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Down at midnight, up at eight, a bit past on both. Nice. It is 74/73 upstairs, 71/70 downstairs, with a fan going and the furnace set to 68? It is 52 out, but know it got down to at least 49 last night. The sun is on warming, and it's up midmorning in the sky. So a very good thing. I will say, having a home which is much more moderated, in temp, is... very nice. Life is easier.
I can take mornings back, in the right conditions. Too cold, or warm, too fast, and everything gets a bit hectic. But, when everything is stable, regarding temps? Life is so much easier. Though? What happens when everything is optimal? Well, then you... still have to live with... yourself, who you are, what you are. A sinner, who will never get it. A thick-necked heathen, if I like to think otherwise. Even when we try, we... fail.
Civilization is a thin veneer. One most of us don't honestly want. Even so, it has taken some people thousands of generations of weeding out the bad, through extreme measures, for that to even be possible. Now it looks like they want the criminal element back, the leadership. And are forcing it back, and not allowing the sheep to defend themselves. They want war on the streets. They have to know, one way or another, it will find them. There is no safety when safety is removed. And if you don't protect the sheep you created, they will not even lift a finger to help you as a leader or "peace keeper". Decide which side you are on. And... sleeping with dogs will find one with tics. Of many sorts.
But, some of the things required for civilization is good housing, clean water, an expectation of law, and such. Too many rich, and elite, and they all living hand to mouth as if they deserved it? things will get rough. Look to England. They have been trying to lead by example, and it looks like America and Europe are gangbusters to follow. Not sure there is enough money to pay for that, buy all those politicians. Must be a lot of blackmail involved too. Well, and dark ceremonies. Really. What it takes to keep the train going off the tracks I can't imagine, and don't want too close a look. When you look into the abyss, it... looks back. To be sure.
It's... not just politicians. It's in the churches, schools high to low, big businesses and even small. Drugs, everywhere. And worse. Everywhere. If you are a family, and still holding, hold tight. Watch for leaks, patch them. Keep your own up, and going. Limping by sometimes. But... do it. And, hold your faith, even while your church flounders. It's God you worship, not your church necessarily. Not the people, if it is good to have some right interactions. It's... not for them. As I have said, if the churches fall away, you need to keep your faith, rightly. Even if alone.
If you are the last Christian, you ARE the church.
Weight is 224.4, blood sugar is 139. Fast food for blood sugar, but just water retention for the weight. I thought weight would be up, after looking at my feet while waking, and feeling them. I've had much worse, but... yeah. I'll... take care of that. I've... definitely had worse. And as careful as I have to be, with diet, it's amazing I can keep hold.
Anyway... Sunday? Hmm... who knew! With things falling into better trim, I need to get to confession myself, and back to church when I can. A few days a week would be good. A Saturday or Sunday mass, and maybe once or twice a week. I... do. I know it. It's been rough. The accident, the diet before that, the diet now. Summer heat, spring adjustments, and winter. There is always something, but things are... getting better? Or... so I like to think. Will see.
Get on to church yourself, if possible. Remember, it isn't your pastor or priest, your cross-eyed church marms, your picky neighbor, or the whole lot of them you are going to see. It's God. Be there with Him, for Him. For, while all of us fail, He does not. He is there with, and for, you. He hasn't even struck you, or me, dead. And probably should have. *grins* Damned kids! :p
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