Up, for whatever that means.

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Currently, up is down, left is right, over is under, and the boogie man is winning?  Well, something like that.  Awake around 20:00, and maybe some larger or smaller change.  Sassy was fed first thing?  Well, after I emptied my tank.  Feeling mostly good, for what that is worth, but the world is blurry.

I... did get a call back from my doctor, his office.  An appointment is set, by phone I should check, for next month.  But, I asked them to set up a blood test.  She always argues, and says that is always available.  But I know from direct experience, that it isn't.  And, I don't get reimbursed if it isn't set up.  No, I... won't play that game.  Fact, I will call again, next week, to make sure it is penned in, as an official visit.  They games they play...  But... started.  On that.

Then I contacted the son, to see if the dad had gotten my text.  They just became available for texts, so maybe it didn't even go through?  He passed the information along, so this week, only cream.  It saves a lot of money, when you are dealing with raw, good, stuff.  And, for this and next week, if I go without, I am in better shape.  Plus, after that, I will probably cut milk to just one gallon, to start.

I have enjoyed drinking raw milk, this last week, two?  But it really isn't good for one.  When I get kefir going, I will draw two gallons, and will use most of that for kefir.  But there should be some left over for cooking.  Cheese sauces, with heavy milk, can't be beat.  Well, unless they cause problems with diabetes.  Ugh.

By the by, I am amazed at medicine.  I have been on it, pretty much straight, for five, or six, maybe seven months, now?  Oh... I... have missed a few doses.  I don't think more than three days, or even three days straight, since.  I think the stuff is working.  

It... hasn't... cured... anything.  But it has suspended the dying process.  For... what little that serves the world, true.  But, it has alleviated the suffering a great deal.  I still go through agony a weaker man would put himself down for.  I still crawl into my body, roll into a ball, and whimper like a beat dog.  I still fall, from time to time, asleep for long periods, though no longer for days, or weeks, at a time.  The improvements are vast, but I... am just suspended, inches, to feet, from the finish line.  Even now, sometimes, I pass the veil, but not so... painfully.  After all the years, I finally found a doc who, or two really, who... pushed, pulled, cajoled, and worked with me, to get me to this point.  Some... doctors can be trusted, mostly.  Then they went and pushed the vax.  Oh well.  At least they have been kept at a distance, so as not to be allowed to mandate or try that.

On to gaming, again.  Food, eventually?  Or not.  Dreamed of burger and cheese and egg(?) casserole?  Oh, then woke to see someone had looked up a recipe for that.  I wonder if I dreamed, while they were reading that post, looking at that vid?  So... weird, how things work.  Later!