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And losing. I did get a good long nap in after returning from my trip. And I tried to sleep this morning but that did not happen. I did get several hours of rest time in, twice though. I was about to try again when my phone rang. After pulling myself out of grog and reaching for the phone, only to not find it, I had to waken a bit more to try and locate the sound. Right when I was sort of close it stopped ringing. Close enough, it had been in my pants pocket. Yes, I then remembered having put it there to free my hands for other things I needed to bring up to the apartment.
My lady friend had called. She had several things on her mind, but more, she needed someone to talk to according to the message she had left. Being that I am her only friend, that sort of limited the field. She then asked if she was coming out for Christmas, which I took to mean whether I was getting things arranged. I explained that I had rented the cabin and that I had not called her because I could not get the plain tickets until next month. And, that I have been pretty busy and active, so calling her with the news had slipped my mind. I should call her once in a while, I think she is now realizing what not having me near really means. She was tired and wanted to go to bed. I asked her how her gardening was going and she indicated strongly that she did not want to talk about it. Fine, fine, I said as I chuckled to myself. Then we said our goodbyes.
Since that woke me up and I was not going to sleep anyway, I was pretty sure, I decided to call my Mom. She is doing well and staying quite busy. She is in charge of cooking a meal for 200 people for the wedding party of a daughter of a friend. The meal is today at noon. Most of the work is done, though fine details and some last parts are left. She was in good spirits and happy to hear from me. She has lost some weight too, staying busy and watching what she eats. I filled her in on what is going on here and asked some advice about that help I would like to offer (she is pretty good about such matters and intervenes or assists many people on many matters). But I could tell she was getting busy with lists and planning, her mind started to drift. So, we said our goodbyes and ended the call.
Oh, she reminded me that a friend of ours is having a family reunion Labor Day. Labor Day is the fall one, right? In October I think, or is it September. In any case, it is in Colorado. I think I can go, so long as it is not when I need to move. Complications are always the way, though usually things can be mitigated. These are people I have not seen in decades, some of them as much as 30 years or more. Plus, the food is fantastic. I may have sounded a little unsure, but I think I will find a way to be there. As well, I think my Mom really misses me. I think the visit will help settle her.
My brother, she says, is doing well. He is afraid he will not be able to work. I know that feeling. I understand what he is going through. Separating our self value from our economic potential is very difficult, for men more than women I think. Whether it is ingrained in us, whether it is just a natural aspect of our nature, or maybe a bit of both, when we face a brick wall on that, it hurts like little else. At least he might be able to receive an increase in his disability check. And, perhaps, with a little down time, he can find things to fill his time. Perhaps he can go back to school. He and his family remain in my prayers, even if we probably will never speak to each other again.
It may rain today, and during the day light hours! It has rained, or more dropped a bit of small droplets, the last two days. But today it could pour. If it does, I want to be in it for a bit. I wonder if it will be freezing cold, being that we are at 4,000 foot of elevation (I believe)? Either way, I am ready for raindrops on my noggin. I doubt if it would rain long enough to hamper target practice though.
Have a great day!
Labor Day is always the first Monday in September. This year, Sept. 7
ReplyDelete*Smiles* I hope you can attend.
I bit the bullet and found a cheap plane ticket and rental car so I can attend my 40 year high school reunion and have a day or so to visit family. *sigh* That's what charge cards are for, right?
I have not been up there or seen any of my family in more than five years. It's time.
My current sleep patterns are rivaling yours. Night before last, 2-ish am, woke at 8. Last night, almost 5am, didn't wake until noon today! dammit. I may resort to taking a shot of scotch at a reasonable hour and see if that helps. My brain seems to have slipped into high gear and is stuck.
I hope your lady friend works at branching out to make at least one more friend where she is. Being alone is one thing, being lonely is something else. You are a good friend, Doom.
Hah, I knew a woman would know. It is not a bad thing, but women seem to have dates, holidays, and such down pat. I asked my neighbor, and he thought it was September 30th. Oh well, men are good for some things.
ReplyDeleteYep, use em' if you have them. Or, so they say. Though I feel like my one card betrayed me, they might just be doing me a favor if I am limping right now from it. But yeah, you have to see family. And a high school reunion might be your ticket right now.
Scotch you say? I might have to try that too then. I found my Balvenie and brought it home, since the bottle is fragile and all. I had not thought of it as a sleeper. It sounds like you are trucking as hard as I am!
As for the lady friend, I am not sure she can branch out. She is as close to a real catwoman (either from Batman or general use) as I have ever met. She simply does not play well with others for the most part. After we ended our other relationship, I had to work hard to keep her as a friend. It was worth it. She still does not like me, often, but I think she loves me. Most people will not stretch that far to make friends, and guys really, usually, do not have an interest in female 'friends'. Wife, maybe, lover, often, friend... Women are too complex, and with sexual interest on one side and not on the other, whichever side, it makes things difficult.
I simply pray for her. She is a good woman, and a fine woman. But she refuses, or cannot, get close to others. I know what some of it is about and I suspect what more of it is about, but a good half of that simply baffles me. She was worth working with, mostly. And she does need a friend. :)