A bit of effort.

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Even when I remember, going in can throw me off.  I haven't been great at confession, since the start.  Nor am I good at going on time, regularly.  If, mostly, it isn't sin these days, but flaws.  Certainly blessed to be away from mortal sins.  I have things thought out, set up, prayers and the initiation memorized, sins considered for presentation, when I get in there that all goes away.

I have learned to write certain things down.  As to sins, I keep those to just cues... in case I should lose the notes.  But the prayers, and such, I...  When I get in there, I can't maintain.  So, do what is wise.

However, being very out of practice, I wanted to examine a few sound reviews of the processes.  I can't read well, on these topics.  Vids are my best bet.  I went looking, and found what was required.  I have viewed the first completely.  Took notes.  Looked up a few things.  Then moved on to the second vid.  I am just starting into it, but will watch the thing in entirety yet tonight.  And... take... down notes.  Or, as mentioned, create cues.

As well, I wrote out the introduction phase... what needs to be said.  And will write out the traditional act of contrition.  No worries about humility, sincerity, or entirety.  Really, confession, in one sense, is less about me.  Just something God demands.  Ah, that would be part of the confession... not being to confession (they call it something else, but I... don't like... playing word games) yearly (the minimum), and missing mass.  If covid and my health were problems.  Still, while I can add the difficulties, I have to take my share of blame.

Ugh.  Not my favorite part, going in.  My favorite part coming out.  And, once the slate has been... reset... keeping up should be easier.  Especially now that they are open, again.  Much easier.  Still, nagging little things.  On top of health making focus and such difficult.  But, that... can all be dealt with.  Then I, too, can begin hitting mass.  And... visiting other churches and such, with friends.  I said I would.  Not a liar, when a word is given, if... things get out of control, and time slips.  Still, try to keep my word.  What else is a man.  Women are cats, men are supposed to be words.  If they aren't that, they are nothing.  While I might be no one, I don't want to be nothing.  Amen.

For as simple, and short, this act... it has a gravity beyond it's simplicity.

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My cheat sheet is ready.  I guess, when allowed, it's... not really a cheat?  Amen.