Getting crispy out there.

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Down to 8 F, checking just now, at 7:50.  I tried the grill again, several times through the night.  Various potential problems.  I'm just not sure.  Altitude might even be playing a part?  Dunno.  I'll check when it warms.  It's too big to bring into the house.  Could put it in the garage, with the space heater near it.  Risks?  Rewards?

Dairy arrived today.  I feel bad that they probably had to make a trip, just for me.  They would have otherwise just gone on to where they were going.  But, as mentioned, the last time they bought it and took it for the day, it froze.  And it never recovered.  It became something like... whipped butter?  Wouldn't blend into the coffee for beans.  Pun partially intended.  At $9 a quart, that's... well.

That they get it for me is a grace though.  They get it too, for themselves.  But milk holds up to the cold much better, it seems.  The milk I ordered with it showed no signs of problems, strangely.  But the cream was shot.  I do feel bad, that they have to do a special trip, for the grumpy old dead guy.  If I could get out regularly, I would.  But, this last year, I have... really gone downhill.  Hoping the new feeding regimen works out.  Though... I've lived 36 years mostly dead now.  Not sure how much could be brought back, and now age has piled on.

Blood sugar is down to 126.  The milk, I think.  That and sleeping being so erratic.  Both of those can, and will, do that.  Still, it's... coming back down.  Look, going carnivore is a heck of a thing.  Keto was... a bit.  This is that on steroids.  But, even in my halting steps, the improvements are amazing.  As mentioned, this is better blood sugar, even with cheats, than what I could ever get and maintain on insulin.

Whining about 126?  Off insulin?  After drinking a gallon of (if raw, whole) milk in two days?  On insulin I'd be back in the 300 range.  That stuff just didn't work, my friends.  And I couldn't lose an ounce.  Not that I am losing a lot now.  Then again, I haven't checked in... a while.  Trying to get blood sugar, and food prep and consumption down.  Then work on bp and begin logging weight.  One thing at a time?  Maybe I should... do it all.  The next time I shower, I will weigh in... even if I have eaten, haven't had a bm, or whatnot.  Just... get on the thing, see how much lard remains to my sweet little bitty babies ass.  :p

Oh, we were having difficulties with the gas line.  Had to drill it, to make it fit.  While checking some things tonight, I found out why.  It's a 6mm.  All we have available is 1/4".  There is enough of a difference so that fitment isn't right.  I tried to find 6mm, but that just isn't offered.  Even in Canada, a supposed metric land, they don't have it or offer it.  If you are going to be a cunt country, go all the way.  But, no, halvsies.  Bastards.

I let the fellow that was sorting that out why it worked, or didn't.  Makes sense?  Indeed.  My thoughts exactly, as I mentioned back with more aires than billionaires?  Well, someone happens to think so... besides me.  :p

Sassy is being fed well.  Trying to make up for missing so much, and for so long.  She may suffer for my exhaustion, but I'll try to sort it out when I can.  It's all I can do.

Hungry again?  No.  I am almost never hungry any more.  I eat more out of some sense of propriety.  Propriety?  I think that might be one of the words for the custom.  Well, that, and if I don't eat, my hunger will take things in hand, and me to a fast food joint.  And... no.  I am doing so much better.

Look, the modern diet is... easier.  It is also lethal.  From the plastics in everything, to additives in the meats, before and after slaughter, to sugars in everything... and not just one type.  It's even tasty, enough.  If you... begin digging in.  But it's lethal.  Not fast, but surely.  And it will destroy your health, make you want to be dead.  Suicides are way up.  Why do you think that is?  Really, think about it.

As for expense?  Even when I eat a thick steak, that costs me $10.  I do have to look for sales, and by when it's hot.  But, can be done... hereabouts anyway.  And, that steak always ends up being two meals.  That's $5 a meal, and I usually can only eat once a day.  That is a lot cheaper than trying too keep up on meat, veggies, dressings, mayo, and whatever else.  Some of it goes bad so very fast, like bread.  Days...  Veggies, sometimes, don't last more than a week.  Ugh!  I was throwing away a lot more than I was eating.  And that was a lot of money.

Carnivore, even steak, once you get trimmed to it to a degree, is far cheaper.  Far, far, cheaper.  A bit of meat is far more satiating.  If getting through the sugar withdrawls doesn't kill you.  Seriously, that is one of the hardest things I've done.  Quitting tobacco was easier.  Booze just... stopped.  Went to beer, then that just a few times a year.  Then Bud pissed that away.  Good for me, though.  Thanks, Bud.  You did me a favor right out of business with you, and all beers.  Thank you.

Yea.  I'll take carnivore.  If I am still struggling with it.  Though it doesn't help when my preferred cooking device pulls up lame.  Ugh.

Well?  On to just a bit more gaming, then I'm going to crash.  Trying to push through, there just isn't anything to push off of, or into.  I'm nearly done.  Coffee might be nice, but I couldn't stomach it.  Couldn't eat anything esle either.  Just a bit more water, then on to bed.  Good... day and night.