Needed, not sure if the nap was useful.

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I think I hit right at two hours, but in the right way.  An quarter to an half hour to sleep, then to wake.  Thing is, I'm not sure it did any real good.  Oh, some, I suppose.  Just not enough to really show.  I won't be doing anything, still too tired.  It is still dark out.  I raised the furnace to aim at 72 F.  Warmer and I have problems, cooler and I don't notice... mostly.  Some days I can have it at 66 and be fine, or raise it to 76 and still be too cold.  I just can't ever tell.  Actually, I may turn it down to 70, maybe 68.  I'm burning at 72.

It's still so dark.  I don't know if it has rained at all.  It doesn't seem to have snowed.  Nah, probably didn't rain, unless it was very light and a bit ago.  I just can't break past it.  I'd love to.  I just want to work, get some things down, tinker on some projects, and feel awake.  Just... have that sense that I can figure things out and do what is wanted.

I am seeming to handle a full load of medicine though.  Maybe that IS doing something.  I was able to work, a bit, the first few days, in spite of the weather and medicine.  Maybe that was, and remains, quite a bit of effort.  I still am not sure I trust doctors.  They'll medicate you to death, or to being crippled.  I don't know if their intent is to kill you, or try to get you to push beyond what you should, or to break you.  I honestly don't know, I just don't fully trust.  I'm doing middlings, for now.

Gotta figure out how to get up.

I am giving it a solid go.  If there is no large improvement, if I can't figure my way back to intermittent fasting and lower blood sugar, I... may have to go become a roving monk.  I won't tell where I am going, I'll just go.  That'll fix it.  I am positive about that.  Though I will always have up and down days.  The trick is to return to health, which is possible, at least for my age.  Later.