Thirteen thirty four.

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Awake, comfortably, and for a while.  Famished while at it.  I had kippers earlier, a double dose.  Still... hungry, unreasonably.  The season, one suggests.  And... that feels to be a sure part of it.  Though, to, now that I think, I have been trying to cut cream intake.  No, I HAVE been cutting cream.  Going from a cup to two a day, to half a cup total, in a hurry, may have left me a bit shy.

So, I'm... having a bit more, in this round.  And, while I will cut, I will not cut quite so close to the quick, innit.  Blood sugar is already back down under a hundred, right at 95.  Nice.  I... like those types of numbers.  Day or night, good or bad else, those numbers will see me in better cheer.

Dreams of a wife.  I don't see her face.  Only... speak to her, in the night.  Not the sex stuff, just day planning, meal prep, and various strange worries.  You... know how women are.  Every detail.  They want it right.  They are burdened by fear.  And... other things.  Emotions, I don't know how they don't drown in them.  Well, they do.  Or... try to drown us in them?

Day dreams, and night dreams.  Strange.  I haven't been thinking about any of that.  It's just... in the brain, back there, somewhere.  Wonderful dreams, mostly.  Dealing with the neurosis of a woman can be... annoying.  So many fears, jealousies, angers, worries, and such.  Can't really help them.  Even if you happen to manage one, or three, or then, three will replace every one managed.  But they seem to like... having those things.

Not so much chess, more like, as mentioned, tic-tac-toe.  A little game, very repetitive.  They play to win, but never... do.  Save on the very short games, for very small stakes?  They don't... want to win, or lose.  Funny critters, but I do like them,  Sometimes.  I do miss the talks, at night.  Talking to a woman is like non-sexual touching... and it is worth the effort.  I like spending time with women, my women.  Something about it is good for me too.  For both of us.

Anyway...

I ordered meats.  I am getting low.  Steaks were on sale, if I ordered slightly better this time.  Will see if they are good.  Burger, as well.  Not a great price, but it's all going up, so as good of a price as I have seen in a fairly long time.  As well, I found a better price on tuna.  It's been a while.  Small little steaks, vac sealed, ready for delicious dining.  That is enough food for another three to six months.  And, as I have said, that is less than what I was paying while... eating... anything and everything.  But less than single month bills.  I was spending a fortune.  I mean, I just dropped a ton.  But... I was spending that per month, and more.

Next month, unless I see a really good sale before then, I'll get sirloin.  Perhaps five, ten, maybe twenty if the price is right.  Then I'll be set, solidly, for four to even eight months?  Gosh, I like being stocked well.

Didn't get to work.  Just didn't have it in me.  Hoping to make it to 17:00~19:00.  Hoping to sleep at least eight hours.  I think I'll try to use the alarm.  Set it for when I want to get up, and an hour after as well.  That sort of... gives me some room.  If I can sleep for nine hours, I'll take it.

Gaming, a shower, Sassy fed, coffees, orders... it's good.  Later, perhaps good night already, if only soon on my part.  Be well.