Good and bad things, news.

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I do have another month of medication, sorted into a pill dispenser.  That... was a relief.  I think it is complete, will look again, during the day.  Assuming I can be awake during the day any time soon.  What a relief, though.  I was so worried.

On the bad side?  Everything continues to hurt.  Have you ever had what seems like the very veins and arteries, in your arms and legs, and torso, hurt?  That's what it feels like.  Beside muscles, joints, and maybe tendons, something hurts deep within those.  I have no idea why.  I did a bit of work, but not that much.  Now, the sawzall rattles everything, especially since sometimes, on shorter lengths, there isn't much to brace the wood with.  So rattles become excessive.  Though, to be honest, I think that feels good.  It massages, right down in.  Not sure what else... then again, this happens, from time to time, regardless of what I do or don't do.  Life, for me, sometimes simply hurts.  And in the weirdest of ways.

Meh.  I'll get to gaming.  See if that can help me regain my wits.  And, thing about more chicken, then possibly cooking burger, and possibly blade chops.  I'll have to be able to stand, and think, first.  Which hasn't been happening yet tonight.  A bit of reading, and listening, trying to shake things up, and free.  But, just hurting.  I broke down, and took pain pills.  Those don't seem to be helping.  Oh well.

I got Sassy some snacks, fed her when I woke.  I suppose I will open the back porch, so she can get to hard cat tack.  It's not great, but it is something.  I'll check her litter box, too.  Again?  I think I hit it, when I woke.  Not sure.  This will make it good, if not.

If I can do something, I'll do some work in this front room tonight.  If not?  I... will try to be to bed early, again.  That is the hope, regardless what else happens though.  On to gamin, and heating some chicken.  Sassy won't eat cooked chicken.  Sam loved it.  I do miss Sam, and sometimes, if grudgingly, sharing my meals.  There is something about giving away what you don't want to share that... improves a human.  Or... whatever it is I am.  She was good for my soul.  Sassy is too, just in different ways.  Later.

I don't really mind the pain, if I do get frustrated with the limits it puts upon me.  If he is what is suggested, that isn't my problem.  There is only one God, and I abide Him, as fully as possible.  But, some of my praise... if not dark?  Sure passes through some darkness.  No, I... don't mind the pain.  But I sure know it.