I really feel rough.

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Vision is blurry, internals feel bruised, ribs are rough, a headache, achy bones, wrists hurt all around, other things I just can't sort out feel so wrong.  I'd like to sleep, but trying to stay awake for a while.  A  few hours more, two, three if I can, until 16:30 to 17:30?

I took painpills, to no use.  Will check blood  sugar in a bit.  It did come down some, to 196.  Which is odd.  No, I took insulin, fast acting.  I think 30 cc's the first time, and 20 cc's after.  It should be dropping.  Is kefir not as good as I thought?  Or have several days of potatoes as a daily done more damage than anticipated?  I'm simply not sure what the problem is.  Though... not more potatoes for a goodly while, a slowing of kefir to no more than two cups a day, and a bit more care with what else I eat, and insulin.

Everything feels so wrong.  Today is one of those days which surprise me that I am not dead.  It makes me wonder if death is approaching.  But... I've been here too many times to actually thing so.  No, I just get to suffer, and severely, for a while.  Dreams, adrenalin overdose from anger not too long ago, and who knows what else.

I have been taking medicine fairly well.  I did miss a dose recently, but it has been reset, and made back up.  I am taking as much insulin as I dare.  I have been sleeping well, and long.  If... the dreams have been difficult.  I don't think I can hurt myself in dreams?  Or... can I?  Perhaps just stiffening up, as if punches were incoming, can cause issues?  But the wrists?  I don't understand that.  Not... unless I do.  More to dreams than one might think?  A spiritual aspect?  Ugh.

Well, on to gaming a bit?  I don't want to.  But I don't want to sleep quite yet, can't if I wanted to.  Too sore to just sit here, flipping through internet pages...  Hmm... a big glass of water, feeding Sassy, checking her litter, while the console warms up.  Then to gaming a bit.  Later.