Surprised me.

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I was sure, with as busy as yesterday was, that I would lose my mornings.  Still, was able to get to bed by 20:30, give or take a quarter hour.  Which way I couldn't say.  I thought a bit early, but time was dragging as I was heading that way.  Just, I know it was well before 21:00.  I did set the alarms, but changed them to five and seven.

I woke around 4:30.  Bladder.  I had a big water before going to bed.  On the good side, I didn't have to wake to pee in the middle of the night, too tired perhaps?  And, I needed the water, being out in the sun, in the vehicle, and rather active (as I see things) all day.  So the body probably used most of the water I gave it.  Rather than it just racing to the bladder as it often does.

Oh, I wasn't sure I wanted to wake.  I am a bit weary, sleepy, with that strange headache I get when I push things a bit much.  Since it's a rare thing, and I don't use painpills almost ever these days?  I'll... have a few this morning.  But... just two.  I used to eat either type by the handful, or four anyway.  Not... good medicine.  But why take a medicine at a dose that doesn't work?  Even two is pushing it, but half so much as four?  Take what good I can give you.

Coffee is already brewing.  I won't feed Sassy first thing.  I cleared her litter yesterday morning, will do that again later.  And changed her water already.  As well, today I will cook that steak, and have a small portion.  That works.  I must not have a histamine problem, as I am able to eat leftover steak without an issue.

One more piece of business to attend?  Two.  Then I can... relax, for a while.  Take a little time off after the race horses of the last two months of stress testing.  Just... rest, sleep, game, look, for a bit.  But not too long.  The goal is, once I can get back on my feet, to begin... ripping into things.  Clearing cupboards.  Not throwing everything.  But throwing what I don't want to take, don't use, won't use.  Could sell it, but everyone has all the little junk they could want, and more than they could use.  Just... let it go.

Everything from glasses, I thought I would use but never do, to keto foods which just didn't work out, to... old food which is past it's prime.  Still usable, but... just to let it go.  Bits and baubles, for this and that.  It's... time to begin the walk into my future, with a lot less of a load.  The trick is to, in the next month or so, see what I can simply put in the garbage bins.  So that I won't have to have a dumpster rental save for the bigger items, or what can't quite be slowly tossed.

As I am doing that, do some of the cleaning and sorting myself.  Be more ready, able, to get other things done.  I'll do what I can.  As well, a bit of business.  Seeking a loan through my bank to begin in earnest, on procuring things.  Screen doors, possibly paint (not sure how far in advance you can buy that stuff though), and other smaller things initially.  The low hanging fruit.

As well, I would like to begin doing some work.  Like, sanding the support beams for the porches, to see if that would do or if they need replaced.  As well, I may replace the overhead panels, on those, and put plywood underneath, for better support.  As is, they are sketch as heck.  Some things will be done that I wanted done but never did.

And, while I will have help, I want and need to do a lot of it myself.  Hoping to use help for the things I honestly can't do, or do solo.  The more technical things?  Though, some things will be beyond both of us, like a new electrical panel, central air (though that may not be as necessary as I had thought?), possibly a new furnace too?  I don't think a new furnace is needed, but... needed isn't always key.  Old is sketch, it just is, to buyers.  Possibly a subpanel in the main, closest, shed and to the garage.  The thing is to do as much with as little as possible.

Lipstick on a pig?  A home is worth buying.  Owning.  But it's... always a bit of a pig.  You can sink a fortune in, if you wish.  It will... still be a pig.  There will always be more to be done.  There will always be something else wrong, or not quite right, or... etc.  There will always be someone to take your money, either offering good or poor work, or incomplete work.  Risks, life is risk, and pain.  Be at peace with it.

Still, I kept my morning.  Or, this day.  We'll see about tomorrow.  Ah!  Coffee should be ready.  Good morning, day.