Twelve hours down.

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I remember when I suggested I felt like I had been in a fight, or accident, a few days or weeks ago.  Things have changed.  After being in the motorcycle accident, I realized what fresh pain feels like.  And... that is what I felt, and what I feel today.  As if I had been in a serious fight, or accident.

My arms hurt, as if bruising.  When I go to stand, I have to do it in states, usually just two, but sometimes there is a kink in the muscles, so that it takes three stages.  Being beat by a two by four, thrown from a bike, or falling off a horse, can all do that sort of thing.  And... it feels fresher than I thought.  I just don't... feel the fullness of pain, fully consciously.  Maybe never did?  Maybe used to, but now my body isn't awake, or well enough, or have the proper nerve function, in order to feel the fullness of pain?  I can be certain, only that this feels fresh, now that I have sampled fresh pain recently enough to compare.

They say one doesn't remember pain.  I'd... like to beg to differ.

Down around seven or eight, up... somewhere between nineteen and twenty hundred.  Slept well, warmly.  Sassy slept with me for times, dropping in twice that I remember.  Then going off.  I enjoy the furry twerp.  I think she likes me too.  But, has... things to do.

Oh, a bit late for Halloween, but...  I review various things horror, from time to time.  Movies, games, used to do books as well.  Not a terribly huge fan of H.P. Lovecraft, if... respectful of some of his work and general themes.  Part of the problem is bringing that to the screen, or even comics, well.  Too big, and too small of a zone, to do well with certain media, limiting it to a degree.  Still, I like sampling, from time to time.

In that vein, I found a video that offered food for thought.  I have seen some of the movies.  And, mostly, enjoyed the movies.  While I didn't initially consider them Lovecraftian, I see that, in retrospect, with this video putting the notion in the spotlight.  Very good.  Makes me want to look at some of the others.

Oh, cheese.  Lots, and lots, and lots of cheese.  Which is why I didn't watch many of these movies.  Now, however, I... may give them a second chance?  As well, some of the actors I didn't like.  Again, with seeing the ideas in a different light, I may... go ahead and review some of these movies.  Or... would?

Amazon used to offer movies, to prime viewers.  Last I heard, the choice was to have advertisements, or pay for ad-free viewing.  I just stopped watching movies after that.  Haven't heard if that is still the case.  If so?  No.  I only used it for watching an occasional movie, if I could find it for free.  I'm not going to buy, or watch, movies, with ads.  Nor will I pay.  They have made what they are going to make, and amazon no longer offers fast shipping.  Free, but it takes a week or two to get here.  What is should, for free, from anyone.  So... might just end my relationship with amazon.  Shop locally.  At this point, most places price according to amazon anyway.  Tell me shopping isn't a rigged market... bah!

If amazon has changed it's tune, I'll see if I can find these movies.  If not, I guess I won't watch them.  They aren't... worth that much.  Just... a notion.  Is hollywood even making movies anymore?  They were, a few years ago, cranking out horror.  Then that all went dei and... killed itself.  Now, if I watch movies, it's oldies.  But with a new eye.  And, yes, even the oldies were propaganda, and a leftist type of said.  Don't believe me?  Watch an episode or three of mash, bonanza, big valley, or any of the others.  Yeah.

Anyway.  Awake.  I cleaned the pot, which burned a bit, last night.  Soapy water, boiled then simmered.  I cleaned it fairly well this morning, then set it to simmer again.  I think I have done what I can, with it.  In to be washed soon.  I think it was the xanthan gum that burned?  Though, really, I should heat stew/soup more slowly, and keep a closer eye on it.  Still, it wasn't close to the worst thing I've burned in a pot or pan.  And that stew was delicious.

I haven't pulled anything out to thaw.  I'll get that done before long.  A steak, and a tuna steak.  I need to get to the store.  Was hoping to get to church Saturday, for several things.  And to, maybe, shop between this and that, or after.  But that failed.  It's not just your plans I fail to attend.  I can't even have salads because I can't stand long enough to shower, or wake on anything like a real schedule.  Life is tough lately.

Still, it's good.  I'll keep at it.  There is tomorrow, until there isn't.  If there is always tomorrow, save those who won't know more than the earth.  Some... just won't.  Most will.  Though... how many will regret their tomorrows?  I live with tomorrows in mind, and yesterdays not forgotten, but in today.  Every moment of every day is... an opportunity for life, even with pain, and a literally lame body.  I can and do pray, when I can do nothing else.

Have a good day.  I'm... working at it.  Later.