Crap..

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I spent all night trying to find an "event", that I just found out is random.  It may or may not be on your playthrough.  No boss, or event, or dungeon, is guaranteed.  There are five or six variations of each, and only, say, two to four might show up.  I was sure I had it, at once.  But I must have rerolled.  I know what the entrace looks like.  So spent all "night" looking for something that just wasn't there.

I did find out that... the maps and such make zero sense.  That getting around is terrible.  It's... a minor flaw, but too, part of how the game works.  It's like complaining about the lever on a lever action rifle, or boobs on... well... you know.  As with those things, generally worth the hastle, so.  :p

However, I wish I had looked it up earlier.  Though, I... still wouldn't have been in bed.  I couldn't sleep.  Now?  Maybe.  Almost hungry.  But, no.  I had half a steak.  And a fatted coffee.  That's plenty.  Oh...?  No.  It's Friday, not Saturday.  Always... losing track.  Well, not always.  Just when my days go lickity and split?  Something akin to that.

Is that rain?  Sleet?  Hail?  Rain, I think.  But sure sounds hard, nearly sleet/hail.  Should make sleep easier.  Not sure what I heard, or dreamed I heard.  But... imagine hearing a livestock train, a long one... hauling pigs... but on fire, so the pigs are... making all sorts of awful noise.  Right, from a great distance, so it wasn't perfectly clear.  Just... you can tell something terrible is happening.  Still not sure if that was an odd dream, or... some strange phenomena that I can't know at this point.

I do hurt, I am tired, things are off.  But God is good and I'll get through these things.  Hopefully to bed, shortly.  I'll try now, actually.  No promises.  But... I will try.  Goodnight, hopefully, again.  What is hope for?  It is for when there is no hope at all.  I think it requires faith to work.  Not that it will all turn out as you imagine, or even hope.  But that it will turn out to God's will.  Amen.