A small gift, to a friend.

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She saw something, which struck her.  And, well, such things have been showing up hereabouts.  Not my... favorite, but... even an old fool can have an appreciation for some things, people, events, actions.  And so it is.  In any case, I thought I would share their side, and... mine.  I have... known... a ballerina.  Well, once, or for a short time.  Not much meat on those bones, I'll tell you that.  Anyway...  Enjoy.

A few things.

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Before meal blood sugar was high.  I hadn't used insulin today, and it was high fasting for whatever reason.  So... that was what it was, and was slightly expected.  There was hope it would drop on it's own, more than it did.  It started at 202.  I ate half the kielbasa, if I wanted the whole thing, and half the 'kraut... which I also could have eaten.

Two hours and change later, I was timing it, blood sugar has dropped to 187.  Not a large drop.  BUT... that was with sugar added sauerkraut and no insulin.  Okay, I take back my suggestion that I won't eat that food again.  But I do understand why I generally don't feel good about them adding sugar to everything!  Most things don't have probiotics which will render the sugar neutral.

Anyway.  Now to finish that, with kefir this time, and insulin.  Then check again in, say, three hours?  Just in time for another kefir and then bedtime.  I am going to keep trying to regain daytime.  I... prefer to be awake when it is hot, sleep when it is cool.  I love being awake in the cool, too, some of it.  If I could just wake at, say, 03:00 to 05:00, that would give me some cool time.

It is down to 67, maybe 66 already.  Outside.  Inside is reading 78, but that is right here near the computer, with the light on, in the front/hot/cold~prevailing room.  The rest of the house was about 72, until I opened things up and... well... initially that is warming things up, to 74.  But it will cool off before long.  Oh, I best get the windows open upstairs.  That will scoot out a decent amount of heat.

Something odd, today.  I found one of the waterers, from the rabbits, had been removed, then shoved around and to the back of the cages.  At first I thought it had been simply taken.  Not so much.  That rabbit must have been without water for some or most of at least the day.  They don't drink much at night, and a sixth of it was gone (it didn't seem to be leaking).  So... who knows.  I best at least check on them in the mornings, even if I do nothing else.  The bottle was quite dirty, though, as if it had been almost attacked, kicked around.  Very strange.

Maybe a shower yet tonight, and another shave.  Something I have been having trouble with is storing my razors... not the blades, the devices.  I am, currently, using safety razors.  I would prefer straight razors, but, for now, this is where I am at.

The thing is, I don't have a lot of space for them, where they are easy to reach, use.  I may have found a trick, if they work.  Bases, which hold them, hopefully, upright.  I have three I sometimes use.  Though one has fallen out of favor.  So, two would be good.  I ordered several types.  Hoping that sorts that clutter out a bit.  The next option would be a (hopefully) wall mounted quad holder, or such.  I need more space, and easy cleaning access without having to deconstruct the area.

Well, the 'kraut and sausage should be about ready.  Or at least I can get the kefir portioned out and ready.  I am calling this a keto post, because what is good for diabetes is generally pretty good for keto diets.  Good day... and night very possibly.

Down to 82 already.

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The sun isn't even close to going down.  And, yet, the temp has dropped four degrees.  All good.  I finally got out for chores.  Not too bad, when I didn't have to stand or walk in the sun.  When that was required, that was uncomfortable.  Still, I will do it.  That is half the reason I have the critters.  I would like to learn to use them for food, too.  But... one thing at a time.

A few stores were put up, away, and sorted.  A few arrived today.  Mostly more fizz water.  Blank, this time.  But I have peach, strawberry, and... some other flavor... coming soon.  If I am careful with consumption, between these and kefir, I should have enough water here or on the way to cover summer.  I may, also, begin drinking regular water, as able.

I am slowly improving.  Dying faster than improving, but... what of it.  Take what you can get, while the getting is good.  I will be happy to die when God calls.  Even if I have... things I am still trying to do.  Anything I do, that is good, useful, successful, right?  Is both for Him and from Him, anyway.  So... it is gladly His call.  I live for Him, I will live for Him here or there.  Amen.

Still four chicks.  Found a dead strange bird in the pool, so cleaned it out.  It wouldn't surprise me if the ducks kills birds.  I have found several dead, initially just broken.  Later, a cat or else got to them.  I tossed them, but they were brought back.  Likes to eat on nice lawn, not out in the weeds.  

Rabbits are doing good, but looking to begin to be heat stressed.  I need to redress the tarps.  Covering from overhead, and covering east and/or west, wherever the sun may get in.  As well, I may angle them to better deflect and resist the heat and sun.  But to keep as much open for airflow as possible.  Yes, I... am hoping to do that later this evening.

Kielbasa is simmering away.  After fully cooked to my liking, just needs warmed really but I like it warmed as if cooked, I will let it cool, then add the sauerkraut.  I don't want that over 115, remember?  Right.  While it has 2 carbs, I am finishing it off.  But I will never buy that kind again.  Never, ever, add sugar to good foods.  Then again, I should do a before and after blood sugar reading... perhaps the probiotics DO eat the sugars.  Still, it's a dumbass thing to do.  And they wonder why we hate them.

Oh, if I didn't mention, I have started a golden raisin vinegar.  I check it every day, or other.  Sampling just the sample of a sip, mixing, and if needed, adding more water.  It is... doing things.  I can never remember if it is ten or twenty days that the fruit stock stays in.  But, then, it is given, all told, twenty or thirty days to finish?  Or, if it was twenty days with fruit, then it is give ten days.  Anyway... I have started.  I need to look that up, again, and write it on the paper I have with it.  It has the starting date on it.  I just need to add the fruit removal day and the "finish" day.  But it will continue to improve.  Little things.  I... really enjoy the little things, when I can remember my name.  A bigger thing, but so it goes.  Later.

Very strange.

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I crashed at about 08:00.  I set the alarm for 10:00.  No dice.  Here it is, was, 16:00, and maybe very small change, before I could wake.  I think it read 75 upstairs, near me.  But the fan kept it from feeling it.  The rest of upstairs was 73.  Downstairs reads 76 in this hot front room, 72 (if it feels a LOT cooler) in the main room, and less from the kitchen back.  My house is... unique.

Anyway, it is all I could do.  Not sure if I got heat-locked into sleep.  But it doesn't feel like it.  When I do that, I usually wake heatsickened.  I don't have that.  But what is odd, is that while all I had for breakfast at 03:00, then "lunch" at between 07:00 and 08:00, were small servings of kefir, and a dose of insulin (small dose)... and my fasting blood sugar was ~164, my fasting blood sugar now is 213!  Blah!

Outside is 86?!?  Bleh!  I'll... wake and... think about life and action.  Later.

So cold?

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Yes, oddly.  This front room is down to 69.  The middle room is similar, but feels warmer.  And the kitchen is more like 64?  I would bet.  With fans going and windows open.  So, I shut it all down.  It is about to start warming, anyway.  I have captured as much cool as possible.  But it's a bit too cool.  Still, I'll take it, and try to hold onto as much of it as possible.  Oh!  Upstairs.  Ugh... stairs.  Still...  I did close all but two windows, after waking.

Besides, I need to get dressed for the day.  I'm in house clothes, need something a bit better for polite society.  Maybe a bit warmer, too.  Still, after yesterday, it was nice to be cold... cool?  No, cold.  I'll still be in cooler wear, but not this cool.  Then on to chores?  Well, after a bit.  I want the sun to be up enough for the critters to be more awake.  Sounds like the ducks were yucking it up about something.  Duck romance, might surprise you how... similar to some human drama centers it actually is.  I guess when people go animal, they simply mimic the real thing is all.

Still, as I said, chores in the morning seems best.  As well, any work out there... I'd like to have done by noon, or even 10:00.  It just works better.  Often work can be done without overheating, if done by then.  I ought to see if my raft still floats, and, if so, begin using it from time to time... either really early in the morning, or later in the evening, but not in the dark either way.

On to dressing.  Then chores.  Then breakfast... eggs and bacon I am hoping.  I wonder if I should do bacon ahead of time... or partially?  Perhaps just bake a tray of it, mostly done, then keep it in a bag.  Doling out portions.  Not sure it would last well.  But, if it lasts a week, it would make breakfasts a bit faster?  Dunno.  I always think about food and how to have my cake while eating it too.  Isn't possible, but can get closer in steps, from time to time.  Later.

A few efforts.

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I attempted signing up for my healthevet.  No luck.  It kept saying my user name had already been taken.  Which probably means it only works with microsoft's browser.  Which pretty much makes it useless for me.  Government websites, for just about anything, are horrible.  Not wonder they are always getting hacked.

Ah, and I took blood sugar, first thing.  Not sure it is a fasting blood draw, though probably pretty close if not.  It was two to three hours before going down that I ate last, at least.  Plus the hour it took to go to sleep.  Then I was asleep for about four hours, so... right, that's right at eight to nine hours.  At 164 fasting, then, it could have been worse.  Fast food will mess with that, but then again, so will everything.

I had forgotten the slow acting insulin, though, as well.  I did get that taken after remembering.  It was still early enough.  Often I end up taking at at bedtime, which has been 05:00 to 11:00 lately.  Heck, it's just hitting 05:00 now.  A quarter to anyway.

Another kefir?  Bacon and eggs?  Something has to happen.  Oh, could feed the cats, and do their litter a cleaning.  Then chores will be just chores.  Later.

A good, but short, sleep.

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I tucked in at 21:37.  I didn't get to sleep until 22:37 and change.  But sleep came shortly after the checking of the clock.  I set the alarms for 06:00 and 08:00.  I had planned to set them later, but wanted to be up no later than 08:00, so as to close the house up.  Actually, I was hoping for a 06:00 rise, or earlier.

Or earlier it is.  Not perfect.  It won't work long term.  But as a stepping stone, maybe.  Perhaps a nap between now and my next, hopefully similar, bedtime.  Perhaps, in the cool of the morning, I can get out and do some work?  Nothing fancy.  Creating a shelf for the other rabbit quadcage, in the outbuilding, and maybe begin... picking up sticks.  A Jack job, if he be nimble?

Then, perhaps, doing a bit in the house.  Plus calling the V.A. about medicine.  Oh, and getting a payment stopped.  Always more little things.  Trying to do a timely tending is insanely complicated, difficult, when balancing one foot in the grave, one out.  Still, who doesn't like a challenge!  Bleh.

Sleep was good.  Kefir going down as I write.  I brushed before bed, as usual... hate those nights I miss.  Should have brushed first, but was hungry.  It is good to enjoy a bit of the cool night air, either before, but better after, sleep.  Plus, I will be... should still be... awake when the sun comes up.  The house is still partially open, with fans going.  It is 72-74 upstairs, warmer closer to where I sleep, 49-50 outside, 70 in the back areas, 68 up in this front room.  Odd, but so be it.  I suppose the soil is getting around 70, now.  Which means the main house won't cool off much more than that without air conditioning.

Later.

Chores.

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The rabbits all looked good.  Food was still in plenty.  Water is going fast, but that was to be expected.  Still four ducklings, very cute little things.  All are fed, watered, and... litter.  I'll get that yet this evening.  I have been keeping up on that fairly well... the last few days.

Showered, two days in a row.  Teeth are back in order.  Even a shave.

On the bad side, I hurt.  Chores about cracked me.  Odd.  I really don't get that.  Does the heat do things, or was it pushing my sleep cycle as I did today?  Or, as is often the case, just because.  As I have said and written, if I hadn't seen heaven, and the fire I would have to go through to get there, for this pain I would commit suicide.  I would have kept trying.  Well, and finally, a belief in what I saw.  I tried my best to not believe, for a long time.  

Today, right now, is one of those days, times.  I wonder if continuing to live in the face of suffering... is considered... good, by God.  Is it considered a sacrifice?  Or... is it merely expected?  I... I am simply not willing to risk... separating myself from God, now that I know.  Not that I don't sin, fail, fall... just... I get back up, dust off, and keep heading His way.  All good.

I have been keeping up on meds.  Oh, but I need to check on the other medicine my doctor scripted.  I haven't seen it, perhaps they didn't just send?  I've either been busy or blasted, tomorrow, for certain.  Oh, and blood sugar was 88 a few hours after my second kefir, with only one dose of insulin with the first one... after a fast food meal.  Weird.  But, okay.  Maybe it will kick up tonight, or even tomorrow or the day after.  It does weird things like that.

Still hungry, but I think that is it for tonight.  I'll get something going tomorrow.  I may be going on to bed earlier tonight.  I'm, my body, is pretty cranky.  Not a mood, an uncomfortable bit of pain.  But it might work out, if I can get my days back around.  If I get to bed early, I will set that alarm for... nine, and eleven hours of sleep... just as a potential help, if my body tries to keep to the same waking schedule as recently.  That may not work, either.  Worth a try.

Later.  Or good night.

So much for my concern.

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The rabbits are doing spectacular.  They are showing zero signs of heat stress.  So, after all the work to get to their water bottles, I didn't leave them out there.  Gotta admit, there isn't much room for more bottles in there.  So, I thought, I might just go set up the other freezer... which has been idle, unplugged, unused, for a while... since I could afford meat in the freezer in halves and quarters.

So, I... went and.  Oh, geez.  Covered in clothing... which needs to be sorted.  Yea.  Not... today.  Or, not yet today.  Maybe later, when... if... it cools a bit.

I haven't done chores, but everything is looking good, from a general check.  I'll do it when it cools a bit, and I catch my breath.  I would rather do it early in the morning, before it warms too much.  But... I... my sleep is so off.  This had to happen, eventually.

If it doesn't climb too high, too fast, I might be able to acclimate.  But, remember, it went from the 30's to 40's for a low to the 50's to 60's as a high, to 78, then 80, in a single flip of a day.  It... takes a while for me to adjust.  That I am not freaking out, turning on the ac's, and hiding/sleeping in the upstairs closet is... a good sign.  Although, I am browning from chores.  Yea.  I... burn easily.  I have all windows with blackout curtains and an extra layer as well.  

So... yes, doing good already.  Though I may put the ac's in, get them going, if it doesn't cool off enough up there to sleep.  I don't mind the heat in the day, up to a degree.  But I don't want to mess with the heat while trying to sleep.  That's where I draw the line, if too I am trying to redefine the line to a bit warmer.  Last night, it was 74 up there, at least near me.  I was able to do it.  And wake way early... like most people waking at 02:00 in the morning or something.  Still, a bit cooler would be nice.

I have things to do.  I just... can't remember what all.  Bleh.  Chores, something to eat, cats, and cleaning... when I can.  Not in the heat of the day.  Amen.

Cooling down is so good!

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Just like when hangry... the grumpy, sometimes vicious, nature which comes when hungry... or really any typical things that make a baby cry... wet, hungry, tired, too hot, too cold, etc... heat is definitely up there.  My body has a gauge, and if it reaches a certain point for heat... though heat and hunger are the worst, especially when combined... I get... hmm... rough.

I hadn't reached that point, but I was fast approaching it.  So I sorted out food, even if poorly... it is what I could do in a timely fashion.  Then I sorted out cooling.  Very nice.  The rest of the house is about 71, downstairs.  This front room is 74.  Even this front room isn't bad, if I being here will heat it up, where that doesn't happen in the other room/part of the house.

I have figured some things out, over time living here.  How to cut to trim, to make it cooler, here, or there.  It isn't perfect, but it's better than the first five years.  Though, even with all the tricks, heat is heat.  More, not every trick, or all of them combined, work every time.  Why that is concerns variables beyond the simple, or even complex, variables for which I can account.  Though, I think, much of it has to do with the wind direction.  My home is more vulnerable to wind from certain directions, if I haven't nailed that yet.  Working on it.

The girls have been fed.  It's about time to figure out ice bottles for the rabbits.  It would have been done, but... the freezer lid is covered.  That will be a chore on it's own.  I needed to cool before doing that.  Yes, poor dears.  But... it is just about ready.  Further?  I have to figure out how to keep that cleared.  Which... means... clearing the table and keeping it clear?  Probably.  Bleh.  I need to get ice out and new bottles of water in to freeze for two days out...  Keeping, say, two to three days of bottles frozen at a time.  And, I can't be having to clear  that every day, especially every time I need to get those out or put some more in.  Then I will do the rest of chores.

Well... on to it I guess.  Oh... the good thing about warmer weather?  Kefir doesn't take three days to 'cook'.  A single day, sometimes half a day, is enough.  Very nice.  That is one super advantage.  Oh, and I have golden raisin vinegar cooking, now, too.  I had hoped to have cherry vinegar going too, but FedEx seems to have forgotten a package that was supposed to be delivered a week ago.  I am surprised they haven't canceled it yet.  I will do that if I don't see it soon.  I'll just reorder.

Well... on to... things.  Good afternoon and day. 

It is HOT out there.

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Sometimes 80 is okay, sometimes 80 is hot.  Today 80 is hot!

My sleep patterns are still gummed up, but I had to make an appointment.  Wasn't sure I would, could.  This time I did.  I set the alarms for 11:00 and 13:00.  But woke around 08:00, after going to bed around... 04:00~05:00.  I woke because it was getting too warm.  So I shut all the windows.  Only one downstairs, but I couldn't remember.  And it had to be closed anyway.  But four windows were open upstairs.

Should have known it would get hot, being that warm that early.  Even then, it was 74 upstairs.  It was a bear to get up and do that, then, but... had to or my sleep would have become brutal.  While at it, I changed the alarm setting.  Turning off the earlier one, and changing the later one to noon?  And hoped it would work.

I snoozed that whole noon alarm, and reset it for 13:00.  My appointment was at 14:00, so it would be tight.  I had showered before bedtime, so there was that.  Still, I wanted a fresh shower, shave, and teeth brushing.  I ended up getting out of bed just a bit before t he alarm.  I did get a shower, shave, teeth brushed, and out and to the appointment just on time.

Is 80 really hot?  If you shower, shave, jump in clothes, and run... yes.  It can be otherwise, too.  But definitely if you push things.  As well, if that is the highest temperature in ten months?  Yes, that adds to it.  Yesterday felt good, at more like 78.  But I was in shorts, and a t, strolling rather than running, not in the microwave dish they call a car, and not hurried or worried.  Still, all good.

I knew better, but grabbed a meal on the way out of town.  Yes, junk food.  I didn't want to stop at a gooder place, and can never be sure about those anyway either.  And I wasn't going to cook when I got home.  Blood sugar, last night, was 97.  Bleh.  So much for that.  I'll have a kefir, and insulin with it, right after this.  It was 72 in here, the hot/cold (based on outdoor prevailing) front room, up to 73 with me, the machine, and a light.  It is led but, still... *click*  One less heat source.

Yea, kefir, shoes off, changing to short and a looser t, and cooling off playing a game in the other room.  It's cooler in there.  Then chores.  Hmm... may feed the girls first.  I had time for no chores or else, other than cleaning, clearing, and going this morning... well... my morning, your afternoon.  Yea.  Though I may take out frozen bottles for the rabbits.  At 80 and up, I want them to have frozen bottles for this time of day.

Good day.  Later.

Strange.

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It was nearly 80 out there!  It felt really... good?  Yes, really.  Chores have me a bit overheated.  Well, doing chores in that temp does.  Still, it was pleasant to do them, in that weather.  The animals are all good.  No panting or weird behavior.  Thirsty devils, but... that is good.  I may, for now, double the little waterers I have.  I really need middle sized waterers.  But everywhere I have tried, they have been out or declined the sale (which probably meant they were out).

Still four ducklings, for now.  I'm avoiding getting too attached.  But do enjoy the little things.  I keep my distance, and just watch on.  Life, and death, are difficult things.  But moments can be quite nice.  Henry is still at it.  That is the horniest critter I have ever seen.  Thankfully my feet aren't feathered, or I swear, he'd try.

I am surprised I don't have pain, or exhaustion, or anything, from the long awake cycle.  I didn't even realize I was past the zone line, and so deep in I couldn't remember my name, almost.  Caffeine really has some zap.  Probably just a morning thing, from time to time.  Maybe daily, maybe not.  I don't know.  But... I'll... wait until tomorrow to have more.

Though I would like to try to get to sleep in the early to late evening, try to grab the day back.  I... never know.  Blood sugar is high again.  Very strange.  Kefir shouldn't do it.  Roast pork and veggies shouldn't do it.  I am keeping my calories very low, protein and fat are more balanced... I need more fat, but it's still not bad.  And carbs are very low.  I just don't get it.  Yes, taking insulin... fast and slow.  Though lower doses because more causes crashes.  Gah!  Later.

Coffee indeed.

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One shot of the stuff was good, so I had another.  That stuff kept me up 24 hours.  I didn't get to bed until 06:13... 18? this morning.  It's been so long since I've touched the stuff.  Couldn't do much with it, like being confined for a week, then being offered an opportunity to move, but only if you sprint... something like that.  Nothing was ready to use that energy.  Not sure if it equates to that, either.  Maybe it was just nervous energy.  Not sure.

Awake at 15:30, or so.  I needed the sleep.  Even as warm as it is getting up there.  It was 72 upstairs this morning.  Uhrm, afternoon that is.  So... what to do.  Chores is about all I have been able to do for a while.  I need to do more, soon.  I just have to.  Then again, if it is warming, that will help, unless it gets too hot.  Bleh.  Always something.  Especially when you are in a state of dying.

I see it in Sam.  Some days she has trouble just staying awake.  Especially when it is cold, though when it is hot, too.  She has a twitch, now, sometimes.  She has had it for several years.  Trying to stay awake, or is it actually trying to stay alive?  I... get that.  I do.

Memorial day?  My mother says they hold events, often at cemeteries.  I guess I'd never know.  Even with many of my favorites and former best friends, various sorts of others, and families, in the ground, I just...  I have never known how to deal with that.  Then again, I'm almost with them, in more ways than one, so...  I may have to see about such events.  Too short of notice, this year.  Though, they may celebrate it more on Saturdays, or even Sundays, for various reasons.  Still, something to think about in the future.

Later.

I did make it quite late.

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Chores were done, cats fed, watered, and litter sorted.  Not much else.  I... sort of zoned.  Lost time.  It's 23:25.  I need to get a shower, shave, dry a bit before going on to bed.  Perhaps eat something.  Blood sugar is strangely high.  I have had two 2 to 3 cup doses of kefir, and have taken insulin both times.  Oh, but I did have coffee, with liquid stevia.  Really?  Maybe stevia is as bad as all others?  Or, maybe, I need to be careful about how much and how often.

Hmm, but I would like to make something tasty.  I wonder if I have chicken thawed.  If so, I wonder if it is good?  Just bake it, this time.  Drumsticks.  If not, I could do a roast in the instapot.  It will extend my day, but... I really am hungry.  High blood sugar or not, I have to eat.  Oh, blood sugar is 176, down ten points from the reading before it.  Very strange.

I can get that going, then shower and shave.  Yea.  Later, or good night.

Coffee!

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Yes, that... helps.  Although I need to find a savory, rather than sweet, but not salty (ARGHHHHH!!!) recipe.  Butter?  Not really, though perhaps instead of cream at times?  And, herbal, there might be some things I could try that way.  Still, now that caffeine, missing from my life, is noticed, a... work-around can begin to be tailored.

Oh, and... probably one dose of coffee a day should be... enough.  It is proving to be a bit much, if I do more.  Too late to do much about that.  Oh, but that sweet sweet caffeine!  I'll keep working on it, perhaps do a bit of searching.  I'm not interested in really fancy, odd, peculiar, or fantastical recipes.  I need it simple, repeatable, slightly variable for moods, and easy.  Well, and cheap.

I wasn't able to do much with the extra energy.  But I may be extending my nights back into daytime.  No doubt, it is past noon and I am still going, may well be for another hour or five.  *blinkers on high*  I will probably get to chores before going on to bed.  And maybe, just maybe, do some cleaning.

The problem with much work is I simply wasn't... prepared... for the 'zoom'!  My body isn't, wasn't, ready to scramble.  It may not happen the same way every time, either.  I will have to, sort of, get ready for this.  But, yes, this helps.  As well, something warm in the cool to cold of the night also helps.  Oh, I should have coffee one day, perhaps, and get back to bone broth on the other day.  With butter, maybe with tea.  The odd thing about tea, though, is it never gave me a kick, like coffee does.  It has higher amounts of caffeine, but it doesn't deliver a punch like coffee.  It's dose may simply not deliver equally to volume that coffee does?  It sure doesn't, by felt, if there is room for subjective... still, that IS a form of empirical.  Bleh.

What?  Shut up.

I will game a bit more, try to get things in order, for this or that, and maybe burn off some of the extra juice flowing through the lines.  Energy I would much rather be using, but like a sail not set to grab the wind, and no mechanism by which to adjust the sails on the fly in this case, the wind is spilling the sheets, with only frustration after such a long episode of doldrums!  GAH!  I could almost cry.  But, next time I will try to be ready.  At least to use some of it.  Later.

Hmm, well, I'm trying to restart.

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Chores were swiftly finished, if I hadn't done them as of last post.  Rabbits were almost all good with food, but needed water, a few, most.  I gave a few of them attention, but not all.  Soon I will begin handling them.  As well, possibly, grooming them a bit.  I have gloves with bristles, for furry pets and such.  I bought it for the cats, but after sorting things out with them, they prefer just scritchy scratches.  I would like to try it on the rabbits.

There are still four chicks, remaining, for now.  Bigger each day.  I don't have a lot of hope for them, but so be it.  Until I can arrange a safer group of arrangements, I'm not sure many will make it.  I'll... work on that.  Soon.  I hope.  I would like to have enough to have, say, eight to ten food birds a year, then replace a few birds each year.  A few more hens would be nice, and I may just replace the indian runners without adding to their numbers.  Anyway... if I can manage nesting/hatchling zones which are large enough for mom and younglings, it'll work out.  Time... always need more time, or... energy.

With just one meal of kefir, and 20 cc's of fast acting insulin, blood sugar went from 217 to 88 currently.  That... really shouldn't happen like that.  I'll have more kefir, and make 'kraut and kielbasa very soon.  Before a crash happens, hopefully.  Not many, if any, carbs in there.  But the fats?  More the proteins, proteins will help.  I don't want to use tabs again.

I am collecting bottles.  I have been... leaving them to breed and run around like idiots.  Well, I... definitely have enough.  More than enough.  For use as water filled, frozen, cooling systems for the rabbits.  I have three bags of them, filled, and frozen, for when it warms up.  I also, after collecting, and so far, have about six bags of them elsewise.  I will probably recycle most, save maybe two bags for replacements if they don't hold up.  Ugh.  But, collecting them is a start.  From now on, other than what I have set aside, the rest will go into recycling immediately.  Ever start something, then forget... lose track... and not stop!  Ugh.

I have closed the house up.  Outside had dropped to 57, last I looked.  The feel is that it will keep dropping.  Down to freezing again?  Maybe.  But it will get cooler or just cold out there.  I turned the furnace up, because while the temps are reading 67~69, it doesn't feel like it.

A meal, then a shower and shave?  I can hope.  I definitely enjoy catching up and keeping up, when possible.  Then some work in the bathroom?  Maybe.  If I can get the shower and cleanup, in there, I would like to start dishes, and maybe towels.  Put them out on the line?  Not this time.  Or... maybe.  I just... I'll think about it.

Later.  Best eat before something bad happens.   

An understanding, a tech solution, an answer, and a problem.

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Sleep was good, when I finally could sleep.  What time?  Uhrm, it was around... well... after 05:00.  Anywhere from then to 09:00, I think.  Later?  Not earlier.  I think closer to the start potential to a few hours after.  I... tried to remember.  I can't recall.  I woke around 17:00~17:30, probably about in the middle.  I tried to sleep before, it just didn't work.

It is 70 outside, and nearly that inside.  The furnace is off, so that doesn't make sense.  It is heavily overcast outside, but doesn't look like we received any rain from it.  Thanks, China.  I opened everything up.  While it is warmer out there, there is a breeze coming through which is much cooler.  It was down to at least 30 last night.  That is a rather large jump in temps.  But... all good.

The understanding?  ~  Forgot.  Maybe later.

The tech solution?  Well?  I noticed my fingertips no longer hurt.  I had to think, for a second, as I was taking blood sugar this morning.  It was 217, by t he way, after getting to 101, stably, last night.  Bleh.  The thing is, the new glucometer really does take a LOT less blood.  I don't need to press my fingers for larger drops for hungrier devices... test strips really.  So?  So my finger tips aren't have blood forced through holes, it just oozes out, mostly on it's own.  A win.

The answer?  Why so tired.  I... thought I had acclimated to medicine?  Oh, have started the new medicine, but... to what I am on so far.  Reminds me, I need to call about the medicine.  Bleh.  But... again... why so tired!  It has warmed up, mostly, and is mostly stable in any case.  So... why?  Ah!  I used to drink one to four gallons of highly caffeinated tea.  I haven't had a drop, mostly, in... weeks, or a month now?  I... may have to add a cup of instant joe or two a day.  Yes, I think so.

The problem.  ~  Forgot.  Maybe later.  I... had the list of four, then, as writing... they... disappeared into the dark blue nether.  Maybe later.  If I recall, I will amend.  Troublesome memory, mostly in the morning.  Coffee!?!

Couldn't sleep.

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Still can't.  Odd, it is so cool.  I checked outdoors, as it was feeling so strangely... not cool but cold.  It is 29 to 30 out there.  Started shivering, so didn't quibble beyond getting the reading to that level.  I am wearing cargo shorts.  Didn't... think it would be nearly that cold!  That's below freezing.

Yes, sometimes I can do chores at 0 F, in flipflops.  Sometimes I can't.  I'm not acclimated to the cold, so even that 30 was a bit stout.  Unusual, in two ways.  First that is this cold, just hitting June.  Second, that I am not crashing for it.  I had a window or two still open, and the furnace off.  Still, inside it only got down to 64 to 68, depending on where the reading is taken.  Even so, to me, at this point in the season, even that is cool to cold.

In spite of extra food, blood sugar is doing okay.  It is 101, with a weekly average of 135.  Of course, being so used to it being much higher, not having a window of safety... makes me nervous.  I have gone through... many carb tabs while trying to get this arranged.  Oh well.  I'll keep fighting the good fight.  Hmm... actually, I should refill them, if I have a bigger bottle.  I have one roll left, down here, out of... many.  And two upstairs.  Ugh.  I had them all full last week.  Doing what I can.

I would like breakfast, if someone else would cook it.  Not sure I should, but that isn't... always a point, when it comes to hunger.  I could do bacon and eggs, but that might just be too much for this morning.  I didn't make a pork roast in the instapot last night, as I had proposed.  I suppose I could set that up, but... I don't want to do that either.  I suppose I am beginning to crash.

Oh, but I have slices of cheese, sardines, and olives.  That might just make a pleasant, if odd, late supper.  And, it should be a very keto friendly one.  Though sardines, or kippers?  I am leaning toward kippers.  And kefir.  My tastes have certainly advanced.  I think for the very much better.  That sounds salty, and it is, but both keto eating makes a way for that, safely, to a degree, and... smaller bites.  Just an half dozen olives, and only two or three slices of cheese.  Well, and plenty to drink.  It works out.

How do I know?  My feet have been doing exceptionally well, recently.  No pain.  Even breaking my feet in to shoes hasn't been a problem.  The tops used to hurt, from perpetual swelling.  It seems to be gone, for now.  I am on two water pills still, but that is down from three, sometimes up to five.  It's as good as I can do.  If other things sort out, we may have to try just one, again.  Those are hard on my flagging kidneys.

Any...way.  That should be it.  Later, if most likely good night, and day... morning too.  Odd how that can all be true at once.  

A bit more to eat.

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I checked the drain and the drain mechanism.  So far so good, with both.

I decided to have more food.  Carb tabs are okay, but they aren't really filling.  I could have had more food, right then, but I was feeling so bad that I decided the carb tabs would be quicker.  And it need to be faster.  I couldn't think through it, anyway, either.  Both, if with a small dose of insulin.  Risky?  Everything I do is a guess.

The girls are having a good night.  I'll feed them, again, shortly.  Treats, attention, food, fresh water.  They are kept fairly well.  I fall down for them regarding litter, more than anything.  But even that is only occasional, if more often in the last few weeks than usual.

I really need to clean.  But getting to it is a bear.  Chores aren't much, but they are enough.  And, in the cold, it gets to me.  Although the heat might ruin me too.  Bleh.  I'll keep trying.  We'll see.  Oh, and not quite yet, but perhaps Monday?  No, that's a holiday.  

Let us say, Tuesday or Wednesday, I will drill holes and put the eye bolts into the pole set up for the hammock.  And get the hammock, tarp, and maybe some other gear ready to put up.  I'd like to get it set up for quick deployment and take down, so that if I want, I can bring it all in quickly.  Not sure if the ducks, or other critters, will try to get on or in it, as a roost, or whatnot.  But there are other problems.  Still, on hot nights inside, it might be cool enough outside to get a good sleep.  And the sun is a heck of an alarm clock.  Heck, Sam might even join me out there.

Hmm... a bit more time up, then I'll get on to sleep.  Later, or more likely, good night.  Sleep well, dream well, and if you die, die well.  Amen.

Problems?

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Solutions.

Someone has been using my sink, in the bathroom, to clean oily, greasy, hands, tools, or something.  I have been setting things up so that it is more difficult to get in.  But that doesn't completely stop all of the activity.  They used to leave the bathtub and sink like that, now just the sink.

Well, that was causing a backup, or slow drain anyway.  But, right at the moment, just in the sink.  I have stuff for that, and it works quite well.  But I had to get the mechanical drain plug out.  I... first had to tinker, to remember... exactly... how to remove that.

Some have a hook, which can be undone from the bar.  This one has to have to bar removed from behind the drain pipe.  I was, after a bit of tinkering, able to sort that out and get it done.  A bit of tinkering... then... oh yeah... best put the bar and attachment assembly back on, or drain water will go out the back as surely as it will go down the pipe.  Check... right after a dose of reality hit the floor.

Fine.  So, I had to chase Sam out.  But she was just in seeing what I was up to.  Didn't like getting chased out.  Women and underfoot, cat, human, dog... all the same.  Anyway, yeah.  The chemical puts off rather strong odors, and Sam doesn't smell so well these days.  I opened the window, put stuff down, ran hot water... which activates the stuff, shut the door and got out for a while.  I turned on a fan, too.

A bit later, I returned and gave it another shot of stuff and hot water.  Then, again, scooted and let it do it's work.  Returning a bit later, it seems to have done it's work.  Then, to degrease the sink.  It really gets filthy.  I had been wondering if it was backup, from the septic tank.  Which... might have been true if it was both the tub and sink (at least, but lets just say they offered relief enough that it didn't get to other plumbing drains).

The problem with it just being the sink is... that wouldn't happen.  Assuming the above assumption, it would need both.  Further, it really wouldn't bring grease in.  I don't put grease out.  No.  This is someone using my sink for washing filthy greasy hands, or parts/equipment.  I better not catch whoever is doing it.

Yes, I sleep so hard I wouldn't know.  I try to keep the place locked up, but... you can't keep the dishonest out.  It happens rarely, anymore.  Though, I am not sure if it is a misuse, or if it is sabotage.  I best not ever catch them doing it.  Things, people, will be broken.

Anyway, I just had to finish up.  To one degree, the good thing about doing this was I was finally able to get the drain plug set back up correctly.  I have been having to manually reach behind and down, and pull the bar.  I may have to work on it more, but I got it fairly tight and well done.  Still, you know how these things go.

After that, I used degreaser in the sink basin.  It did work.  The last stuff I tried didn't work well.  Too mild.  This stuff is... nasty.  Rubber gloves and eye protection highly recommended.  It did work.  But it also tells me that the stuff in the sink wasn't backup.  It was something being added to the sink, down through it.  As I said, misuse/abuse or sabotage, that I don't know.  There are some who... would do so, locally.  On both sides of various fences.

But, for now, it is done.  I used some of the new degreaser on somethings in the tub, but that didn't work.  I don't know what it is in there.  It looks like grease, but has had no reaction to any degreaser, soap, or various other cleaning supplies I have tried.  I have no idea what they put in there, or dumped in.  It's been a while, is wearing off a bit, but... I just don't know.

As I was finishing, I was beginning to feel very off.  Couldn't be blood sugar.  I just had a pan of beans and burger.  With a small dose of insulin.  But, I was wrong.  Blood sugar had dropped to 58!  This is really becoming annoying!  I do little and it crashes, I do a lot and it ends up over 200.  I wonder if they are adding things to some of my food in the fridge.  You aren't paranoid if they really are out to get you.

A couple of rolls of glucose tabs later, and I'm almost feeling human again.  Well... as human as a non-human can feel.  Later.