About right?

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Down at 17:45?  Or... so.  Up at 1:15?  Nine hours, if I am counting right.  Tried to stay down longer, but sometimes it just won't happen.  Didn't need more sleep, just wanted to push my day along.  Wouldn't happen.  

Space heater, this morning.  Technically wasn't needed.  For some very strange reason, it was 64 up there, in the main, 62 near me.  That wasn't the space heater.  It hadn't run for five minutes when I got out of bed.  And, that thing barely budges any of the readings, from the times I have tried it.  not sure what is up with that.  It is usually between 53 and 57 up there.  It was just 57 when I went up last night, after a warmer than usual day.  Very strange.

Blood sugar is 128 fasting?  Annoying.  Though, if that is as high as it gets, it's still, technically, in the healthy range.  Just on the higher side of it.  I just took morning medicines.  I'll check bp in an half hour.  Hopefully that will be better again.  I'll only check it again, after night meds... whenever those go in.

Still not sure why I'm still alive.  As mentioned, I am finally to the point where life or death are... fine.  Oh, I'll struggle to live.  It's my lot.  But should that fail, so be it.  I'd sure like to figure out how to do a bit more work, do more.  Not sure it is possible, but I am going to give it a stab.  I have a few ideas.  It's just too cold, in what I call the "corners of the house", side or even main areas, where the heat just doesn't... reach?  There are... ways.  I am going to try.  Not sure that will be enough, but maybe?

Never did get a shower.  But the bathtub is still clear.  So it will be easy this morning.  I should get dishes gathered, for a next run.  And... not sure where laundry is.  Though I think there was a load in the dryer.  Should be dry.  I should also run it another spin... just... to be sure.

I didn't eat yesterday.  Fatted coffee, and bone broth.  That just isn't going to do.  I think I will grab something, today.  But, just burgers.  In-n-Out servers burgers on just lettuce, as does Wendy's, I think.  Not sure where there is a Wendy's in SLC, but know where an In-n-Out is.  But they are so very expensive anymore!  They are crazy expensive!  Ugh.  Still, I don't think I can get to cooking.  I'm just... not... well.  And, yet, I really would like to eat.  No fries, no soda, just burgers.  No sauces, no mayo, no ketchup, zip.  I'd love to do mustard, but commercial mustard all has sugar in it these days.  No, to even that.

It seems the healthier people aim to eat, the worse the food industry gets.  Adding sugar where it isn't needed, or wanted, nor ever been before.  Look at loaves of bread, mustard as mentioned, even mayo if I had to guess.  It's in literally everything premade you can buy.  Not just at the store, but at "healthy" option places.  Weaponized, food has been weaponized.  Eat it, enjoy.  It's easy.  But it isn't even cheap anymore.  They don't have to sell it to addicts, just toss it out.  Remember, in Fight Club, when he sold soap, made from a liposuction clinic's waste?  He suggested he was selling their own fat asses back to them?  That is this, only gone completely corporate, and with intention, on every end of that.  From pharma to industrial ag.  You thought the matrix was bad?  It's, to some degree, your own people who are harvesting you... from cradle to grave.  The new global communism you don't even realize you are party to.

Well, I'm... pulling the plug, backing out, going my own way.  There are limits to what I, and they, can do.  But... I can, and am, doing something.  Starting, it seems, by eating a lot less, eating better, from fresh.  Which has allowed me to dump most medicines, and do slightly better.  No real way out though.  Gotta eat, and they are party to the process.  Limits.  But I'm not just going along for a ride, at this point.

I try to tell some of the younger ones, to begin watching what they are doing, now.  When they get to poor health, it's pretty much too late.  Then they good just as hooked on pharma, and big med, as they do on bad food.  Eating out is not in your favor.  A single soda a day, will get you to diabetes by your mid 30's, and most never get off it at that point.  It's a race to the death, for many Americans.  But not just them.  Mexico has a huge coca~cola problem.  The Islanders are now as bad as native Americans.  Most natives, in most countries, have diabetes problems.  Then again, Europeans aren't doing better.  And I can't see how Asians, who eat rice to beat the band, and white rice to boot, couldn't be having problems.  It's global, it's also intended.  Africa?  Bugs.  All I'm saying.  Bush meat and bugs, and... strange, as North Korean type meat.

Hmm?  Oh, right.  On to... waking.  Then a shower.  Getting a coffee going too.  I did order another french press.  I will try to find the part, to fix the other.  But... I... want coffee.  Done right.  Sooner than later.  Later.