Down to 50.

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I am not sure if it dropped below even that.  I think it was around 05:30 when I checked.  Crazy.  That is very cool.  It has been down to 46, that I saw, not too long ago.  Crazy, I suppose, can get crazier.  It is getting up to the high 80s and into the 90s, possibly as high as into the 100s not too far away.  But getting as cool as it is really puts a dent in the feel of that.

Just a third into August, and one really does get the feel of fall, later September, even mid to later October.  I am sleeping odd hours.  As if my body isn't sure how to deal with things.  The cool makes me want to sleep, the heat makes me want to work... until it breaks me.  My physical form just doesn't quite know how to handle the weather.

Here, at twenty to nine, it is 62 out there.  The sun is up, but hasn't broken through whatever is between it and the ground.  Clouds?  Inversion?  Smoke?  A mix?  It will, probably, get quite hot out there today.  Or may.  Humidity is at 36%.  Down from the 40s, even high 50s for that bit.  Though it could go either way, in a hurry, with just a bit of something or other coming through.  Though, truth be told, it is... pleasant, mostly.

Blood sugar dropped to 122 with a small meal and dose of insulin.  As such, I'm having another small meal, coffee this time, with milk, and cheese.  Micromanaging might end up biting me where it hurts most, but... I... want to try.  If it drops a bit too much, I'll just have something else to eat.  I need to cook up some burger, for a taco salad, anyway.

Does anyone get the sense that the world has gone absolutely black, the wrong way, is going in the wrong direction, top to bottom?  I'm not sure if the elites are pulling a Jim Jones.  Perhaps they know, or believe, their world is going to end and want to go out on top?  Or, they have just lost all faith, but as worldly people, believe death for all is better than living in poverty, or in difficult times?

I... must be honest.  If I can, as I see things, survive the elites, I... will figure out the rest.  Even if I fail, and die, it is better to try than to surrender.  I keep remembering hearing about a Catholic man, who ran a bank, the last place I lived.  He had been scamming his company for years, decades, as the CEO/owner.

When he realized it was all going to come out, he murdered his family.  He said he did it to spare them poverty.  Then he filled gas cans, put them in his vehicle, drove along the highway.  He felt the need to talk to a priest, but just to tell him what he did, why, and what he was doing next.

After he hung up, he drove his vehicle into an overpass... the concrete that held it up, pillars?  Or lit the car and ended up doing something similar?  The exact details were blurry.  But he did burn in his vehicle, as a beginning to his punishments.  That... is the sense of what seems to be coming down from government, big business, even many religious leaders.

If they really believe that, I sure wish they would just take themselves out, and leave us, or me, the heck alone.  I am quite sure many of them will go to hell.  Why make it worse?  Worse than hell?  Yes, there, as in heaven, and for a while in purgatory, are many... mansions... in hell.  There is bad, worse, and worst.  If you must go that way, stick with bad.  Amen.

God seems to know.  I leave it to Him, as men who lead seem to have lost... everything.  From real wealth to morals to their very souls.