Snowing?

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I... can't call it that.  There are flakes.  They are... sort of coming down.  But I wouldn't quite call it snow.  There just isn't enough to get much out.  Ever heard of a shart?  This... is a shnow?  :p

I went to get the griddle heated.  Which I did.  But only to seanson and clean it, a first shot.  In an half hour, I'll do it again.  I had just used each station, and it had gotten a bit crusty.  Not... really rough.  I could have cooked on it, as was.  I just wanted to hit it this time.  I... like to keep it clear and clean.

I used coconut oil.  Which is more like a lard.  I'm amazed how long a bucket of that stuff lasts.  It was expensive, but it sure lasts.  Yes, one of the few things I was willing to pay out for, organic cold pressed.  There are... reasons.  Including, that the process makes this stuff last a... very long time.  This was stuff I purchased... ten years ago?  And, yes, it is still very good.  I haven't opened any of the other buckets, yet.  I kept it in the fridge after the first opening, probably five years ago?  Now I keep it out.  But, yes, crazy.  This stuff lasts a very long time, and has proven worth the purchase.

Anyway, I used that because it can handle high heats without becoming toxic, has a bit of a sweet odd taste, but that works... for me, spreads so very well, and is good enough for my carnivore diet.  Ghee would be superior, as would correctly done lard or tallow.  The problem with those is, manufacturers are horrible.  They have a really bad rep of lying on their packaging, overheating the materials, adding toxins (seemingly on purpose), and etc.  They simply can't be trusted, even at the higher costs.  

Ghee?  I could try to make that.  But... it would require cleaning up the kitchen, to start.  THEN, doing the process.  If, as well, and first, preparing a few jars, probably pint sized?  And having those ready.  Then... doing the butter processing.  But, finding good butter first.  Don't go with grass fed and finished, pasture raised cow, butter.  Way way overdoing it.  But don't go with generic.  Something... fishy with that.  That's... not all butter, I don't care what the package says.  Watch as that butter warms.  It leaks through the wax paper.  It... changes.  It's not whole real butter.  They must add oil, probably not the good kind either.

To find a decent butter, but not the crazy expensive stuff.  That's half the trick.  I tried ordering ghee, three or four times.  Always ended up with pools of strange liquid on top.  Real ghee doesn't do that!  Again, they added oil.  Making sure you get your poison.  And, again, at every price range I tried, from mediucm to higher priced.  It's all fake.  Given up on olive oil too.  Lots of things just can't be bought, of quality, at any price.  Not worth the hastle.  And, just as soon as you find a good supply?  They fuck you.  No...

Still... the coconut oil was, is, good.  Startups, at least sometimes, do it right.  This company did well.  But, over time, they all sell out?  Get blackmailed into adulterating?  Or just grow greedy, from "need", or just human nature?  I ought to look them up, see if they are still around?  If so, order a fresh new bucket, to replace the one I am using.  Or... maybe two?  Unless their prices have gone nuts?  Curious, though.

Blood sugar is up to 123?  Okay.  I don't care if it goes up a bit, even if for no real reason.  Usually coffee and water will lower it, but... it's... crazy low for no good reason as is, even at 123.  That is the second lowest number, beside the 113 fasting draw this morning, for... two weeks?  Three?  Since Thanksgiving.  It wasn't that meal, though.  It was subsequent adulterations of my diet, added to it anyway?  Something like that.

Why the drop?  I just don't understand.  Not... ever, fully.  Which makes me believe diabetes isn't, for me, a disease.  It is a symptom of something else.  If my heart isn't working, or kidneys, or liver, or any of those.  Perhaps some others as well, or as a group?  I just don't know with certainty.  But, when parts of my body do not work, then I have diabetes.  When they do work, I don't.  So... I don't really have diabetes, I have the symptoms of it.  Caused by other things.

Type 2 diabetes is an eating issue.  I... don't have an eating issue.  Not to that sort of degree.  I have an organ failure issue.  Multiple organ failure.  Just... not lethally, or yet, or... finally.  I am pretty sure, a few years ago, I died up there.  I just didn't stay dead.  It's got to be a God thing.  But a divine intervention, or... just... because... for some unknown course of causes and actions?  I just don't know.

Anyway!  All good.  Gaming, mostly, today.  Let me get out to the grill again.  Give it another heating, and slathering of oil.  It is clear, clean, so just that, then to cook a steak.  Good... morning, it is, I see.  Later.