One little choice can make a large difference.

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Quitting gab, if that isn't all.  I've backed out of a whole political and social system that went with it.  Too much faggotry, too many questionable notions, too much too much.  At this point, if it isn't Christian, and rather solidly, traditional, then it isn't for me.  That includes not going to most churches, including many Catholic churches.  It certainly excludes many secular or general Christian groups, orgs, and associations.  You can't be pro-gay, hateful to those of us who disagree, AND Christian.  You have just failed, miserably.  You also can't be totally pro-government, anti-nationalist, pro-open borders, AND Christian.  It doesn't work that way.

I don't have to win, here on earth.  As a fact, the best I can possibly do is draw even until I draw my last breath, and that will happen if I die of truly natural causes.  If my life is shortened, or simply ended against my will, all that is right and true, and God's true notions, then I will have lost... in an earthly way.  To be honest, I'm... thinking I probably already lost.  But, that isn't even important, save to those who believe only in this earth.  Winning on earth isn't my goal.  That will surely see one, almost certainly, to losing beyond.  That I don't want to do.

I see that I obviously don't fit in the world.  And the part that was breaking away so as, in theory, to make a place for my kind... has failed.  As I thought, my kind have to make our own place.  We have to create, protect, and manage our little bit of the world as best we are able.  Some things need to be government, such as the protection of the nation.  Though how can a nation be protecting me by allowing foreigners in without even checking for legal issues, illness, or anything else?  My government, or parts of it, are at war with me and mine.  I don't know if there is an organization out there to join, even loosely.  But Gab, and the alt-right sum total, is becoming just as questionable as big and little 'l' libertarianism, the republican party, the tea party, and the rest.

Alt-right seems to be trying to be bigger tent than the republican party, more stylish and queer than libertarianism, and more popular than the tea party.  There is alt-white, which is just a refresh of the democrat party.  It won't work.  There are the Jew haters, which is the wrong target... it's isn't Jewish elites, it's most elites, who want socialism so long as cronyism is primary.  Jewish, Catholic, Mormon, all of the elites are on the wrong side.  Globalism and socialism work to their greedy and sometimes dark ends, not ours, and very specifically and directly not America and Americans' benefits.  Globalism would destroy all we have believed America to be.  Yeah... there isn't a race or religion that bears the mark as singular scapegoat.  Or exact government.  It is the merging and allowances of big government and big business, from elite to bureaucrat to lying cheating elected official.

At this point I am not seeing an political ally, solid religious supports, or even a solid social movement.  I'll stay as close to faith as I understand it and keep to my own.  After the recent assessment of these things, I believe it's time to... reconsider everything.  I can't believe what I saw, to a degree.  It is what it is though.  Time to reconsider many things.  Well, and get back to work as soon as possible, in order to shape up to potentially ship out.  I know illusion when I see it.  I am much better at creating such, when need be.  I only go with them when decisions are being made and even a false ego boost is good for a moment.  Just... don't think I don't see.
Good day.