So messed up.

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I have been trying to work the last half week.  Very little done.  I have figured out sleep and warmth, finished two minor tasks, and started a few others.  I finished my last game a week ago, or more?  I wrote about it, after, but probably longer after than I realized.  Time isn't... working.  A seeming day might be a week gone.  I am absolutely lost.

I knew I had an appointment coming up.  I had it in my calendar, with four or five alerts.  The driveway is clear, we haven't had any bad weather, I have been sleeping well, and if not working well I thought my bean was clear?  Apparently not so much, not so much at all.

I... missed the appointment.  Worse?  I somehow didn't even know I had missed it until I checked last night.  I was sure it would be this week.  Wanted to be ready.  It was the 16th, last Thursday.  I just don't understand how I could have missed that many alarms, starting three days before, then daily until the day, plus one five and three hours beforehand on that day.

Even if my phone was ooc, the app doesn't depend on connection to a tower or Internet.  But I don't recall any alerts.  Have I just been that out of it?  I suspect so.  But I have been taking medicine flawlessly.  Then again, that is the sum total of function, or close enough to call it.

I will move dishes so as to shower... they have been washed.  I will wash them as I remove them and set them to a rinse after a shower.  Then laundry will get going again.  I'll set tea, feed and water critters, and???  No use crying over spilled milk.  I... I am just so confused at just now realizing that milk was spilled, and so long ago.

My prayer, or thoughts, in these times.