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I was sitting there, minding my own business, when my body up and closed down shop around me. Imagine, you are sitting in the food court at a local mall in the middle of the afternoon, and suddenly you realize a few things. You are all alone, it is dark, most of the lights are off, the furnace has been shut off, and every door is locked.
Now, change the venue from the mall to the body. I tried to fight it. I thought I could, as a well conscious mind and will inside a dying (?) body. As soon as I tried to raise a ruckus, I nearly blacked out. Even with the socks on and heat up, I was again freezing. All I could do was crawl off to bed.
Wow. It's been a while since I've so directly faced that. When it hits, I usually just call it bedtime. But usually it doesn't hit with such direct force. I can't be sure when, three to six hours ago? Did the world cool off very quickly, and that get me? Did my heart slow, bp drop? I would like to check bp more often, and track outdoor temperatures here. Indoor didn't change, but, in really hot or cold weather, there is more to it.
Still so very hungry. I did eat out yesterday. Bad idea. Blood sugar skyrocketed but is normalizing. Bad home food is vastly superior to any fast food. Oh, and if you see the staff is mostly minority? Drive on. The cooking oil was bad, and mixed... fries, fish, and onions don't really mix well. Brand new building.
I may have to fast thaw something. Or... no, too late to get to else, a shower, and out shopping, in time for a real grocery store. Walmart doesn't count. I suspect even their brand names are seconds and the labels less reliable than usual. The store brand names, for canned fruit, also turned out mislabeled. The brand name fruit doesn't, or didn't, cause blood sugar spikes. The store brand does, in spite of it's label saying it has even fewer carbs and no sugar added. I look for bargains, some just aren't.
I reset dishes, set tea after waking, and will check and probably change laundry as I pour a fatted hot drink. Still on the verge of being too cold, but working on it. I may jack the furnace for a bit. At least I don't have a "smart meter" which would refuse to allow more, or would slowly turn itself down. Is that mostly electrical, or are they doing it with gas too?
I feel more rested, even than before the fall. I am truly hoping I can get to some work. But that was an amazing smash from my medical conditions. It happens daily, just not usually that severely. Or, I don't see it so clearly. My mind and will are usually on the same page as my body. This was terrifying. Really.
I also dislike Wal-Mart with a royal passion. Unfortunately, my wife worships at its altar. She's a dear, but she does possess some bad qualities, and one of them is that she'll burn up forty miles worth of gasoline to save five cents at Wal-Mart.
ReplyDeleteYears ago, when I developed a severe case of thrombocytopenia, there were moments when I could feel myself shutting down. Not becoming drowsy, you understand, but could actually feel my body switching itself off. And yes, along with you, it's not the sort of feeling one wishes to experience. How's your platelet count?
I have no idea about platelets. I doubt if they bother to check. A1C, potassium, and as few other things are checked as possible. They don't want to know what is wrong. They don't want me in their hospital and would reject me if they could.
ReplyDeletePeople tell me about China's social credit ratings on their citizens as if we don't have that. Shadow banned by google, the V.A., and SS Admin, probably at my church too. Heck, even the Mormon church is angry, as are other churches, because I noted they make more money from the feds through bringing in a replacement population than they receive from parishioners. To the coin giver goes allegiance... against their own people.
Anyway, so be it.