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Didn't get to bed until well after four. Perhaps six, eight? Just... couldn't sleep. Didn't game. Just surfed the internet for no good ends. Drifting, you know.
Trying to figure out how many waterpills to take, and when. Still absolutely bloated from fluid buildup. I asked a friend if he had ever heard of, or maybe tasted, roasted peeled, grapes. Well, this isn't a food thing, but... that is more or less what my feet feel like.
Swollen too heavily, for too long. As well, while the water is being drained, the swelling is going from much to little, back and forth, worsening the sensations. It burns when it shrinks, it burns when it swells back up, it burns while it is switching. They burn when awake, and when asleep. Feeling like they have far too much icey-hot slathered on. It's been that way for weeks now. Mostly, initially, just from swelling. Now for the changes. On the good side, it isn't any worse than it was. But it is, I think, headed toward improvements. It just won't be there for... a while. First I have to get all that fluid out. Then it has to be kept out for a few weeks to a month. Then it might start, over time, begin feeling better.
Warm socks don't help, compression socks and else don't help, showers don't help. It's just sore skin from stretching and now shrinking, and quite a lot. From two times their regular size down to normal in a few hours, and sometimes right back. Working on it. Just not walking on them well, or much. On the good side, when less swollen... usually in the mornings, walking isn't quite so excruciating.
Still, pain goes into the purgatory bucket. Been there, know those folks could use pain prayers. And... bolstering, for their time in the fire. I don't care if people believe. I didn't believe, until I had no choice. Even then, I... tried to remain a non-believer, disbeliever. It was far easier, or seemed to be. Sort of like it seems easier to disobey your parents. Sometimes it might be right, but it isn't easier. Generally, with good parents who have the right intentions for you. Easier in a moment.
Rough shape, generally. I think the flu has mostly passed. Just a bit of recovery, and now dealing with fluid level adjustments. Trying to find health, regain it. So much fluid in me, like a lake or such. Getting it out, while staying rightly hydrated, balancing medicine, fluid intake, and peeing is a trick that just takes time. And it's a bit hard on the body. Doesn't want to let go of as much water as need to go. It's used to having the fluid, at this point.
Anyway. Up at ten. So not much sleep. A bit tired, a bit of a minor headache, a tired heart as it adjusts to changes in the body as fluid is let out. Ugh.
Chicken. I did end up being delivered some food. Gratefully. It allows me a bit of bird for thanksgiving. And some sides. Not fancy, but not bad. I'll take it gladly. A goodly lot yesterday. It had been a bit since I have eaten much. But, today, and ongoing, it'll be just a bit, here and there.
I can't believe Sassy won't eat the chicken. Not the skin, not the meat, won't even gnaw on bones. Same would have eaten everything I gave her, everything she could otherwise find, and stolen from the bucket given half a chance. But cancers were eating her alive. She made it to 26, at least, I do believe. And would have kept on living if I hadn't released her. But that girl could eat like her papa used to eat. And, pretty much anything, everything.
I don't mind. If Sassy doesn't like this food, okay. If she does, though, I just hope she knows she is welcome to it. *shrugs*
On to gaming? I guess. I don't really even want to game. I want to sleep. I can't. So... And I am finished surfing. Not much on the web currently.
Did get a call, from someone claiming to be from the VA. They left a message, about a doctor referral. Problem? VA reps don't work on holidays? I... don't trust it. I'll find a different source, someone to call about calling someone through links I know. It looks like the Biden admin has freed the civil bureaucracy to try to strip as much cash and information from citizens as they can before things "change". Be careful of any call from any US .gov (or other such) employee calling you. Even banks can't be trusted fully. Not sure how much collusion has taken place, and who has been targeted.
Yes, it is dangerous out there. It won't stop when Trump gets in office, unless he absolutely sends forces in to crush these criminal activities hiding within government agencies. Don't believe me? Fine. But be careful with whom you speak, what information you give, and such. Not worth trying to claw back money that may already be gone through courts clogged, or just as crooked as the thieves.
Anyway... I'll call when their offices are supposed to be open, and give them a rough time for calling on a holiday at the very least. No, I don't really trust the VA as is. How many of their phone supports, and bureaucrats, are excons, or vet haters, America haters? Or... all of the above, and then some? Lots of them, if I had to guess. Even when they are actual VA employees, they are sketch as shit.
Ugh. Anyway... Later.
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