A strange one.

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I don't think I dreamed.  But I sure slept deeply.  I didn't get down until very late.  I at first thought it was 01:30, then remembered.  I didn't sleep until 04:30 (give or take minutes, less than a dime).  But, then, sleep I did.  A prayer first.  Usually intended, not always able.  And, sometimes, I fall asleep in the middle of it, if I don't cut it short.  If too, usually, later, if I think I dozed in the middle, I finish it later.  I do my best, He knows it.

Awake at 11:30, give or take less than a dime in pocket change minutes.  But which way?  *filip*  Awake and actually at it.  I got right out and refreshed the rabbits' waterers.  They had all been used, but were all quite frozen.  I'll get them reset again tonight.

It is a bit tight this morning.  Is it the cold?  Could be.  Well, and still down from medicine.  It... can take a while.  The more extreme the environment, the longer it takes to acclimatize to medicine.  Even what I normally take, I am always sort of on the edge with that.  Any new medicine can be that proverbial feather that breaks the camel's back.  The first one was good, the second one not so much.  We will see about this next one.  I was afraid, and rightly.  Then again, I was afraid of the last two adjustments, and they went pretty good.  So, it's... not just psychosomatic.

Breakfast water is heating up.  Blood sugar is 238 fasting.  I forgot slow acting insulin, and fasting acting too really.  I didn't have an actual meal, but grazed on pistachios all through the evening.  And ate quite a few.  Couldn't quite get to things, to cleaning, and cooking.

Pretty tired today.  Oh, but it is Thanksgiving.  Ah.  And, yes, I am grateful.  I give thanks to God every time I pray.  Even a hard, harsh, life is worth celebrating.  It is a gift on a level very few groupings of molecules will ever know.  No boulder or comet or even sun, solar system, or universe will ever know having a will.  No matter how complex, or seemingly intelligent, they are all less than one human.  The hubris to claim the humility to be less is amazing.  Yes, that is what it is.  If you wish to be nothing, you... probably can't be.  Can go to hell, can't cease to be.  And shouldn't try to push that on others, who are humble to their nature as is.  Don't... try to square the infinite, you just look silly.

I forgot to keep my feet warm, for a few days.  Kept thinking I would get in to a shower, so didn't wear socks.  Then just... sat... in the cold.  My heels hurt, a lot, for it.  Dried up, dried out, and now they hurt.  It's as if the shelf between the flat and the whole of the foot, at the heel and around in a horseshoe shape, started separating.  Ugh.  I'll be limping for a bit.  But, okay.  I'll fix it.

Maybe another shower today?  I sure like them when I can get to them.  It is amazing how well I can clean up.  Even after an extended down time.  I am sure hoping medicines can be adjusted sooner than later, so I can get back to bathing and showering at least every other day.  It is too much, but with a bit of oil after, I seem to adjust to excessive cleanliness quite well.  And I dearly love it.  Most showers just being a quick clean, but one or twice a week a very long shower, or that and a bath.  Clean, clean, clean, clean, clean.  I really love being clean.

Well, good morning.  Good day.  God's speed.  And... get to it.  If you want to do me a favor, say a little prayer.  If you want to do yourself a greater favor, do that and for yourself, and the rest, even your enemies.  Amen.