Waiting.

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The girls had to wait three hours before food.  Begging, way too much begging.  Three hours, from now on, again.  Oh, in time, I may forget.  But, not often.  As to myself?  Five hours.  Breakfast is just starting.  Okay, works out well for me.  Now I am awake enough to manage food as needed.

Oh, another plan change, or addiction?  Eating my heavier meal at "lunch" time, whenever that time may actually be.  My middle meal will be my big meal.  Today it will be the leftovers of spaghetti, and another piece of garlic bread.  This time I will see how they do it in the airfryer, and go from there.  For supper, I will have a cheese sandwich and else.  Small sides just to go along with all else.

I got the rabbits at just before eight.  They all had plenty of water left, and most had food left, save for the three big eater pens.  I really like it when I can get on a bit of a schedule, for as long or short as it lasts... I really like having some regularity.  Just like with pooping, eating, and else, regularity... while boring... is... good.  I'm not exactly regular, but I have been closer to it than I have in a while, given that daylight awake cycles are a part of it, as I see things.

Just out of curiosity, I took another fasting blood draw.  At 129 it dropped 27 points for no good reason.  I drank a bottle of water, that was it.  Even so, I am planning on taking, say, 4 cc's of fast acting with breakfast.  Maybe 6 or 8 with lunch.  Actually, it will be a lunch, by time.  If I can finish breakfast by nine, I'll check sugar again around noon, while heating up the meal.  That is the quintessential lunch time.

A shower would be nice.  As would a start on dishes and tearing down boxes.  I have been stagnant in action, lately.  Not by effort, simply without choice.  It seems warmer today.  So, maybe.  Oh, and the hydrant is flowing again.  The girls really didn't like tap water... which flows through the softener.  Sam was ecstatic when she saw me bringing in a bucket of outside water.  

The little things.  I also have a little bowl of water, just for her, up in her drawer hideaway.  Little things she really loves, and I do it for such a reason.  And she knows it.  Oh, washed their sleeping bowls... little beds... today.  Dried, and out for them.  They don't touch them in the summer, but in the winter, they love them, if I keep them clean.  Getting pretty ratty, need a few new ones.  I think Sam is somewhat incontinent.  Which is why they can only use them for so long, without being washed.  She is between 80 and a 100, in human terms.  I don't blame her.  Shit just stops working the way it used to.  We still love the grumpy old sissy-whozits.

Yea, cloudy, and dark, but warmer.  I think it reads 30 F, but it sure feels warmer.  Almost warm enough for it to begin feeling like a thaw is on, putting moisture in the air.  It almost can't be, but... things are often not how they read.  It's... a warm 30, I'll put it that way.

Wish me luck?  Pray for me to be able to bust my butt a bit?  All good.  I'd ask for a boost to the caboose, but that really doesn't work.  I know, I've tried every way possible, and some ways impossible.  It happens, or it doesn't, amen.  Well, on to the rest of the day.  Good fortune in your run.  Be well, stay warm, and be cheery.  Being a glumpuss won't doing a thing for you.

Uhrm, awake?

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Mostly.  Just.  I went down at 18:50, waking at 03:50... scratch that.  The alarm time must be off.  It seems I actually woke at 02:50.  Hmm.  I'll have to reset the alarm.  Easy to bump a button and do odd things, perhaps change the time zone?  I'll figure it out as I go to sleep, or reset medicine sets tonight.

A very good sleep.  Had to pee twice.  Then again, the jug is still only half full after four days?  Usually it would be full in three or four days.  Twice last night, if rather heavy... or more like normal, what has been normal anyway.  Though, even twice is less, and allows better sleep.  I am considering going back to compression socks, if lighter ones, but at least to the knee, maybe up to the thigh.  Thirty bucks a shot, but...  The only thing wrong with the thigh-highed ones, if they do work the best, they are rather tight.  Can't really wear them around day and night, just too much.  But they really really work at keeping the feed and ankles dry.  I suppose I could use them, just take them off at night, which I have been doing.  Cleaning them is the other thing.  Really, they need to be handwashed.  And they are $30 a pair.  Ugh.  I would really like three or four pair, so they have time to wash and dry, and maybe one spare back.

I set the alarm, on the oven, for three hours.  That is when I will feed the girls.  And, actually, have breakfast myself.  I need to get away from eating first thing in the morning, to closer to "lunch".  Actually, that is the goal.  For the moment, three hours in is good.  I would like to begin eating more like six to eight hours after I wake.  And, if I can today, I will.  If I become a twitching twitch, I'll go ahead and eat.  But I am guessing I am well into keto.  I really haven't had more than 30 carbs on a day in weeks... since that last Wendy's meal, with fries and a regular soda.

It is strange to be eating like this.  I have done it for longer periods before, when I couldn't get out.  And there are still times where I ate less, on top of it, because I really didn't have food.  Then I would hit carbs, though, from in my pantry.  I do keep some foods which are higher carbs... more for preparedness reasons.  And, perhaps before I die, there will be a time for them.  Diabetes be damned, as food is becoming too expensive AND scarce, on purpose of our government and corporations, carbs will have to be eaten.  Just understand that.

Blood sugar was rather high this morning.  At 156 fasting, I wonder if the "pasta" was a bit of a push?  But two hours after, it was reading 103, so that... unless blood sugar was merely moderated, for a short while.  Or if it takes longer to digest this sort of food?  I have another dose today,  I'll... figure it out.  Perhaps I'll have to eat less?  Or... just call it my "cheat" day meal, once every two weeks, and with extra insulin as an understanding?  I'll... sort it out.

As mentioned, I won't deal with chores until the light is up.  Sometime definitely after 07:30, possibly past 08:30 these days?  At least when heavily overcast.  Well... on to... waking.  I suppose I could turn the water to heating.  I just wish it kept it warm for longer than an half hour.  I could have tea, to start things.  Mint tea has been a little joy, plain or even very lightly sweetened.  But, when not in the feeding time, plain.  Nothing to break the fast.  I wonder if the electrolytes break fast?  I should probably hold off on those until within the eating times.  Same for some of the vitamins.  Ugh.

Good morning, night, and/or day.  God's speed and blessings.

Now get off my porch!  :)

Minor things, but good.

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The waterers for the rabbits have been replaced.  Their water was still flowing, and there was plenty.  Same with food.  Still, a refresh was best.  It's warm, too, which will give them a reasonable sip, like a tea for us.  They are looking fairly good.  The temp is and has been about 30 all day.  A good temp.  And, while that is below freezing, nothing is freezing.  Odd.

The girls have been fed and watered, their litter kept up.  Well, and they have gotten attention, quite often.  Sometimes sought, sometimes not.  I do enjoy them, as friends to the degree we can be.  Like parents, with children, friendships with pets have limits.  Love might not, but love and friendship aren't the same things.  Still, they know I love them, and I take the time to show it, or offer it.

I still can't believe how good the spaghetti replacement was.  The other noodles I have tried didn't do it.  I'd still like to try them again, and maybe figure out how to like them.  There are reasons to have various options.  Plus, I hate giving up on things.  As well, I'd like to try spaghetti squash, and even another option or two.  Mood, weather, the season, and other things, can make one option sound better than the others, on a particular day.  Well, and availability.

Blood sugar, after the meal, was 103.  I must have done things correctly.  Since, I have only consumed water.  I did get night medicines in, of both sorts.  I didn't test bp.  Oh well, tomorrow.  I can't believe how well I have been sleeping.  So much so, that I am barely using the pee jugs anymore.  And I am not kicking blankets off.  Life is exceptionally good, for sleep, these last two days anyway.

I don't know what I did, but I am just a bit sore today.  I will, for the first time in a long time, take some painkiller.  Just one, I think, should do.  Then on to bed.  Goodnight, good evening, good day, and maybe good morning to foreigners and late visitors.

Had to rush supper, to make it in the time allowed.

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While lunch was small, it was large enough to limit how much I could eat for supper.  Actually, breakfast and lunch are both small.  Sort of the point.

Supper was a new food.  Well, new and old.  Diced tomatoes, the hamburger I have cooked and stored, cheddar and parmesan cheeses, and a type of noodle, a keto noodle.  This time it was the palm heart type.

I basically added everything but the tomato, into a frying pan.  One I can bake.  Put that in, and let it work for fifteen minutes, at 400F.  Then remember the tomato, added that, then let it cook for another 10 minutes at 350F.  Actually, I then added the cheese, and let it sit for about five minutes.  Sprinkled with the smallest few fleck of one of my exceedingly hot spices.  And... done.

I wasn't sure I would like these noodles at all.  To be honest?  They were... a good filler.  They weren't a negative.  Just, understand, they aren't pasta.  But they really weren't too bad.  I will have no trouble eating these, in the future.  The trick, from what I saw and read, is to cook them long enough to take the crunch out of them.  And, I pretty much did that.  I still think boiling them, for five to eight minutes, then adding them to the sauce, and doing that for a bit, might be even better.  But, this wasn't bad.  It was a good dinner.  And I have half of it left over for tomorrow.

With it, mint tea.  I added several drops of sweetener.  Oh, and I have found a bread which is low carb.  It is cut thin, and rather small, but...  I baked that for seven minutes, with butter and garlic powder on it.  I think, next time I want to try to toast that, I will use the air fryer.  I have heard these protein breads are difficult to toast, but that the air fryers work.  Still, it... wasn't bad, either.  Only one slice, and that was 12 grams of carbs itself.  

I probably had 18 grams of carbs today, a bit higher than usual, but... sometimes you just have to splurge?  :)  I did take 6 cc's of fast acting, given both that the meals were very close together, and that I ate a bit more in carbs than hoped.  Well, and the extra sweetener.  Technically is it zero carb, but it doesn't always act like that.  Now to not eat anything for the rest of the day?  That's the plan.

If I really have to have something, I will have a fatted coffee, with just a tablespoon of cream.  Though the goal really is no more carbs.  Or... fats, proteins, potential glucose triggers.  So, water, plain or minted (unsweetened) tea, perrier, or even plain coffee.  Though coffee, in some circles, is questionable.  Can't say I have experience with black coffee.  Might have to try it, just to know for myself.  When something has people on both sides of the fence, it is often just that people react differently.  The only way to know is to try.  Better to know, if you might consider going there.  Knowing limits and such.

Oh, heck, it is almost time to test blood sugar.  I think I'll wait longer though, another hour.  Technically I was supposed to take blood sugar reading before supper, but it was too close to after lunch.  Strangely full?  Almost overfull, in spite of eating only half or what I made.  Stuffed, and it really wasn't that much.  Just, sort of, like how real pasta does.  Only, with real pasta, I usually end up eating a third to an half pound of the pasta alone, in two or three plates.  Pasta is weird that way... can't stop.

Oh, and I have some of this stuff in a rice form.  I won't mind trying it.  It really isn't a bad option.  Later.

Very cold for not being all that cold?

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Chores were done a while ago.  Overcast, but sort of dry.  At 30 F, it really shouldn't feel all that bad out there.  But it really seemed cold.  Not as biting as the wet days, or even the teens, but... really got to me.  They had consumed about half of their water.  Most had eaten all of their food.  A few had remnants.  Still, they were fed up for a fully day, and of course fresh water.  I will check water again before going to bed.  I do need to refill waterers though, getting low on them.

The girls keep begging for food.  Like every hour. Which I refuse.  Still, I do try to make sure they have something every three to four hours.  A treat or a can of food, plus making sure their dry food is available 24/7.  Well, and clean fresh water, plus their litter hit at least once, but preferably twice a day.  Sometimes even more, if it's a long day.

Blood sugar was 123 a few hours after breakfast.  So I made a lunch.  Just cheese sandwiches, pork rinds, meat sticks, and an extra slice of cheese.  That is... getting terribly boring.  I may make chicken thighs.  Hopefully these will taste better.  I can eat them straight up, or bone them and put them in salad, preferably after being warmed.  I need to eat again, before 12:30... so by 11:30 really... so as to keep to the eight hour eating scheme.  

The thing is, I'm not sure what to eat!  I suppose I could make a spaghetti, with one of the various keto noodles?  Too much work, would dirty a pan, and I'm not sure I have a pan?  Well, I suppose I do.  Since these noodles don't need to be boiled, like traditional past.  Just heated in a frying pan, or small sauce pan.

My last visit to Wendy's didn't go well.  Should have gone into town.  The meat tasted off.  Like McDonalds burgers tasted for a year or two... bad, as in old or not kept frozen rightly.  I hope Wendy's hasn't, universally, gone bad.  With McDonalds, it really was pretty much every store.  I'll have to try the in town Wendy's, see if that is the case.  Might do it today, or soon.

I want a shower first, whatever else.  Later.

A good night, sleep.

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Down at 17:00, up at 03:15 or so.  A good sleep.  I even left the door open, for the girls.  One was up for a bit, as I was falling.  Other than that, I don't remember.  I did use the pee jug, but once and lightly.  That is improving.  I think I had been drinking in excess, for a while.  Now I am back to drinking less.  Two or three of the small bottles a day.  Well, plus a tea, or coffee, or two of those, at around a pint to quart?  Something.  Still, compared to drinking several to four gallons a day, yes... much less.  Well, and down to two drops of that sweetener per day, instead of four to six drops per half gallon of tea.  Which had it's own affects on both diabetes and water retention issues.

Anyway... awake and already getting breakfast going.  I won't get started with the rabbits until the light is up, or would be.  If it's cloudy, some days you just can't tell.  Almost.  Not from inside 'the cave'.  After, or even before, chores, I will reset their waterers.  I am holding off feeding the girls for a few hours.  We... need to retrain on that.  Or they will beg me to death.  They are almost always hungry, but they really aren't.  And, should learn to be slightly hungry.

A shower, again, today.  Then, I am hoping, dishes finally.  And boxes being torn down, in short bursts.  I will gather trash and recycling, get it out, but there isn't much.  Still, to get it out, if not to the curb, would be good.  Other0 than that, just chores, the girls, and myself... food, water, and else.  An easy day.

Blood sugar is okay at 128 fasting.  I may up the slow acting insulin.  I backed it down to 35 cc's, after some issues.  Back to 38 cc's?  Yea, I could see it... 37?  How about 37.  See how that does.  No fast acting insulin, unless I reach 150 blood sugar.  I haven't taken medicine yet, and want an half hour to hour to let it work before taking bp.  So... that isn't out yet.  My weekly average is 115, two week average is 126, and month average is 153.  A very good trend.

All good.  Later.

Feeling a bit off.

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I thought it might be blood sugar.  I have eaten, about an hour, maybe two, ago.  I did cook the beef, spiced it, and had a small portion of it on salad.  No dressing, just... spiced burger and lettuce.  One smaller dose of the stuff was enough.  No insulin has been taken all day.

It shouldn't have spiked insulin up, but I can't ever sense that.  But down maybe.  Probably only an hour ago.  I just wasn't sure.  I decided to check.  Blood sugar is 118, so not the problem.  So tired, off.  I have the furnace up, so it isn't the cold.  I don't know, but I really want to go on to bed.

I also really don't want to go on to bed.  It is just hitting 16:00.  I'd like to stay up a few more hours.  As well, I will do a late chores.  This time including food, as they didn't need food earlier.  I'm not sure about the temp, but most likely the waterers have frozen again.  I can't do chores three times a day, I don't have it in me.  But I can try twice a day.  And, if awake a particularly long period, and have the energy, I might, once in a while, do three chores a day.

I may feed the girls again.  I have been clearing their litter twice a day, recently.  Until I fall again, that is really good.  And, yes, they love me for it.  If I am clean, which I am, if they are fed, their litter tended, and fresh water is offered, they are absolutely loving.  If one or two of those things goes flagging?  Not so much.  If all are off, I am like off tuna... not good for anybody, and they let me know it.  Women, human, cat, dog... pretty... similar.  :)  Not a complaint, just... saying.  For my part I prefer to be in good company, so try to do my part.

I think I ate the last meal in time to make it count for intermittent fasting.  That will be the goal for the next week.  Then I will begin considering tightening it... regardless of how successful I am.  Perfection isn't always possible, and yet improvement can go forward with or without that.  It depends on if I simply stumbled, forgot, or if I am struggling with the process.  Sometimes slower it best, sometimes forging on is best.

After that, all I can drink is either water, perrier, or plain tea.  Though, of course, medicine, vitamins, and insulin have to be taken.  Oh, I did have two beef sticks.  That didn't cause any problems with insulin.  So, it is dosage.  I just have to keep it to just two.  Had it with lunch, so did very well, with what else I had.

I may just do chores, to make sure they get done.  It feels like I am getting ready to crash.  Later.  Or most likely goodnight.

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The rabbits didn't need food or water?  Neither was empty and the waterers were still flowing.  Checking the temp, it is 26 F out there, not bad, but definitely below freezing.  Odd, but okay.  I'll check them when I wake, or as able shortly thereafter.  At least I checked.  I don't like adding food if it hasn't all been eaten.

Now, yes, on to bed.  Maybe a little bit of browsing, to procrastinate toward the end of staying awake another half hour to hour.  Yea, I'm trying.  Goodnight, evening, and day.

Christmas, part of it.

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I had to ask, pointedly.  Mother finally told me some things she would want.  She required that I keep the price low.  Well, okay.  Mostly.  The problem was that I couldn't decide between two options... so I chose them both.  Which about doubled what she said.  Shut up.

They arrived today.  She say she likes them.  Who know.  I know... I... never believe.  Still, I did what I could.  And almost within her constraints.  Bleh.

So cool, cold really.  It doesn't make sense.  I am dressed as warmly as reasonable.

I did have lunch.  I am set to fry the burger, and have a taco salad.  No beans, this time.  With blood sugar doing so well, I hate to lose it.  It is almost amazing.  As I said, I have eaten this type of food for some time now.  Why would it all of a sudden work?  It had worked, before, then stopped working.  If I suspect my food was being sabotaged.

Chores.

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The rabbits needed water, badly.  However, this time most of them were half finished.  So fresh is very good, but not quite as desperately needed as yesterday.  They hadn't eaten most of their food, so I didn't add any.  I will check tonight, adding to those who need.  Their food consumption is definitely tied to their liquid intake.  I'll do my best for them... twice a day is about as good as I can do.

I tried the hydrant again.  Nope.  It's frozen.  I'll just have to use indoor water for them and the cats, so I refreshed the girls' water and got a bucket ready for refilling waterers.  When they thaw, that is.  I'm not sure the ones from last night are thawed.  Hard, solid, frozen in weird ways, some of them.

The strange thing is that it is only 19 F out there.  It isn't all that terribly cold.  I just don't quite get it.  It hit fast, went to more normal temps for this part of the year.  But not even as bad as it has gotten before, or usually?  Both, mostly.  I did find a pair of gloves crossed with mittens, and use those when I go out.  I put them under my jacket, which I wear around the house even when I keep it up to 75!  I put them in my arm pits, so whenever I need or want to go out, I have warm gloves.  Woolen, mostly, if you can believe adverts these days.  If so, thin, though lined with something.  Not the warmest things, but good if to mittenize, or open up and have fingers available without taking off the whole glove.

Blood sugar is 108.  Just... fine.  BP is actually a bit high, at 132/82 with a pulse of 67 though?  Strange.  I have been wearing a belly band.  I wonder if that is interfering?  I released it, got a bit lower reading but not much.  Hmm...  Oh well.  The pulse is better than I ever had it.  In my best condition, it ran ~80.  BP used to be rather normal.  And, yes, I took medicine an hour or two ago.  From now on I will loosen my belly band an hour or two before testing.

Hmm... something to eat?  I still need to fry the burger.  Though, really, that is for later.  A cheese sandwich, a portion of pork rinds with a touch of hot sauce, and perrier.  Sounds good to me.  I am going to try to eat all within an eight hour window.  So, after this lunch, I'll want to eight in a few hours.  Just, say, two hours.  That way I can test after eating.  But I best get to eating.  This will be the beginning of intermittent fasting.

In time, I will squeeze that down to six hours, then maybe four... or go to one meal a day?  We'll see how it works out.  Then, every two weeks, fasting.  Have to be careful with insulin.  Might have to cease taking it while fasting?  I think so.  Might mess up blood sugar in the short run, but worth it in the long run.  Perhaps stopping all insulin the day before I begin fasting, then fast for two days.  Yeah, probably... if I get to that point.  Then again, a plan is what you take into failure, in order to sort out what really needs to happen, isn't it?  Yes.  Just shake your head yes.  Or be quiet, meaning you haven't done these things before, without someone telling you what to do.  You are welcome!

Yes, on to a lunch.  Some more gaming.  And, then... actually cooking the burger first, then to gaming, on a timer, so I eat shortly enough.  Ugh.  Later.

Up and going fairly well.

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Down at about 19:15.  Up at 02:30~03:00.  A short sleep, but feeling good.  Slept well, if short.  Didn't even use the pee jug?  That's a first in a very long time.  I would like to never have to use it again, but that is... a bit off.  I think it might be possible, just not yet, regularly.  The goodness of the sleep proves the concept... it would be very good.

Breakfast is brewing.  Just the same old.  But I really do like it.  Now that I have it down, I should consider doing a nutrient assessment.  Three tablespoons of chia, half a tablespoon of cinnamon, a tablespoon and an half of a monkfruit mix, two drops of liquid sucralose, and a quarter cup of either cream or coconut milk.  On Tuesdays and Thursdays, I add a tablespoon of flax, black pepper, and turmeric.  These I brew  with water either taken to 195 or up to boiling, then lets the whole of it sit for about an half hour.  Say... an half cup to nearly a cup?  I could add nuts, but would prefer nuts which are richer in omega 3's, much less in omega 6's.

As it turns out... an ounce? of chia offers 316% of the 1600 mg base?  So, about 5064 mg's of omega 3s.  And, how much is an ounce of chia?  Hahaha... ~2.8 tablespoons.  Check.  Talk about fortuity?  I just chose three tablespoons based on hunger needs.  And flax offers 405% of the dose.  I would suspect measure and volume are similar.  So I get a boost twice a week, without the concern of as much phytoestrogens.  Man-boob stuff.  Bleh.  So, actually, I could add walnuts (which also offer some 3s, or pecans, or really any nut.  Doesn't really need more 3s, so could use them for other things.  Meat handles the 6s.  But I only eat a portion of meat a day, plus perhaps a bit on the side in the form of sticks or such.

Okies, it looks like I handle omega 3s and fiber pretty much in breakfast alone.  Anything else is just happenstance, and probably immaterial to a degree.  Or a different sort of fiber?  There is soluble and insoluble, and insoluble which affect different parts of the intestine.  Even soluble which break down in different parts of the system, so as to feed or encourage different parts of the flora and fauna?  Something like that.  Various types of fiber are good.

No, I'm not a dietician, just an end user trying to be informed... smart... about what I eat.  Difficult to do when I'm half dead or more.  Still... it's... something to do, in an attempt to get some of my life back.  God knows, I haven't quit, if sometimes I can't hold the wheel.  When I can, or even can plan to, I do what I can.

Blood sugar is 131 fasting, my weekly average is 119?, but I forgot to take slow acting insulin.  I will take it now, then take it this evening.  When my day stretches too long, things just get lost.  I did take all my pill medicine, at least there is that.  I almost stumbled on that last night, the last few nights actually.  Difficult when days and nights are tumbling, stretching, churning.

Hmm... now to get that insulin.  I won't take fast acting with that low of a fasting draw.  Anything below 150 and nubs on that.  Especially since I'll be dosing with slow acting.  I'll take my bp in a bit.  I like to give medicine an half hour to work it's magic.  Though sometimes I like to see raw morning numbers... but only after establishing an average, a baseline.

Everything is ready for the rabbits.  Though if the hydrant is still frozen, I will have to take water from indoors.  Not my favorite idea, simply no choice.  I have never had that freeze.  I have seen a size 8 to 10 shoe, with a dog following whoever, out in the snow.  And another dog, a bigger down.  I see where they go.  Rabbits, even the man.  Not a woman, something about them.  No, it was a man, and his dog.  The other dog was alone, or at least traveled in it's own path.  No way of telling when, so whether they arrived together or separately.  Though, at various times, as there are signs the man's dog was here solo, as well.  Probably who killed my ducks.

Well... on to slow acting insulin and... I don't quite know what else.  Waking up, a bit better, more fuller.  Then whatever I can get to.  Good morning, and night and day.  

Wanted to check one more time.

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With blood sugars coming down, but being wonky, I wanted to check again.  I gave it an hour, or so, since I ate.  While 88, and seemingly stable, isn't too bad.  I... actually do fear going to bed with it at that point.  Fear?  Have reservations about.  That is new territory, and rather close to the edge.

So, another meal.  And, then, a bit of waiting until an hour or so had passed.  Blood sugar is 129.  That is... safer.  Perhaps, in time, I will get used to going to bed with lower blood sugars.  For now I will work to have it just a bit higher.  Given that it was only recently above the range of my meter to read, I can handle a few days or weeks at 129 at bedtime.  Just until it is stable, I get used to the idea, and... yea... Until dying in my sleep isn't a seeming probability.

Ugh, 21:15.  I've been up very late.  On to bed.  Goodnight, for sure this time.

My bad.

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I should have gotten to chores much earlier.  The heretofore warm weather has allowed me to be a bit lazy.  That... ended.  Not only did it get cold enough to freeze my hydrant... but it hasn't frozen the water into the house?  It should have drained... it goes to seven to eight feet underground, and has a drain system under there.  It couldn't have frozen that deep.  I wonder if they can have found how to unlock the padlock?

Anyway, beside doing that, the waterers for the rabbits were all stone solid frozen.  And mostly full.  Meaning the critters didn't get much to drink before those froze.  They were thirsty.  Food was all pretty much in plenty.  It looks like they won't feed without something to drink.  I... get that.

So, I will have to check their waterers, for sure, twice a day going forward.  Which means, the next time I wake, and first thing, their waterers will simply be changed out.  Then, as I go to bed.  I can't... guarantee how much time between those, or I'd be doing some other form of work (or too).  But I can get them, generally, every eight to sixteen hours.  Sure beats going without flowing water for thirty six hours?  Maybe, it was a long time, more the twenty four hours.  Actually, more like thirty hours?  Still... a long time.  None of them are ill, but I don't want to do that again.

Blood sugar is 88.  I think I will get something a bit heavier to eat.  Not so much hungry, as... wanting something warm, and more than just a bit or bite.  I am hungry, but it is more of the mind than body?  I think so.  No insulin with the meal, if it will be keto.  Not perfect keto, a bit dirty, but... sometimes... it's what is possible.  I'll feed the girls as I get to it.

Yea, I thought I was going to bed much earlier.  It just... took forever for me to get going.  First the shower, then drying off, then getting the waterers filled, then chores.  Oh, ugh... if the hydrant remains frozen, I'll have to use indoor... softened... water for the critters.  At least until it thaws.  Not liking the idea of that, but don't have a choice.  Hmm... I need to get a few valves downstairs, installed, might consider putting a tap down there as well?  Very strange though.  This is the first time I have had it freeze, and it has been much colder.  It is 17 F, which isn't even all that cold.  It was 11 or so earlier?  Something like it.

Well, on to cats and supper.  Probably goodnight, but good evening and day in any case.  I can't believe I have made it to almost 19:00 and still going.  Bleh.  Later or those other things, so much later.

Well, slowly getting there.

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A shower, the litter cleared and extra added.  The girls have been fed and treated aplenty, but, really, every four to six hours is fair.  Just letting my hair dry, before chores.  As well, letting the waterers warm just a bit more.  I know, late is the hour, and the waterers probably froze, maybe later in the night.  Then again, maybe they were able to keep the water flowing through most of the night.  It being just below freezing, not far below... last I checked.

The low bp is a bit unnerving.  It does slow me down, just as cold does.  Hopefully it isn't the way it will be.  Though I can't imagine it being that low as a sort of outlier reading.  If it is that low, still, tomorrow, I will stop a smaller portion of the carvedilol.  Though, if that doesn't raise it enough, or at all, I am not sure whether to halve the new pill, or the old new one.  Though, to be honest, I think cutting the new one... either splitting the pills and taking half, or taking one per day instead of two.  There are three options.  I'm not sure which is most potent, or needed.  Tricky stuff.

I need to eat something shortly.  Take a dose of insulin with it, but a small one.  I may only take 4 cc's with a fatted coffee.  And, I may try to coconut milk instead of cream, just to see how it tastes, works.  A bit rough today.  But... this sort of rough is better than many of my typical days from just months ago and on back.  This is a blessedly light suffering.  It's still suffering, but not nearly as bad as it has been or could be.

It does amaze me, remembering how bad things were, for so long.  I understand there was more to not committing suicide than just giving up on trying.  Realizing God was real, in charge, didn't want that, and more.  But, even that... I have endured pain on a scale most will never understand.  Just having some semblance of tranquility, sanity, an inner and outer peace?  I don't understand.  Even when it hurts, now, and for quite some time.

Well, I suppose I should get to it.  Then go on to bed.  Coffee first, just to warm a bit.  The chores and bed.  Good afternoon, day, and goodnight.

Pushing it.

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Well past bedtime.  I still have things to do.  Hate when that happens.

Blood sugar was a little high.  My guess is the meat sticks have a lot more sugar and else in them than listed.  I'll have to check them several times before deciding if that is the case.  If so, I'll finish them, but not buy that brand again.  Blood sugar is 144.  As well, I decided to check blood pressure, for the first time on these new medicines.  At 111/73 with a pulse of 77. it is looking a bit low.  I might back off the carvedilol.  It causes me the most trouble anyway, that I know of.  Well, if the bp remains this low, though definitely if it goes lower.  Feeling okay for it, though that may not last.  If it is similarly low tomorrow, I will drop the small carvedilol dose.  If it continues to be too low, I will either have the older new medicine, or drop one of the new new pills... I take two a day, of the new ones.

I still haven't gotten to chores.  But, I had to refill waterers.  I am letting them warm, for an half hour or so.  Yea, I know.  but it is as it is.  After, I still hope to get a shower in.  Then stay up just a while, in order to dry off a bit, then on to bed.  Not doing great, but... not terrible either.  Moving as fast as I can, doing what is possible.  Later, or goodnight, and good afternoon and day.

Good call.

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I went with 6 cc's of fast acting insulin, with breakfast.  I think 150 might well end up being the cutoff, give or take.  Blood sugar is 103.  And it doesn't feel like it is dropping, or at least not quickly.  I don't mind 103, or even 120 to 80, so long as I don't have that sense that blood sugar is crashing.  Gotta get ahead of that drop.  Though, at 80, I would eat something right then.  An ounce of nuts, a few beef sticks, and a few pieces of cheese?  Something.

More snow out there.  I haven't been out again.  But it seems colder.  I want to take a shower, then get to chores.  Then fry burger, for the next few days.  I think the salad is still good.  The nice thing about making it rather spicy; in the winter, is that it actually makes the meal seem, or actually be somehow, warmer.

Actually, it is probably time for more food.  A cheese and deli sandwich, plus pork rinds?  Maybe a few meat sticks?  Something like that.  I purchased meat sticks recently.  If you overeat them, they are expensive... too expensive.  But, if you have two or three every other or third day, for the smaller ones, or one big one, then it's a great meal enhancer or snack for on keto.  I am trying.  Oh, would be super with a bit of cheese, too.

Well, on to something to eat, first... then a shower... then chores.  Perhaps more after.  Good day.

A whole turkey?

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I did get something for Christmas.  No way I could eat a whole turkey.  Not even sure the oven would... well?  Actually, I probably could cook a whole turkey.  But eating it?  Putting it up?  Yea... I don't think so.  Still, while in the store, sniffing around the dark corners of where I find preferred things, such as offal, I rummaged upon a turkey leg.  Perfect, and my chosen part of the bird, mostly.

Oh, and today, I will bey trying the coconut milk.  It does have some things in it that some would not wish, such as preservatives, and such.  For me, that is good enough.  As long as it doesn't have sweeteners, or things that spike blood sugar, I am okay with the rest.  I am sure I have had coconut "curries", and such.  But it has been a while.  Still, using coconut oil probably gives me an idea of the flavor.  Milder, in oil form, but... similar.  I'll have it with breakfast.  I purchased a number of cartons, each will offer just about three servings, of an half cup each, at about 170 calories per serving.  Good enough for me, about 2/3rd's of what cream is.

Oh... just did it.  Rather tasty.  I could use a package a week, so three meals of it a week.  Variety.  That works well.

I almost missed medicine for last night.  I woke early enough to take night meds, and did so right away.  So, now or shortly, I can take morning medicines, for Friday.  Sleeping in strange cycles makes taking meds a bit difficult.  Still, I do my best.  I did miss night meds a few days ago, for the scheduling issues, or having pushed things.  Ugh.  But, today, I've cleared yesterday and can start today rightly.  I'll begin checking bp today or... soon.

Not bad.  That coconut milk/cream.  Not as good as whole raw cream, but... not bad.  And it does add a bit of a change.  Oh, I'll add 6 cc's of fast acting as I before I finish breakfast.  Later.

Awake.

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When did I go to bed?  Looking back, I went to bed right after my last post, which was nearly 14:00.  So, okay.  Waking at 01:00.  A longish sleep, but after wrestling with the day, because of blood sugar problems, yes.  Low and dropping blood sugar is rough.  It has many of the symptoms of the flu, only it really is possibly killing you.

I never did remember to take a painpill.  And that turned out okay.  I'd... really rather not take pills, not even the ones I need to take.  So the extras are avoided, often by procrastination.  And, yes, I hurt, terribly.  Still, doing okay this morning.  Neck and shoulder bones are a bit cranky, but very lightly.

Oh, and blood sugar is 148 fasting, 119 for the weekly average?  It's what the machine says.  Not sure I always trust the machine, but there it is.  And that, after pushing it to 200 last night.  I must be much more careful with fast acting insulin, and maybe back off slow acting.  I may have raised it a bit fast.  I know I did.  Still, I see... possibilities.  That is close enough to 150 that I will take a small dose with breakfast.  I am thinking 6 cc's.  Maybe 8?  No, 6.  Yesterday... made me nervous.  Less is better.

I just checked the temp... 14 F.  Yes, that is below freezing, if you are a Celsius-head.  32 F = 0 c.  Why am I telling you that?  Ah, because sometimes, those who don't do the one, really don't know.  Still, and oddly, 14 F, dry, windless, feels warmer than 32, wet, with air movement.

I won't be doing chores until after sunup.  But I do need to redo waterers.  Food is still good, and will be for a while.  Though I would like to get two to six more bags before long.  With just rabbits, I am hoping to keep up.  But I will be keeping my feed in new places, less prone to disappearing.  Or, at least, they will have to break into the house to do it.  

I have been having a lot less thievery lately.  Not sure why.  Did they just decide to stop, did a family or members of a family move away, did it become more difficult than the worth, or is my waking cycling making thievery too complicated?  All I know is everything from cat food, to paper plates, to food stuffs, to toilet paper... if they are being stolen I am not seeing it.  No insulin gone missing, I think?  Unless they are getting shots of it out of the vials?  I hadn't thought to check that closely, until now.  Yea, I could see it.

Breakfast water is heating.  It might seem boring, but it's okay.  I recently obtained coconut milk, in small containers.  I may try that, for a change, a few times a week.  One of the days I add flax, and day or two of normal breakfast, just to add variety.  Or, rarely, depending on what I think of costs, and carb count, and etc.

I haven't quite gotten to carb and calorie counting, but I can tell you I am doing pretty darned good.  Given the carb counts of chia breakfast and a cheese sandwich, or equivalent, for breakfast and lunch, it almost doesn't matter what I have for supper.  As a from raw meat and/or vegetable supper.  Now, to calories?  The cream is pretty calorie dense, at 51 calories per tablespoon.  So, an half cup is... 

Well, okay, a tablespoon of cream is 70 calories.  Or 71, depending on where you read, but I am mostly seeing 70.  And, there are... 13.32275 tablespoons per cup, or that times 70 which equals... ~933 calories per cup!  Okay, so half that is ~466 calories?  Wouch.  I... best watch that.  I have been trying to keep it, actually, at a quarter cup, 233 calories, but it's easy to... oopsies.  I may need to measure.

Anyway, if I keep it at a quarter cup, my calories, with a standard meat and veg dinner, should be easily within range of the 1700~1900 weight loss calorie limit... for starters.  Maintenance calories, for my weight, is around ~2,200 to ~2,400 calories, as a reference.  Something a keto woman suggested, was that after every five pounds of weight loss, the calorie count has to be rescheduled.  Meaning... less.  Though, as I am doing it, I am probably well under the numbers, so can run a bit longer just as is before actually having to cut food, or watch it too much more closely?  Something like that.  Ugh.  Though, to be honest, I am thinking of checking calorie allotment more like every ten pounds down... unless I hit some kind of roadblock.  She might be right, but I am!  :p

Well?  I'd best get started on breakfast.  And, I may begin checking blood pressure today or tomorrow.  I have started on the new, new, medicine, and been on it two days so far.  I don't know if it has had an affect yet, only one way to tell.  Hmm... I wonder if it is affecting blood sugar.  Sometimes, heart medicine does increase efficacy.  I don't think I have seen it reduce efficacy, but I have seen it both increase it, and have no affect on potency of insulin.

Good evening, night, morning, or... day?  I suppose.  Later.

Almost spooky.

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I wanted to stay up.  Packages were to arrive.  I had a few beef stick snacks, and water, while playing a game and waiting.  The packages are supposed to have arrived, so I will check.  Before doing that, I wanted to test blood sugar.  Crazy, but after being 200 just a while ago, and eating beef sticks, just recently, blood sugar is... 125?  I... have candy up there, if it drops... and I can feel it.

Crazy.  I may back off the slow acting insulin as well.  Or... for a few days.  I may go to 35, instead of 38 cc's, and see if that makes it less... spooky.  If you have never had your blood sugar bottom out, you... don't know what you are missing.  I've been dead.  I have slowly drifted down into, and past, that line.  I know what it feels like, and that feels like death.  Scrambling out of it isn't easy, every.  It is the body failing.

I did my best not to use candy.  In the end, I had not choice.  And, I had to use it several times.  Wow.  Yea, I best be careful.  Good... afternoon, day, and night.

Not perfect, but settled.

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A bit after candies, blood sugar is 200.  While not preferred in general, given the options I am fine with it.  If it drops a hundred, I don't care.  But at 100, I don't have room to maneuver.  If it is too high when I wake, I will do what I need to do.  Live and learn, live and learn.

Chores are done.  I had thought to leave the partial waterers out there.  But had second thoughts.  As cold as it is, now down to 29 and very possibly dropping or at least not rising, the water would freeze, and probably fairly quickly.  Whereas, if I put warm water out, it will stay liquid longer... if the rabbits do their part.  Which they generally do.

Yes, warm water will freeze quicker.  Unless it is being moved, through drinking for example, via the 'straw'.  And, they are good little drinkers.  I will check again this evening, when ever I happen to wake.  Probably.  Ugh.  Well, at least I made it to 11:30!  And, I may try to last just a little while longer.  Long enough to have a cup of tea, to warm my bones and fingers after that cold dip into the outdoors.

Oddly, I am warm enough today.  Well, before going out there.  It isn't just the cold, today.  Generally, 30ish is fine.  But with the wet from the snow, and rain before it, that seems much cooler.  I don't think there was a wind, but air movement... sort of a different thing, but sometimes with similar results... making it seem cooler than the thermometer suggests.  Odd, not sure if the extreme dry or these subtle winds and moisture makes it colder, at given temps?  To be honest, I think this feels colder than the dry 25 F, of the other day.  Then again, there was no air movement that day, so...  Difficult to compare apples to seeming oranges.

While I will do a few more things, I think this is it for the night.  Goodnight, morning, and day.  Amen.

That just isn't working.

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A decent group of celery and carrots, with several tablespoons of peanut butter, then a very large portion of veggies, with butter added.  And, an half hour after?  Blood sugar is only 101.  And it feels like it is falling.  So, I'll just eat some candies.  Enough to elevate.  I have more near my bed, if I wake to further trouble.  I can only do what I can do.  I did my best.

Lesson learned.  If blood sugar is below 150, anyway, no insulin.  I may have to alter, raise, even that.  But, for now... that is where it is at.

It went quiet a bit ago.  Wasn't sure if it had stopped raining, or... what.  I just wanted to check the temp, then I saw it.  At first I wondered if it was frost, or frozen water.  But, no.  Snow.  The first snow in quite a while.  We did get a snow or two, I think, earlier.  Since then, nothing.  Little or no rain, either.  If this continues, we will know drought.  Well, not the snow, the nothing.

Drats, my plow isn't on.  I'm not sure I can put it on myself.  And this looks wet.  Plus, the temp is down to 30, it will freeze.  Bleh.

Still hoping to do chores.  And test blood sugar in an hour, after this candy goes down.  I need to see that it isn't going to drop, or that it is high enough not to be so much of a worry.  I wouldn't mind it being 101, or even 90, if I didn't feel like it was falling like a rock.  No, no, no.  That's too close.  I could miss the signs in my sleep.  Usually I wake, but this close to being really bad?  No.  Just... no.  Later.