Backing away from spending.

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Smaller orders.  Needs based.  Do I really need that?  Technically, I need almost nothing.  But my life is a bit of a mess.  Sometimes, say, nightlights... that turn on from motion, when it is dark, helps me live a little better... a little less precariously.

True, I always have at least one flashlight.  Unless I wake late, early, off, and didn't get one.  And, even with a flashlight, area lighting is limited.  Okay.  So, yes.  The problem?  Those eat batteries!  I've tried those before.  There are plug in ones, but the areas I need them don't have outlets.

Hmm.  What about rechargeable batteries.  I won't promise those are truly worth it.  But the tech (generally speaking, for rechargeable power sources and else) seems to have greatly improved.  So... okay.  But... now a charger.

You... see where I am going with this, right?  Though this is an actual recent purchase program.  Everything, or many things, take additional purchases.  Even just standard batteries, but in an ongoing, or more frequent ongoing, schedule.

I need to draft a budget.  Only have a limited amount for tinkering, entertainment, and else expenses.  Technically I am saving, slowly.  So slowly I am not sure it actually matters.  But it's something.  How can I increase savings?  Why am I saving?  More for short term emergencies that might be more expensive than a nearly payday to payday living could cover I suppose.

People now think credit cards are the way.  But if you already can't afford it?  How is going into debt, at 20% to 30% interest, a solution?  I am at the point of keeping my cards zeroed.  And I'd highly recommend that.  The debt trap is terrible.  Been there, done that.  Had to dig hard, scrounge, eat cheap food, and pay things off one at a time.  Won't go back. 

However, I recently got hooked on buying.  I've got to cut that off.  This is my first month greatly limiting spending.  So, and again, it's coming down to what I really need and a few wants.  Finding the limits, and reducing from there.  Addictive, spending.  Working on it.

Just a thought, for anyone else, out there, struggling with poor spending habits.

Look... I stopped womanizing, tobacco use, alcohol, and poor eating habits.  My blood sugar is 86, was when I woke up (a true fasting read).  This is just one more trap, bad habit, pathology, to manage.  And I will.  Ugh.  Get to it. 

No, I know.  In this economy, I'll never get ahead.  But I might be able to cover a couple of flats without more than some fine whine, or a cost, expense, trouble here or there.  Or, be buried rightly, in time.  But, as much as anything, just a slight peace of mind even if it is never needed.  And the idea, reality, of living within my means. There is something good, right, about doing that. 

Be well, and frugal as is wise.  You may only live once, some of you, but you might live a bit longer than you can afford.  Later, or good night again?  Bleh.  I just don't know.  Can't quite sleep or fully wake.