Trying to shut down.

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As with waking, sometimes, sleeping can be difficult.  Changing states, it seems, is... can be... a problem for me.  I am tired, have been tired all day.  Wanted to stay in bed.  Wanted to nap.  Now?  At midnight?  After waking at around 07:00?  Or earlier?  I... just... can't sleep.  Will try shortly.

I did boil eggs.  I have a tidy batch cooked, peeled, and refrigerated in a plastic container.  I had some with my salad.  No tuna.  I wasn't up to the extra work.  No shower, either.  But the eggs took my energy.  A... reasonable tradeoff.  I'll happily snack on boiled eggs through the next few days.  Still have fried eggs, from time to time as well.

Sassy came up, last night.  Probably because I showered yesterday.  The door was open the night before, but she didn't visit, that I was aware.  I may let her come up again tonight.  She, like Sam, must also have been a bit of a bone hoarder.  She finds bones, and brings them out.  Or... is she just... wanting something of Sam's?  Odd, how we do miss those who are gone, in our own peculiar ways.

Sassy has been talking to me a lot, lately.  We have little conversations, during the day.  Oh, and I caught her... looking at where I had just, also, seen a 'shadow' of Sam.  Two different times.  She didn't get too freaky, but... she did seem odd, for a bit.  It might all just be imagination.  But, I tell you, the dead know my name.  Some visit.  Some who know me, some who don't... or didn't.  A woman, from this house's history, before the front and back additions... long before.  Not happy with having a whole new kitchen, and strange devices, or a giant, in her home... but not totally rude either.  Tiny little thing, fully adult though.  With a bonnet, or something.  Not as substantial as a human, like smoke, with some definition.  Not completely comprehensible, due to being partially seethrough.  Or... just a dream.

Anyway...  On to bed, I do believe.  Chops, tomorrow, for lunch.  And, maybe, frying the ground pork meatballs, for a vegetable soup, the day after?  Maybe.  Though, too, another round of corned beef.  Hmm... actually, I'd do the corned beef first, and use the remainder stock for the vegetable stew.  Only, this time I will flavor the meatballs.  Check.

Good late night, day, and goodnight.  Sleep well.  Dream well.