Frustrating.

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Blood sugar is high, or higher than it should be.  Down seventeen points, from this the fasting number, to 133.  But that just shouldn't be that high.  My normal fatted coffee, and half a steak.  Plus, waiting several hours.  It just shouldn't be that high.  Exactly what I ate yesterday.

I suppose I just can't cheat.  Cheating, by drinking milk, over two days, put me back in insulin purgatory.  I guess?  Nothing else going.  Well, that's fine.  I'll keep at it.  If I fall off the wagon, and take a bit of a bruising, I guess that is how it goes.  I'm telling you, carbs, and the various sugars, are worse than whisky.  Fact, I'd say hooch is simply a form of carbs.  Ask potato eaters.  And, probably, rice eaters.  The switch, for those, is easy.

Though, I haven't quite figured out why native americans have such a burn for the stuff?  It's definitely in my genes.  But, for me, it's not an absolute addiction.  It's that... when I start, I can't stop.  But, for a single night.  I can't drink day after day.  But what I can drink in a night would kill most people.  Well, used to be.  I've become a lightweight.  Less than a case plowed me as if I drank three quarts, in the old days.  Crazy.

Anyway...  I think I'll get the dishes soaking.  And wash the freezertop off, clearing it a bit.  And finish those tonight, finally.  This morning, actually.  That and more gaming.  Would like more food, but am not up to cooking or eating it?  Right.  Just... not... going to happen.  I like the idea, just none of the practicals line up.  Frying burger, even if inside, would be good, if I could.  Though... there is some temptation there.  And it wouldn't be a bad thing.  Make the burger into patties, and put a bit of cheese on top.  Does almost sound good.  Just not sure that it will happen.

Oh, I did look out there.  It's up to 18 to 19, if I read right, and remember correctly.  Or was it 21?  It... was in there somewhere.  Close enough, and definitely warming.  And it feels warmer in here.  I was wondering.  Well, on to the setting up the dishes, cleaning the freezertop, and then gaming while that rinses a final hour.  Later.