Someone got it wrong.

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Lonely?  Sure.  Even... wishing to be frisky.  But... not.  If I could find a woman to marry, then, you bet.  Dying?  Yea, but it doesn't matter.  Interested in women?  Sure.  Seriously, I won't risk my soul for a bit of sex.  I quit screwing around a long time ago.  Oh, it's on my mind.  Women are terribly attractive creatures.  Chunky or thin, to points... tall, short, simple, gorgeous, curved, or less, women make me sweat.


I don't fear them.  I flirt all the time.  I just... don't go farther.  I worked a few women, only to find they were married.  I won't do that.  I was introduced to a couple of single women, but thought I had a chance at better.  It didn't work out, but... so it goes.  No, I won't hook up.  I won't settle.

You, whoever, just don't get it.  Want?  Sure.  But between hooking up and checkers, despite my greater desire to hook up, I'd stick with checkers.  I won't lose my soul for sex.  You... if you saw over there, you would understand.  It is to please God.  It is to stay within His will, sight.  I am already a prodigal, step, child.  I have been undeservedly called to return home, and welcomed with great luxury.  My brother himself, literally, sent parts of the fatted calf this year.

Just... understand.  I need for nothing I would risk God's love to obtain.  I may not be perfect, but I am better.  I pray those who feel such great need find a better way.  I would gladly spend time with such a woman, playing chess.  Unless marriage seemed reasonable.  Just...  You don't understand.

So close to dying.  But I have been so close for so long.  I have ages to go.  I... wouldn't mind company.  Sex would be super.  Yea, I am still quite able, easily, often.  But only if it was right.  In marriage, in a right marriage.  Yes, I... think of it, often, prayerfully.  I would sure enjoy a woman partner, lover, nag, etc.  I sure would.

As... rightly as I can do.  *wink*