Fallen.

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Maybe in a good way?  Off meds since Tuesday.  Even when I knew I couldn't remember, sort of.  I couldn't have refilled my medicine dispenser in any case.  I would have tried if knowledge could translate to action.  How can you know what you can't remember?  I'd tell you, if I knew.  Might have to kill you though?

I'll do pills today.  And insulin.  It actually showed up on the day I was told it might be sent?  Weird.  No complaint.  Just surprised.  This time I marked the date to change them.  Yeah, otherwise I use them beyond their good use date.  So hungry too, have been since that post, even before.  I... need food.

Ah, how can all that be good?  I think it gave me a break.  Between medicines and winter, I was, am, in a bad way.  A few days off medicine seems to be opening up the cognitive.  I think the dispensers will be arranged and medicine and food will get going again.  It took the break, well, and pouring on some heat as well.  Just a bit extra.

I haven't been able to be warm in a week or more.  So cold, all bundled, it burns.  Right through double and even triple layers, of wool, cotton, and or synths, after a hot shower, hot tea or coffee going in often, with the furnace jacked.  That was on meds.  Still freezing, but awake enough to focus on all tricks.  May take another shower soon.  Food!  I need hot food, plenty of it, just not fast food.

It'll work this time.  Probably.