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Got it? Yes, well, yes.
I had the phone appointment today. It was set to happen a few hours after I went to bed. I attempted to get to bed earlier. That failed. I attempted to stay awake longer. That failed. Usually, with sleep, I get to sleep when I can, not when I want to sleep. As well, when I need to sleep, I... pretty much have to sleep. Adrenalin can sometimes allow me an extended range. But that can be quite miserable.
I set two alarms. The first was two hours before. It was just a... booster. The next alarm was set for half an hour before. As well, I set the 'do not disturb' setting on my phone to an half hour before the call. So I wouldn't receive a bunch of calls from telemarketers. And, a good thing, as I received two... which were blocked.
I was asleep, when the call came. But had been softened by the alarms. The last alarm I had allowed to snooze right up, pretty much, until time. It sounded every ten minutes and had probably just sounded before the call came through. Yes, I was tired. I might even have been slightly grumpy. And my body hurt. BUT... I was able to awake and present.
And, I... mostly... like this doctor. He doesn't try, usually, to gaslight me. He still asks about the psychiatric. I told him I don't fall for that form of gaslighting anymore, so he can stop it. I explained why. Then again, in part, doctors try to sell services... even ones they know are bogus... for the hospital. It might even be required of them.
I explained my current suffering. I told him what my bp has been running... it is coming down, but slowly. Blood sugar, fasting, is 250... was... 220 this morning. And I am able to get it to drop to 120 last night. Even eating beans with burger. Out of that though. Ugh... have to find something else!
As well, I promised to keep on medicine, get in soon for a bunch of blood tests, and if bp was still over 140 and/or 85 average, to call him in two weeks. Further, we are setting up an echo cardiogram. Gotta check these things. The liver and kidney function will be checked, along with the a1c when I go in for the tests. I asked for a few days, because my feet are still in very bad shape... hurts to walk.
Ah, and we did agree to two water pills... at least for now... and two potassium to go with it. Plus my other vitamins, that should handle most of it. I will go with that for a while, a couple more weeks, then try to go down to one water pill. I'll keep trying, from time to time. The water pills are good, in what they do. But they are hard on the liver and kidneys. Still, I'm down from three. It's a start.
Ugh... Then, after all else, I crashed back to sleep. It was difficult, for the conversation and defense of self against gaslighting and a few other things. Well, and just... making sure information is moving in the correct direction and correctly posited. Sleep, was, again to be found. I slept for four more hours? Three to five, something like that.
Chores, first thing. Soon I need to refill waterers. The girls need food and water set back up. There is some hope I can do more. Collecting the rest of trash, a shower, starting dishes, and? I don't know. Not sure I can do all of it. But I can do some of it.
The feet are still rough. I wore easy boots... not too tight... and soft thin socks. I didn't shove my feet into boots (if I did that when I went to the lawyers... ugh! if more by accident). Even so, my feet are rough. I may, today, wear my boots for short periods of time, without walking on them all that much, in hopes of... breaking them back in to boots, and some walking... so when I go for blood tests I won't be as hobbled.
Ah, and I went through a bunch of old phone messages. There were messages from years ago? Oh well. I got most of them cleared out. A few I will check on, before long. Crazy. But, finally. I did that right after talking to Doc. Before going back to sleep. It was strangely relaxing. I think it helped me to stand down in order to sleep.
Later.
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