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The stuff you don't want in your food, water, or environment. Beside making you batty, insane if chemically induced not natural, before it does any such thing it causes one to weaken physically. How I came about that information was... I was doing a bit of touchup regarding a childhood hobby, the fan-boy hero worship of the early explorers, whom I cheered win, lose, or draw.
This particular venture I studied ended in a total loss. And while it is easy to suggest bad decisions, politics, and false elitist ideals were to fault, it was the same issue whether adventures succeeded or not. The real problem was their then global warming which caused those waters to freeze over several years in a row. Do not even take that as anything but a chuckle at modernist tomfoolery by the way.
While there were a number of problems which didn't help, including lead sealed cans, which adds sweetness, and causes exhaustion, the real problem, only one due to it stopping movement until they were far too low on food and wearied from lead, to escape. Anyway...
What all that resulted in was a consideration. Could lead be a problem here. Thus digging. The EPA, if it's politicized bureaucracy can be trusted *Flint, Michigan* one way or the other, suggests 15 ppm is their standard... though for disolved, particulate, or both I doubt if even they know or have someone in contact with the public who could tell. Why do they have even those that remain? Literally what good are they? Anyway... If the plumbing is pre-1986, which this may or may not be, lead may be used in the city water connect, pipes, and copper solder. Okay.
Now, so, how does one test? More looking. There are several types of tests. The first is purchased, tubes are filled and mailed in, and in a week one is supposed to be able to check online. You are supposed to sign in first, to facilitate access asap. The problem is signing up doesn't work. Veracity of tests, access to results, everything about that was dubious. The other type was water strips. The problem with those? Only tests dissolved lead. So, how do you know? An expert informed that... you can't know, especially with lead piping or solder or old city connect, as that can add particles at any time.
I checked whether reverse osmosis works on lead. It does, so long as the bladder remains intact. How do you know that? Measure particulate in the r.o. water, then tap. Done recently but something to keep a closer eye on. Paranoid? As tired as I am, no. Bad heart and all, but this has been unusually bad, more so given my exemplary attention to the details of food, medicine, sleep, hygiene of person animals and environment (given the givens, if not bad even so). If I am getting lead... Though I will be removing the one possible source, mostly, shortly.
Thursday, January 18, 2018
Down for a nap.
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One project started, filling in a form for autopay on mortgage. As it is set, assuming all is correct, they file it right, and else, I should be on autopay in two months. Further, just from the extra, the place should be paid in fifteen years. Assuming, what, that only a third of full mortgage goes against the place, toward the beginning, I can hope for a ten year payoff... or less, especially if I watch my pennies *cough* and add more at the end of the month. *le sighe* I am horrible with money. Still, it will happen from time to time.
Then saving to get a few things I can't do done, the tools to do the things I can, and parts pieces lumber, etc. Well, and a little more money for else. This spring, a new furnace and ac with humidifier, this fall a new fridge and dishwasher as well as perhaps a small secondary reefer for the porch, for specialt items, then, maybe the second spring or fall out a natural gas generater and eleletrical work (if electrical isn't done this year). Yea? *crinkles nose* Sure sounds like money, which means tightening most other belts.
All good in theory. :p Later. Hopefully just a nap. And thoughts of the better side of things followed by a hard truth.
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One project started, filling in a form for autopay on mortgage. As it is set, assuming all is correct, they file it right, and else, I should be on autopay in two months. Further, just from the extra, the place should be paid in fifteen years. Assuming, what, that only a third of full mortgage goes against the place, toward the beginning, I can hope for a ten year payoff... or less, especially if I watch my pennies *cough* and add more at the end of the month. *le sighe* I am horrible with money. Still, it will happen from time to time.
Then saving to get a few things I can't do done, the tools to do the things I can, and parts pieces lumber, etc. Well, and a little more money for else. This spring, a new furnace and ac with humidifier, this fall a new fridge and dishwasher as well as perhaps a small secondary reefer for the porch, for specialt items, then, maybe the second spring or fall out a natural gas generater and eleletrical work (if electrical isn't done this year). Yea? *crinkles nose* Sure sounds like money, which means tightening most other belts.
All good in theory. :p Later. Hopefully just a nap. And thoughts of the better side of things followed by a hard truth.
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
Small post.
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Awake at 22:15 or so. Slept well. Not sure much will be done. As to fasting, that isn't the current problem. I have broken fasting with extra meals lately. That isn't the problem, and shouldn't be a problem anyway. Just not doing well in spite of being on medicine, sleeping as able, staying well hydrated, and eating even closer to feasting the last three days? I'll keep making efforts to regain a real schedule, then adjusting that to days while doing what work in the cave is possible.
Later.
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Awake at 22:15 or so. Slept well. Not sure much will be done. As to fasting, that isn't the current problem. I have broken fasting with extra meals lately. That isn't the problem, and shouldn't be a problem anyway. Just not doing well in spite of being on medicine, sleeping as able, staying well hydrated, and eating even closer to feasting the last three days? I'll keep making efforts to regain a real schedule, then adjusting that to days while doing what work in the cave is possible.
Later.
Almost folded.
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All plans were falling by the side, one and next. I began exploding into tunnel-vision. I was able, if it took faith and dregs of dregs of vapers and something else? A helping hand. The post. I pushed that, not much choice. Was going to bring the trash bin in, stumbled in, can't focus. Would like to call my priest, can't keep a sure schedule and more, can't talk at volume. Had some other calls, appointments, not yet.
Crashing so hard and fast. Got some things done. Had to break some hard rules, for whatever that means in the ether where I find, or lose, myself. Good night. Right, to bed at 12:47.
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All plans were falling by the side, one and next. I began exploding into tunnel-vision. I was able, if it took faith and dregs of dregs of vapers and something else? A helping hand. The post. I pushed that, not much choice. Was going to bring the trash bin in, stumbled in, can't focus. Would like to call my priest, can't keep a sure schedule and more, can't talk at volume. Had some other calls, appointments, not yet.
Crashing so hard and fast. Got some things done. Had to break some hard rules, for whatever that means in the ether where I find, or lose, myself. Good night. Right, to bed at 12:47.
Tuesday, January 16, 2018
Up. Better again.
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It doesn't take much of a grind to dull my blade, expend all energy, invoke a cloak of fog. If given some time off for good behavior allows for a quicker recharge. Though realizing a few things, tending those, helps. I could not find a comfortable position with regard to pillows. I finally remembered that when that happens, it's not the pillows but the neck. Aspirin is the only thing that might fix it. It did, if taken nearly at waking. Still, I was able to rest comfortably for the last half hour, so as to reset bones and muscles away from the malformations pain had begun to form them.
Awake at 19:30 or so.
I have found that a set of Hail Mary's is quite efficacious for some things. Of course a flustered temptation won't always simply wander off, whimpering back to it's dark source without a fight. Maybe initially, not after being denied too long. That darkness then seeks to defile the source of resistance. Keep pushing through, then invoke others. Some I have known, some I am beginning to investigate more fully... the saints, and a source I am struggling to grasp almost as much as with Mary in the beginning... my guardian angel. The latter, it seems, is not to be named, just accepted? As a prayer multiplier, conduit, and with certain talents to enhance holy discernment or direction? I don't have that down fully, but did use as an ace up my sleeve in the push-back event to good use. Worked surprisingly well. Go get em'! And he did.
Now, to see about today. I am chalking nothing, save the post office, in. Though, with the need of a shower, dishes are in the way. Anything else will... happen or not, as I may. Just because pain has been hidden doesn't mean the causes aren't still there. The pain is actually still there. Live with pain long enough and you learn some bitter truths. Where you go from there will lead you humbly home or into the hells, starting with denial of that reality then on to denying anything else required to maintain that initial denial. That rabbit hole is deep. Don't... deny pain or that reality. It will eat you. Know it, treat it reasonably, but don't then double efforts over the pain sensation modifier. Amen.
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It doesn't take much of a grind to dull my blade, expend all energy, invoke a cloak of fog. If given some time off for good behavior allows for a quicker recharge. Though realizing a few things, tending those, helps. I could not find a comfortable position with regard to pillows. I finally remembered that when that happens, it's not the pillows but the neck. Aspirin is the only thing that might fix it. It did, if taken nearly at waking. Still, I was able to rest comfortably for the last half hour, so as to reset bones and muscles away from the malformations pain had begun to form them.
Awake at 19:30 or so.
I have found that a set of Hail Mary's is quite efficacious for some things. Of course a flustered temptation won't always simply wander off, whimpering back to it's dark source without a fight. Maybe initially, not after being denied too long. That darkness then seeks to defile the source of resistance. Keep pushing through, then invoke others. Some I have known, some I am beginning to investigate more fully... the saints, and a source I am struggling to grasp almost as much as with Mary in the beginning... my guardian angel. The latter, it seems, is not to be named, just accepted? As a prayer multiplier, conduit, and with certain talents to enhance holy discernment or direction? I don't have that down fully, but did use as an ace up my sleeve in the push-back event to good use. Worked surprisingly well. Go get em'! And he did.
Now, to see about today. I am chalking nothing, save the post office, in. Though, with the need of a shower, dishes are in the way. Anything else will... happen or not, as I may. Just because pain has been hidden doesn't mean the causes aren't still there. The pain is actually still there. Live with pain long enough and you learn some bitter truths. Where you go from there will lead you humbly home or into the hells, starting with denial of that reality then on to denying anything else required to maintain that initial denial. That rabbit hole is deep. Don't... deny pain or that reality. It will eat you. Know it, treat it reasonably, but don't then double efforts over the pain sensation modifier. Amen.
Woke? Really? Want to actually wake?
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Yeah. Oh, I took some hits. Some I do accept, one... I have doubts regarding. Harsh, in many ways. If you aren't Catholic this just... it would be far too harsh. However, if you wish to know what traditionalist consider, the orthodox, and can keep your feelings in check? Here you go. If you are a marginal Catholic, I hope you give it a shot. If you are strong, this will still sting. Amen.
Oops. Almost posted directly. I hadn't seen this end request before, will have to review. I do my best no to step on toes. The request is to send people through a link, to the youtube site? Very well, Our Times Part 1: Our Lady's View of Our Times - Fr. Ripperger. It is a workout. Good luck.
I woke at 4:41 by the way. The video isn't that long, if not short. I just took breaks and else. Later.
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Yeah. Oh, I took some hits. Some I do accept, one... I have doubts regarding. Harsh, in many ways. If you aren't Catholic this just... it would be far too harsh. However, if you wish to know what traditionalist consider, the orthodox, and can keep your feelings in check? Here you go. If you are a marginal Catholic, I hope you give it a shot. If you are strong, this will still sting. Amen.
Oops. Almost posted directly. I hadn't seen this end request before, will have to review. I do my best no to step on toes. The request is to send people through a link, to the youtube site? Very well, Our Times Part 1: Our Lady's View of Our Times - Fr. Ripperger. It is a workout. Good luck.
I woke at 4:41 by the way. The video isn't that long, if not short. I just took breaks and else. Later.
Monday, January 15, 2018
Almost on my feet.
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Technically awake at 20:30. Tried to bull on back to sleep after waking at 20:00.
I don't know about you, but when my body wakes, good, bad, or ugly, then I am up. Today I woke between ugly and bad, if I think it will pass quickly enough. Thing is I didn't want to deal with that spit of time. It seems I only made it worse. Some days it is better to take your licks, if not always? And you can never know which is which.
Dreams, of teaching and being taught. Of being the humble only to stumble on pride in even this. The world is full of physical, psychic, and spiritual nettles and thorns. Can't know them all, must be stung by some before understanding sets in, sometimes often. Sometimes, for the greater good, some barbs need be simply endured, as Christ taught quite by example. Many such dreams, though of no previous examples I recall. The two virtues being prayed to obtain are charity and humility, one from each set... might be the fountain from which the dreams flow.
Hmm? Today, or what passes for my day? Well... the completion of what was planned recently. The completion of the kitchen, the bathroom, the last of the dishes, another load of laundry, and if there is time and energy on to the front room. I am not as worried about everything, or immediately. Some days I am slower, some jobs take longer by far than anticipated even working at a solid pace, as well some even larger tasks crop up which weren't anticipated. Still, that is the goal for the week. As well as the laundry area and rear hallway. Cake is the reward if all that is done by next Friday. Yeah, still fasting, if I am eating earlier in order to kick off work, and will begin using ketone crystals today, later on, as with electrlyte powder, if I break a sweat which I usually do, several times a day with housecleaning. The bed and morning prayers have been done. Didn't feel like it, which... is becoming the signal to do things around here.
First, waking. And crisping chicken in the broiler for the first meal, with beef as lunch and final meal at 1:00 or so. Yeah. I hope thos crystals help, if I don't think twice, even once, a day every day is right. Just starter and special day stuff, after I kick into ketosis rightly. Though the need should slacken. Currently at 15 ketones, or the measure of it, considered light. Not bad given my recent carb dive.
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Technically awake at 20:30. Tried to bull on back to sleep after waking at 20:00.
I don't know about you, but when my body wakes, good, bad, or ugly, then I am up. Today I woke between ugly and bad, if I think it will pass quickly enough. Thing is I didn't want to deal with that spit of time. It seems I only made it worse. Some days it is better to take your licks, if not always? And you can never know which is which.
Dreams, of teaching and being taught. Of being the humble only to stumble on pride in even this. The world is full of physical, psychic, and spiritual nettles and thorns. Can't know them all, must be stung by some before understanding sets in, sometimes often. Sometimes, for the greater good, some barbs need be simply endured, as Christ taught quite by example. Many such dreams, though of no previous examples I recall. The two virtues being prayed to obtain are charity and humility, one from each set... might be the fountain from which the dreams flow.
Hmm? Today, or what passes for my day? Well... the completion of what was planned recently. The completion of the kitchen, the bathroom, the last of the dishes, another load of laundry, and if there is time and energy on to the front room. I am not as worried about everything, or immediately. Some days I am slower, some jobs take longer by far than anticipated even working at a solid pace, as well some even larger tasks crop up which weren't anticipated. Still, that is the goal for the week. As well as the laundry area and rear hallway. Cake is the reward if all that is done by next Friday. Yeah, still fasting, if I am eating earlier in order to kick off work, and will begin using ketone crystals today, later on, as with electrlyte powder, if I break a sweat which I usually do, several times a day with housecleaning. The bed and morning prayers have been done. Didn't feel like it, which... is becoming the signal to do things around here.
First, waking. And crisping chicken in the broiler for the first meal, with beef as lunch and final meal at 1:00 or so. Yeah. I hope thos crystals help, if I don't think twice, even once, a day every day is right. Just starter and special day stuff, after I kick into ketosis rightly. Though the need should slacken. Currently at 15 ketones, or the measure of it, considered light. Not bad given my recent carb dive.
A quickie.
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The other day I presented music, if with mild treatment. I wish to fix that.
I suggested that this fits on this blog. However I did not present the notion fully. At the time of my fall I did consider it unfair. I lamented grandly, even attempting to dispose of my very life, if physical pain beyond your ken played a part. Possibly part of why I may have found myself where I did. As well, there was some wish of this on others, who cared little while enjoying their lives, in a vengeful way.
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The other day I presented music, if with mild treatment. I wish to fix that.
I suggested that this fits on this blog. However I did not present the notion fully. At the time of my fall I did consider it unfair. I lamented grandly, even attempting to dispose of my very life, if physical pain beyond your ken played a part. Possibly part of why I may have found myself where I did. As well, there was some wish of this on others, who cared little while enjoying their lives, in a vengeful way.
Food.
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Had to set things aside in order to cook. I did get most of the way through dishes and laundry. I was truly hungry. Beef and chicken. Pork is also thawed, I just don't have time to cook that. I'll do that when I wake next. I will finish laundry, not dishes. Ugh. I'll probably be to bed by 10:00. Same as yesterday. Perhaps I'll try to push to 11:00. Blah. Yeah, probably necessary to do laundry and put food up. Good morning, day, and night.
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Had to set things aside in order to cook. I did get most of the way through dishes and laundry. I was truly hungry. Beef and chicken. Pork is also thawed, I just don't have time to cook that. I'll do that when I wake next. I will finish laundry, not dishes. Ugh. I'll probably be to bed by 10:00. Same as yesterday. Perhaps I'll try to push to 11:00. Blah. Yeah, probably necessary to do laundry and put food up. Good morning, day, and night.
A short.
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Mostly. Awake at 3:03. As if hit by a truck. No pain, just... as if I was well and truly run over, or otherwise well and truly clobbered. A bit longer of a nap if I am surprised the sleep didn't end up a full sleep.
The other thing was from yesterday, dreams. I dreamed of being on the front lines when one side or the other was charging. A snippet of every war the US has engaged back to the civil war. War is far too often run by bloody minded idiots, on every side. I suspect it has always been so. Be glad if you ever had good leadership to the right levels, and civilian leadership that doesn't try to play tin hat generals (which usually means not a Democrat). Horrid dreams, like the visitation of Christmas past, was it, only so many more visits. Each was it's own dream. Wasn't sure I wanted to share, but couldn't see why not after all.
Later.
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Mostly. Awake at 3:03. As if hit by a truck. No pain, just... as if I was well and truly run over, or otherwise well and truly clobbered. A bit longer of a nap if I am surprised the sleep didn't end up a full sleep.
The other thing was from yesterday, dreams. I dreamed of being on the front lines when one side or the other was charging. A snippet of every war the US has engaged back to the civil war. War is far too often run by bloody minded idiots, on every side. I suspect it has always been so. Be glad if you ever had good leadership to the right levels, and civilian leadership that doesn't try to play tin hat generals (which usually means not a Democrat). Horrid dreams, like the visitation of Christmas past, was it, only so many more visits. Each was it's own dream. Wasn't sure I wanted to share, but couldn't see why not after all.
Later.
Brutal.
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Not pain, just the amount of effort it seems to take to do so little work. Sticking with it as is possible. I went through the kefir. Not a grain to be found. I, probably wrongly, dumped it all, starting over with the new stuff. Sometimes, the instructions with the new stuff indicates, if the curds and whey separate, grains won't be visible. Then just mix, use some of the mix with fresh milk, then watch more carefully. The thing is I never saw grains with that stuff. I have two pint jars at it, using the new grains. What a waste of time, that other stuff!
Another load of laundry through, then one more. The last of the dishes, mostly kefir jars, and just a few dirty and new items. Always more if so close to being caught up. Trash went out, recycling went if just to the bin. None of the neighbors have theirs out, so I don't know if it is both or just trash day. Fried, for the moment. Nap time I suppose.
Down at 0:29. Later.
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Not pain, just the amount of effort it seems to take to do so little work. Sticking with it as is possible. I went through the kefir. Not a grain to be found. I, probably wrongly, dumped it all, starting over with the new stuff. Sometimes, the instructions with the new stuff indicates, if the curds and whey separate, grains won't be visible. Then just mix, use some of the mix with fresh milk, then watch more carefully. The thing is I never saw grains with that stuff. I have two pint jars at it, using the new grains. What a waste of time, that other stuff!
Another load of laundry through, then one more. The last of the dishes, mostly kefir jars, and just a few dirty and new items. Always more if so close to being caught up. Trash went out, recycling went if just to the bin. None of the neighbors have theirs out, so I don't know if it is both or just trash day. Fried, for the moment. Nap time I suppose.
Down at 0:29. Later.
Sunday, January 14, 2018
A reasonable sleep.
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I would rather return to eight hour sleeps. Six hours, as to function after, was better until my health couldn't bear the brunt. Winter seems to demand, usually, a few more hours, to ten or twelve, when as always sleep is possible to regulate. Still ten hours beats three to five down with three to ten up. Every day can be as three, with each dragging on for little eternities on top of that. Just a taste.
Awake at 20:00.
Not all bad. There are advantages to such a way. If you ever find yourself in little forevers figure how to capitalize. Trust me, of mind and soul you can advance at least what you lose of flesh, heart? Sad the fools who waste it all in the simple. Further, they will, can, never be true. Pure indoctrination, in any direction, isn't a path to truth. There had best be more than mind or memory. Whole mind, HEART, and SOUL, or it's not enough.
Today? Trash has to go. Out and to the curb. I'd like to hit the toilet and floor in there. Then any last bits in the kitchen, plus extra... to make the kitchen a good spot better than before. Clearing the tabletop and opening more of the back nook. After that, if there is more energy for work, then three things in the front room... boxes from there upstairs, the computer desk together (new one), and perhaps the lovseat cleaned and put out there. Perhaps a nap some time around what could become the halfway mark.
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I would rather return to eight hour sleeps. Six hours, as to function after, was better until my health couldn't bear the brunt. Winter seems to demand, usually, a few more hours, to ten or twelve, when as always sleep is possible to regulate. Still ten hours beats three to five down with three to ten up. Every day can be as three, with each dragging on for little eternities on top of that. Just a taste.
Awake at 20:00.
Not all bad. There are advantages to such a way. If you ever find yourself in little forevers figure how to capitalize. Trust me, of mind and soul you can advance at least what you lose of flesh, heart? Sad the fools who waste it all in the simple. Further, they will, can, never be true. Pure indoctrination, in any direction, isn't a path to truth. There had best be more than mind or memory. Whole mind, HEART, and SOUL, or it's not enough.
Today? Trash has to go. Out and to the curb. I'd like to hit the toilet and floor in there. Then any last bits in the kitchen, plus extra... to make the kitchen a good spot better than before. Clearing the tabletop and opening more of the back nook. After that, if there is more energy for work, then three things in the front room... boxes from there upstairs, the computer desk together (new one), and perhaps the lovseat cleaned and put out there. Perhaps a nap some time around what could become the halfway mark.
Nice surprises.
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I was almost certain, after setting dishes for a soak then putting laundry into the dryer, that it was finished. That was depressing. Not just because I wrote the goals, but because I really wanted to do them, and thought I could. Something seemed to pull me along. I let it, followed. First the dishes were washed, then set to a rinse. A minor rest was had, then right back to them. After those, on to the laundry. Two towels and a t-shirt needed more time, the rest was ready and is folded and stored. I'll probably finish the rest in a few minutes. Especially since I realized it is Sunday not Monday... which would have meant trash needed to go out immediately. I was sure the atomic clock indicated it was Monday. All good. I'll have that out tonight, just a few bags but they need to go.
Next work session, if it stays solid, will be finishing the kitchen up to the last best and change... a bit more... trash, and hopefully on to the front room. I may feel like I am breathing through lungs with a few too many holes, running on a heart that has no thump, in a world that is only partly real, but I'll do it. It is what is left to me. And it doesn't hurt all of the time.
Right. Calling it bedtime at 10:14. I am focusing on being to the post this Tuesday as my next time-stamp event. The reason I haven't set up any appointments I suggested is because my schedule is raw chaos. Until it becomes regular in some meaningful way I just can't risk the trouble. Prayer on regaining a reasonable schedule would always be welcome. Hey, I never ask for a dime, don't even advertise. I'm not even pushy, just a thought.
Good morning, day, and night.
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I was almost certain, after setting dishes for a soak then putting laundry into the dryer, that it was finished. That was depressing. Not just because I wrote the goals, but because I really wanted to do them, and thought I could. Something seemed to pull me along. I let it, followed. First the dishes were washed, then set to a rinse. A minor rest was had, then right back to them. After those, on to the laundry. Two towels and a t-shirt needed more time, the rest was ready and is folded and stored. I'll probably finish the rest in a few minutes. Especially since I realized it is Sunday not Monday... which would have meant trash needed to go out immediately. I was sure the atomic clock indicated it was Monday. All good. I'll have that out tonight, just a few bags but they need to go.
Next work session, if it stays solid, will be finishing the kitchen up to the last best and change... a bit more... trash, and hopefully on to the front room. I may feel like I am breathing through lungs with a few too many holes, running on a heart that has no thump, in a world that is only partly real, but I'll do it. It is what is left to me. And it doesn't hurt all of the time.
Right. Calling it bedtime at 10:14. I am focusing on being to the post this Tuesday as my next time-stamp event. The reason I haven't set up any appointments I suggested is because my schedule is raw chaos. Until it becomes regular in some meaningful way I just can't risk the trouble. Prayer on regaining a reasonable schedule would always be welcome. Hey, I never ask for a dime, don't even advertise. I'm not even pushy, just a thought.
Good morning, day, and night.
Some of it.
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Laundry wasn't what I thought. I always forget that making the bed is part of it. Not always a major thing. When crawling, or attempting it, out of the crypt, everything is a lot of work. Late to start but all is good. All laundry went back with the bedding. A shower shortly thereafter, with those clothes going back as well. Now just a bit of a rest.
More was done though. I have changed two of the three litter boxes. The girls seem happier if done in parts. So be it. The last one will be reset after setting up the dishes. As well I set up the nesting bowls and strainer for working with the kefir... to extract the grains. Tonight, today? Maybe. Having it set up means imminent. Dishes will be set to a soak when water is heated and I am rested. Then a short rest and water recharge (needed? maybe in this cold) and laundry will be started. Just one load tonight but all the way through to folding or hanging and putting away. The laundry may or may not get done. Oh, and trash needs to go out. Bleh.
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Laundry wasn't what I thought. I always forget that making the bed is part of it. Not always a major thing. When crawling, or attempting it, out of the crypt, everything is a lot of work. Late to start but all is good. All laundry went back with the bedding. A shower shortly thereafter, with those clothes going back as well. Now just a bit of a rest.
More was done though. I have changed two of the three litter boxes. The girls seem happier if done in parts. So be it. The last one will be reset after setting up the dishes. As well I set up the nesting bowls and strainer for working with the kefir... to extract the grains. Tonight, today? Maybe. Having it set up means imminent. Dishes will be set to a soak when water is heated and I am rested. Then a short rest and water recharge (needed? maybe in this cold) and laundry will be started. Just one load tonight but all the way through to folding or hanging and putting away. The laundry may or may not get done. Oh, and trash needs to go out. Bleh.
Saturday, January 13, 2018
Better? Oh, one may hope.
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The senses can, do, betray. I seem to be doing better. The pains through and after sleep have dissipated, mostly. If, true, the body isn't being tested. Even so there is a sense of haleness, restored vigor, clarity of mind, and the comforts of virtues. Sleeping a full session for the first time in a while, from well before logging. That helped but is not all, probably not most, of it.
While feeling better is good it isn't all, or the majority, proof. Actions, functions, works, these are the real trial. Not sure I am ready for that and yet it is scheduled. Though my time draws short, a shower and trim or shave, a load of laundry including bedding change through, and at least a start on dishes. I won't worry about kitchen catch up until the next work time unless... maybe... just won't push it. Actually my time shouldn't be growing short, save that life is off? Yeah.
I have been tumbling so desperately through time sleep pain and else... Still, amazed to have made the schedule item then appointment. Trapeze bars from the dark, with jarringly few moments to catch let alone see, while falling and spinning on all axis, to catch not one but two bars. Then I had to let go. Still out of control, if, perhaps, finding or found some footing? No, you don't understand. I'll know more after what of work occurs, much more after the next sleep.
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The senses can, do, betray. I seem to be doing better. The pains through and after sleep have dissipated, mostly. If, true, the body isn't being tested. Even so there is a sense of haleness, restored vigor, clarity of mind, and the comforts of virtues. Sleeping a full session for the first time in a while, from well before logging. That helped but is not all, probably not most, of it.
While feeling better is good it isn't all, or the majority, proof. Actions, functions, works, these are the real trial. Not sure I am ready for that and yet it is scheduled. Though my time draws short, a shower and trim or shave, a load of laundry including bedding change through, and at least a start on dishes. I won't worry about kitchen catch up until the next work time unless... maybe... just won't push it. Actually my time shouldn't be growing short, save that life is off? Yeah.
I have been tumbling so desperately through time sleep pain and else... Still, amazed to have made the schedule item then appointment. Trapeze bars from the dark, with jarringly few moments to catch let alone see, while falling and spinning on all axis, to catch not one but two bars. Then I had to let go. Still out of control, if, perhaps, finding or found some footing? No, you don't understand. I'll know more after what of work occurs, much more after the next sleep.
Awake.
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Not the best sleep. If the sun wasn't out it sure seemed bright. Not that it seemed to wake me, just a sense I got while waking. As well it seemed rather warm. Even with the fan on. I bet it was in the mid 50's. Part of why I disfavor sleeping during the day, often. Woke in the late 16:00's but tried to sleep more, finally seeing no point to the attempt so crawling out at the mid 17:00's. Just time stamping sleep and waking to get some grasp of what is happening. It's rather out of control at the moment. Crawled back in the coffin... fell more like it. Now to figure my way back out.
Started having erotic dreams. Said a few "Hail Mary" prayers, though whether in the dream or partly awake I can't say. Took care of the problem. Very odd though. Didn't know such could be done in such a diminished state of consciousness. Who knew.
Later.
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Not the best sleep. If the sun wasn't out it sure seemed bright. Not that it seemed to wake me, just a sense I got while waking. As well it seemed rather warm. Even with the fan on. I bet it was in the mid 50's. Part of why I disfavor sleeping during the day, often. Woke in the late 16:00's but tried to sleep more, finally seeing no point to the attempt so crawling out at the mid 17:00's. Just time stamping sleep and waking to get some grasp of what is happening. It's rather out of control at the moment. Crawled back in the coffin... fell more like it. Now to figure my way back out.
Started having erotic dreams. Said a few "Hail Mary" prayers, though whether in the dream or partly awake I can't say. Took care of the problem. Very odd though. Didn't know such could be done in such a diminished state of consciousness. Who knew.
Later.
Back to bed.
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Should have gone to bed earlier. Could have probably. Just got tangled in a few things. Now, at 6:21, it will do. Good night, morning, and day.
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Should have gone to bed earlier. Could have probably. Just got tangled in a few things. Now, at 6:21, it will do. Good night, morning, and day.
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