I dreamed of these things.

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As a child, before I knew of my nature, I dreamed this following many times, several times a year at least.  Sometimes the dreams would terrify me.  I had them often.  I described them to my mother, but... she doesn't remember.  I had them until my later teens.  Sometimes, as mentioned, they were terrifying.  Though, in time, the dreams became... almost comforting, in familiarity, if always terribly powerful dreams for reasons I could not understand.

I see now where those may have originated?  I still, if so, do not understand... not completely.  As with dreaming of being the bear, eagle, and wolf, there are things that aren't just as they seem.  I didn't know I was part indian.  Or which parts.  Nor did I know anything about any group.  It just wasn't... a part of my life.

Something else?  I had thought shaman, and others, had some respect for Coyote.  And, maybe they do.  But there is definitely a... disapproval in there too.  I... that... confused me.  When the Navajo shaman called me such, walked quickly away, and wouldn't even take my money?  Just... thinking.  I don't know, just...

Of course, there is more.

I won't exactly put these together, but I will say there might be more.  Especially with some.  Some uncles are different from others.  And, yet, not.  Amen?

I know another good uncle.  If his nature is different from my own.  All are?

Oh, I... am stretching things.  And not.  What is, is.  At least, now, I... see more.