Better than anticipated.

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I was able to be awake until 17:00.  Right as I laid down, and was mostly tucked in, I checked the alarm clock, 17:00 exactly.  Sure, not 18:00 to 20:00, as hoped.  But better than the 15:30 that was being suspected.  I began waking at 23:30, then 02:00, 02:30, made it down until 02:48.  Stretching as is possible, pushing a bit beyond.  Tired in the heart for it.  But... all good.

I tore the bed down this morning.  And, didn't flip anything but the mattresses, top to bottom.  Next week I will just flip the mattresses over, leaving them in the same position.  The week after that, flipping top to bottom again.  Odd how even such a simple task takes logic to do properly.  Done incorrectly, you only sleep on one side of the mattresses, rather than truly alternating side and mattress.

A dream, this morning?  I realized someone was up there, with me.  A woman.  Can tell, just can.  But I couldn't wake up.  It wasn't sleep paralysis, it was just a sleepy head?  Then, a gentle light came one.  It took a while for me to be able to open my eyes, if nothing else.  A rose, on my pillow, beside me.  Yellow, in full fresh bloom.

I... know who it was.  She didn't wish to... upset me, just to say hello.  Not sure why she visits.  She is... always welcome.  And, while a potent visitor, she really is always welcome.  If it is my time, she may gladly be my escort.  She didn't want me to see her this time.  Though, obviously, she wanted me to know who.

I can't quite call it a dream.  I will simply call it an experience.  One I favor.

A bit of looking around, then a shower.  I meant to text my dairy needs this week, but as time ticked, it just slipped.  It is being picked up today, early, so all good.  And I do know what I need, knew yesterday.  Only two gallons of milk, and one cream this week.  It looks like altering two and three gallons of milk, every other week, should be enough for the kefir production I am at.  If I bump it up, I would need more.  Not sure I will do that.  Could do another cream, this week, too.  To make more kefir creme fraiche.  But I think one extra cream every few weeks will provide plenty.  Seeing about this storebought buttermilk, currently.  Not sure it will work any better than the dairy raw.  Oh well.  I know kefir works, it just isn't as jelled as storebought, or what people show on y.t.  If, as I have said, much of y.t. is lies, tricks, and such.  Perhaps heating the cream a bit, adding gelatin, but not warm enough to kill cultures, then adding kefir or cultured buttermilk?  Gah!  I'll... keep working on it.

Oh, water should be hot enough for tea.  Just plain tea.  Then looking around the web.  A shower, some gaming... oh, I'll set the alarm so that I can send a text around 07:00, about my dairy needs.  Life isn't too bad.  It is beginning to hurt again, but... I shouldn't complain.  I shouldn't even be alive.  Later.