Late, but... beautiful sleep.

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I went down around... well, after nine, before ten?  Yea.  Up around 19:30, give or take a quarter.

Calls.  The V.A., my mother (a surprise, she doesn't call me often), and a few others?  I... don't remember.  But, yeah.  Texts?  I'll... look in a bit.

It was supposed to be a nap.  Nope.  And I'm not sure I am finished.  But, I'm up for a good while.  Or a few hours anyway.  Oh, but that was wonderful.  Dreams, I am sure.  Nothing fancy?  I don't remember.  But, they seemed more the soft fluffy dreams of good easy sleep.  Which... actually make me more uncomfortable, in some ways, than my favored nightmares of war and monsters and fighting demons and such.  Those... are real, to me.  The sweet, soft, nice, kind, dreams just... don't... they aren't true.  I've never known them, anyway.

Oh, no whine about that.  I suppose even I have to endure the gentle and soft and kind from time to time.  Some sort of promise of heaven, to be honest.  It's just not for here, now, or yet.  Yes, I think heaven will be all that.  Further, when we get used to that, we will never remember this.  We will be able to make this not, and won't even think about doing otherwise.  Not sacarine sweet, just honest, good, right, and true... without any doubts.  I've seen various forms of it, both in heaven, and after.  Amen.

I finished the milk.  And, today, it shows.  Blood sugar is 155 fasting.  Okay.  But, yeah.  I just didn't want to waste that milk, since I won't be getting to the recipes which were to use it.  Ugh.  I just won't order it, until/unless, I'm back to kefir production.  Yes, that stuff is awesome.  Though, I'm not sure if it will work on carnivore?  I just... I'll... have to think.  

Four carbs per cup, but I usually drink it by the... hmm... if I cut to just a cup a day though?  Maybe.  Four cups in a quart, right?  But I only get three out of a quart.  So... two quarts a week?  Three, really.  But, that is a bit tricky.  Well, with storage containers, it actually can work.  Let me think on it.  I do love the stuff.  And it has some gut biome stuff that is truly... impressive.  And I just like it.  Four carbs a day is doable.

Glasses where in Cali, last I read.  Then they reverted updates, saying they wanted me to join and sign up in order to get realtime updates.  They can eat my ass.  They get nothing.  I don't go that way.  And will complain to my supplier about this.  Fucking cunts.  Gah!  Be honest, and right, UPS!

Now... if I can get to things, I'm going to try to get dishes done.  Only if I think I'll be up and able, then I'll soak them and dry them an hour later.  Not quite sure, right now.  Sort of... in that staging area.  Either I'll get through, or go on back to bed before long.  I just don't know.  Later.