Wow, I am fried.

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I received a call today.  Today was the day of the appointment I thought I had missed?  Apparently.  The appointment in the calendar, from last week?  Was the doctor appointment I did make.  I am so fried.  Today's appointment was cancelled.  My last a1c was in the ~6.5 range.  Today was going to be about insulin?  No reason for adjustments.

I simply got confused.  Usually I reset appointments.  That it was still there lead me to believe I had missed it, especially with nothing on the schedule for this week.  Well, good.  It means, even if I am totally lost, I didn't miss anything.  So baked.  I can only imagine what illicit drugs must do to people.

I am completely lost even so.  I have nothing close to a regular or even shifting day.  Today might be like yesterday or tomorrow or be twelve to twenty four hours off either or both.  Not sure why such severe shifts, but that is the way of it.  I have been taking medicine perfectly, somehow.  But I have to set them back up today, or I will mess up.  As well, today is the final up titration.  I will begin checking bp Friday, try to check it twice a day through Monday.  My doc wants results five days after this final dosage start, Monday is best.

I have been doing fairly well with the critters... food, water, and litter.  One slip with water, for the ducks, in the month... but because it got very cold and I slept very long.  I have limits.  Dishes, laundry, and showering are back to going.  Slow, small batches, irregular frequency, but...  I even started on boxes in the living room.  Hopefully the kitchen soon.

Something is very off, if I am hanging on for now.  Will see how, if, when, I can stand back up, regain my footing.  So tired, dazed, and confused.