Nearing bedtime.

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I did get the laundry through.  The load that had been sort of being kicked around in the washer for days was washed, again, but then put in the dryer.  Vinegar was added, and hot water was used.  Then a load of whites was put through, and itself was put on into the dryer.  I am about to check on that.  Probably give it another short spin, just to make sure.  Then close up the washing machine.  I like to let it airdry for a bit.

No dishes.  Didn't clean the freezer top.  Didn't pull meat.  May hop in the shower as the last thing.  Then, hopefully, tomorrow, push some of those remaining things.

No fast work on the registration and house tax.  That will not be ready until about Monday?  Maybe Friday?  I'll make contact, see if they could let me know when it arrives.  I'm trying to sort this out with the youngest of the neighbor brothers.  As I will put him in charge of taxes.  Just have to figure out what will allow him to do so.

Oh, but maybe... not an inspection, but an emission test, for the county.  Right.  Would like to do that tomorrow, or the day after, after... soon.  If I do the above list tomorrow, it... might be a few days before I'll be back in order to get out.  Or... maybe not.  Ugh.

I have been looking at parts, for the bike, on a specific site.  Pricing?  Well, they are a starter site.  And, there may be reasons to join a club, and buy through them.  For one thing, they have a price match.  As well as a loyalty program.  Still, will find parts there, then look for the best prices.  It's a cut-throat game, between buyers, sellers, and other sellers.  But we are up against it.  If, too, I am sure they are... choking.  If we choke, they choke.  No way around that.

Ah, but I went looking.  Found a somewhat smaller bike, older.  For much less.  With only 8k miles, one owner?  So it was written.  I passed it along.  Would be good to have two bikes.  So group rides could happen, different leads for various reasons.  Not sure they will go for it, but... maybe?  Sent the add to the one I have more contact with.  Didn't suggest it was required, just... a consideration.  Money is tight, but having two bikes would make some things easier.

Well... nearly bedtime.  I... keep thinking... the future is either being tooled to an expanse, or things are shorting to a conclusion?  But... I have... been thinking this exact thought for... thirty six years now.  It was absolutely devastating, in the beginning.  It's not great, now.  But it is... better.  Better than that hard fall, better than a few months ago, better than a few weeks ago.  Not as good as last fall and spring?  Or so.  Perhaps better for a spot in the winter, or two winters ago?  But... mostly better, near and far.

I'll keep at it.  Still not absolutely sure... which of us isn't anymore.  Not for absolute certain.  But... I remember her fondly, or... she remembers me?  Both?

The idea of finding a wife...  One who cooks, shops, cleans, has children?  It's... been a while since I've even thought of the possibility, here.  I... really... am thinking that there might yet be life to this place, beyond yet for me?  With me?  Maybe.  Goodnight.