Still up at nearly 17:00?

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Had to push through.  Muscles are exhausted in odd ways.  No more food.  Medicine did go in.

I got on the game.

Something I have learned, is if you really want to get good at something?  Do it right through sleepiness, or drunkeness.  Since I am as dry as a land lubber, sleepiness will have to do.  Oh, I still don't have it.  I mean, generally, I can get around.  I can go at speed, right until I can't.  I can corner while swinging.  Have learned many things.  If, honestly, I suck at the game.

Of course, for about a dozen reasons, it is good to do what one is terrible at doing.  It is good for learning, exploring weaknesses, as well as purely for humilities sake.  Don't underestimate that last.  It's what I need more than anything else.  Heck, wouldn't surprise me if that is why I am still alive.  God has... need of that, from me?  Maybe.  I feel that is where He is guiding me.  I can't say I like that direction, only that I try to stay open to His will, and this.  Well, that's my story.

I am learning.  I am... not dying... or too often.  Though, if this is the easy path, I'd hate to see the difficult paths!  Of course I go easy, first, usually!  Just like when preparing for battle, you don't just toss raw recruits in, unless you have absolutely no choice.  I learn where to go, what to do, how to do it, before having to do it and do heavy combat, together.

Exhausted beyond almost crawling up to bed.  But, I'll get there.  I was told that some items would be here today.  I doubt it, strongly.  No worries, though, either.  Today, tomorrow, Monday... it's all good.  Some of what is arriving is for a project I have had on my mind for some time.

Oh, just about... falling asleep just sitting here writing.  I really have to get on to bed.  Lorretta Lynn?  I think she died just recently.  Not sure if I heard or dreamed it.  I'll say a small prayer for her as I sleep, and her family.  I remember, when she entertained, and life at least seemed... simpler.  Maybe life was never simple, or only for the young and dim?  But it seemed like it, once, even to me.

Goodnight.