Not perfect.

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I couldn't get down until 3:30 to 4:00, some time in there.  Just... couldn't cool enough to sleep.  Still, I did my best.  I didn't bother turning the alarms on, though had the wrist alarm on, and it let me know it was eight.  Boy does that thing wake me up well, when not... expected.  Even when awake, it can give me a bit of a start... when the time for it sneaks up on me.

But, that wrist alarm, is set to go off at eight, then every four hours until 20:00.  Four times a day, it helps me... take note that I am alive, awake, what time it is, whether I should eat, pee, feed Sassy, check her litter boxes, or... just... realize I am alive and awake.  It is helping me sort out my life, in the oddest of ways.

It can't force me to go to sleep, or make me wake up, but it can... get me to begin leaning that way.  I am adding tasks to the time, well one anyway.  At 16:00, I am turning the furnace down.  And, if dressed really warmly, dressing down for the night, so that I should be cool enough to sleep in a few hours.

As for feeding Sassy, I try to feed her every two or three hours, independently of the alarm (unless that happens to coincide, but it's not a usual thing).  An ounce of wet food, possibly five to ten treat nibblettes, and check her water and litter through the day.  She gets six feedings a day.  If it ends up being a very long day, I may give her extra treats... more if I am having a later meal.

Another salad last night.  I did add two packets of lemon crystals to the dressing.  Didn't have much impact.  Will see if it just took some time to meld.  I've had that happen even with fresh lemon juice before.  Sometimes the flavor just doesn't get through immediately.

I am not sure those lemon crystal packets are the healthiest things.  Want to use them sparingly.  But they are very convenient.  I'll try the lime packets next.  They had other fruit packets, but I suspect those will be loaded with sugar.  These aren't, or so the nutritional information and ingredient list suggest.  Never can be certain, but it's what I have to work with.

Oh, but too, beginning to work on getting water out again.  It builds up quickly, sometimes.  It's... there is a lot in there currently.  But, too, I have been eating extra.  And not always the right stuff.  While testing veggies, and splurging on canned veggies due to some strange terrible hunger.  Fall and winter onset, I suppose.  The darkness, as the sun begins hiding.  The cooler weather.  Even so, I really don't mind.

Yes, I did wreck blood sugar for a bit.  And weight loss, if again, that isn't the point.  Some of the latter is water weight, I'd guess a lot of it.  And, I finished off the chocolate, am done with canned veggies for a while, but am still tinkering with other veggies.  So... blood sugar will be a bit off from time to time, until that is sorted.  It's as good as I can do.

But, getting back to meat.  I have only eaten one of the fresh steaks, if I polished the last of the ribeyes and top sirloin... a tiny top sirloin, looking more the size of a bratwurst, if the ribeye is very nicely sized.  I still have two thirds of the steak.  I'll have some of that, over lettuce, today.  And, maybe, finish the rest of it later, if I am still hungry later.

If so, I will pull out a t-bone, to thaw.  But fasting tomorrow?  Maybe.  Not sure I can fast through this recent hunger though.  It is so terribly potent.  I haven't had this sort of hunger in... nearly a year.  But, for all my good deeds, regarding food, mostly, I... don't mind feeding that hunger, if I will be trying to eat more carnivore foods.  If... too, mushrooms, broccoli, and cauliflower, to see if they can be added lightly.

Hmm... on to my day.  I did make it up at ten.  Pushing sleep just a bit, but I'm going to try to keep my mornings, regain them.  I have to fight for everything, anything, I want.  Even then, choosing which battles, because I simply can't fight them all.  And... how to fight them.  Carnivore starvation?  More meat... or meat products.  Sleep?  Sorting how to sleep earlier.  Women?  Prayer.  It's... all I've got with them.  Bleh.  Lots and lots of prayer.  Mostly works, so far, for now.

Be well, God's speed, blessings, prayers, and... now... get off my porch!