour fast followed by the 20 hour fast.  If THAT goes well?  Maybe just stay, or push on to 68 followed by 44 hour fasts.  Look, it couldn't be worse than sleeping for weeks, and months if I did feed in there a bit.  The doc doesn't understand.  But that, athletically, the shorter fasting I was doing?  Allowed me to build nearly an inch on my arms doing grip exercises over about a month.  I went from barely doing the 200 to doing the 250 fairly well and doing better with the 300 than I started out on the 200 grip.  The HGH really did ramp on fasting, at least for me.  And I am nearly dead.

Oh, my.  I am still in bits of pain.  I've pretty much been uncomfortable for a week or two now.  Chest pains.  Tightness.  Bleh.  We'll see what the blood tests show and how much potassium in pill and diet help.  Maybe I just messed something up.  Maybe it can be fixed.  Maybe I really broke something.  Either way, I keep at it.  I've got the rest of my life to fiddle with these things.  Good night.