Oh my word.

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It has warmed up, outside, hard and fast, today.  Just at noon and it is 87 out there.  Inside, so far, it is 72/75 and 77 near the computer.  But, it's... beautiful.  I honestly didn't think the ac would help that much.  I suspected a whole house unit would be required to cool the place off.  Though, with an ac upstairs and down, running, maybe that is the equivalent?

I... don't care.  All I know is I can see normally, I don't hurt in very strange ways, I'm not dehydrating to toxic levels, my headaches are simpler... more due to the extra light that is finally hitting.  Sure, days are getting shorter.  But they aren't cloudy half or more of the day, half or more of the sky, most days.

To be honest, the warmth in the front room is a bit of a break from the cool of the main of the house.  I... am quite happy.  Now, though, to work it so that the house gets opened as soon as it cools, for fresh air.  And to save on electric.  A nap in the afternoon, to help with that?  Maybe.  Anything to save money, and get that fresh air.

It'll be a few days.  The heat was really starting to rip me in half.  It may have been party to the poor health, if it probably wasn't all of it.  A few days, of cool, to rest as needed, when wanted, as able?  I may be able to get back to life.  I might be able to begin figuring out how to get back to cleaning the house.

I have fallen, in some areas.  But am way ahead in other areas.  There is a real chance, if I keep the temps just in that right range, that I can really get ahead.  Not too hot, not so frigid.  The 70s, even say 60s to mid 70s, is about as perfect as it gets.  The reason the 60s weren't working earlier is because I wouldn't heat the house once in a while, fearing the heatwave.  It didn't come until just this last week, so I cripled myself by trying to hold on to too much of the cool.  Ugh.

Now that I have a way out, if absolutely necessary, that won't be a problem in the future.  Absolutely amazed at how much cooling this maching puts out.  I suspected all it could do was keep it around 75 to 77.  It's doing 72 with relative ease.  I may back it off, see... what I can get by with.  Trying to save money, electric, but won't mess with overheating for that.

Oh, a few old songs showed.  I... miss them.  You may not understand.  You dont' need to understand.  Look, if you get something from my posts, it is to pray to God, to fear Him (basically more in a respectful, joyful, fear), and look to God when you are afraid, or confused, even angry.

Even if I were one of the horseman, I... wouldn't matter to you.  Whether we are on the same side or not.  Hell, even Lucifer means little.  Just know that he is wrong, chose against God, and has failed himself more than anyone else.  Sympathy for the Devil, empathy?  If you are human, go with sympathy, but offer that to him through God, not directly.  If you are what I suggest I am, empathy.  For I know, to a lessor degree, that... failure.  Giants, nephilim, were born to be evil immaculate.  We were born in such a fashion that we couldn't be aware of God.  Unlike humans, who are born... knowing.

We, in a way, are worse than demons.  But... I think... God just said... no, to that.  He has called us.  Some of us really can't hear.  Some of us were graced with whatever flaws allowed the humility required to hear His songs.  Took a long, long time, but... finally... some of us hear.  Oddly, it is all some of us hear.  Mostly.  More human than human?  In some ways.  Evil just can't win.  Anyway, listen and look to God, don't worry about the stories, true or false, good or evil, of others.  You'll... know.