Chores.

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The rabbits all looked good.  Food was still in plenty.  Water is going fast, but that was to be expected.  Still four ducklings, very cute little things.  All are fed, watered, and... litter.  I'll get that yet this evening.  I have been keeping up on that fairly well... the last few days.

Showered, two days in a row.  Teeth are back in order.  Even a shave.

On the bad side, I hurt.  Chores about cracked me.  Odd.  I really don't get that.  Does the heat do things, or was it pushing my sleep cycle as I did today?  Or, as is often the case, just because.  As I have said and written, if I hadn't seen heaven, and the fire I would have to go through to get there, for this pain I would commit suicide.  I would have kept trying.  Well, and finally, a belief in what I saw.  I tried my best to not believe, for a long time.  

Today, right now, is one of those days, times.  I wonder if continuing to live in the face of suffering... is considered... good, by God.  Is it considered a sacrifice?  Or... is it merely expected?  I... I am simply not willing to risk... separating myself from God, now that I know.  Not that I don't sin, fail, fall... just... I get back up, dust off, and keep heading His way.  All good.

I have been keeping up on meds.  Oh, but I need to check on the other medicine my doctor scripted.  I haven't seen it, perhaps they didn't just send?  I've either been busy or blasted, tomorrow, for certain.  Oh, and blood sugar was 88 a few hours after my second kefir, with only one dose of insulin with the first one... after a fast food meal.  Weird.  But, okay.  Maybe it will kick up tonight, or even tomorrow or the day after.  It does weird things like that.

Still hungry, but I think that is it for tonight.  I'll get something going tomorrow.  I may be going on to bed earlier tonight.  I'm, my body, is pretty cranky.  Not a mood, an uncomfortable bit of pain.  But it might work out, if I can get my days back around.  If I get to bed early, I will set that alarm for... nine, and eleven hours of sleep... just as a potential help, if my body tries to keep to the same waking schedule as recently.  That may not work, either.  Worth a try.

Later.  Or good night.