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The alarm was going off "all morning" this morning. I simply could not rise. Disappointed yet unprepared to do a thing about it, I slept right through it until I could finally wake up, get up, and turn the thing off. I was curious, if furious, about the time. Were my eyes playing tricks, was it really 8:06 or something? How could that possibly be. No matter that I just set that clock, I figured I had best... check other clocks, and maybe my cell phone too. Yep, it was just slightly after 8:00. Oh, right! I set the alarm for 7:00 to give myself a better chance at rising by 8:00. Tricky devil, that Doom is. He can even fool himself! What do I care, it worked.
I brushed first thing, then set up my potassium drink but decided to weigh in first. Just yesterday I gained five pounds, today I have lost six or seven or more like eight pounds? Yep, eight I think. It simply doesn't make sense. Actually, I drank and ate a lot more yesterday than the day before. Then again, that might have been what helped me get rid of stuff. All I am saying is my weight gain and loss seems to be extremely disconnected with anything I do, definitely on a day-to-day basis. If, somehow, the cause and effect is a few days to a week offset then maybe doctors know what they are talking about. Right now I am of the opinion, that at least regarding me, other than a very heavy hit or miss on medicines, they honestly have no idea what they are talking about. No salt? No sugar? No this, all of that, too much of these? How about no oxygen, next, you idiots? You know we are paying them to try drugs some salesman told them would be good for us because a chemist suggested it. THAT IS the basis of their assistance. Their degree means nothing if they spend twelve years learning to spot a diagnosis and no time actually figuring out what causes it or cures it. They just hand that part off to salesman and researchers. Salesman are pitching a product, researchers are pitching a notion which will pay for further research. None gives a damn about the outcome, just the money. My morning grump is at it's conclusion. Thank you for listening, please take your litter with you. The management.
After waking well (enough) and pretty much on time I ripped into a few morning rituals. Nothing fancy, like I said, weighing in, brushing my teeth, taking my meds, firing up the computer, feeding the cats, then sitting here. By the time I sat down to read blogs and news, an half hour had already passed! Now almost an hour has slipped through my fingers. Where in the heck does all that time go and so fast! Never mind, you probably have that happen to you often enough yourself. Time seems to sprint out of my reckoning when I am in a sleepy mode. It is more... functionally metered once I am fully awake. Hurry up, wake! You are leaking time!
It is raining and heavily overcast. In spite of that I have opened my curtains just a bit. It does let more light in. And it feels more... alive in here, even with the clouds. I feel more connected with my world. I set heat up a bit, to help wake up, more so since I am still rather tired. As soon as I feel I can see without extra light, I will turn off the lamp and open the curtains all the way. While in p.j.s, I still don't like the world being able to see into my home more than just a bit. If the rain slacks off, perhaps I can get to my automobile cleaning today. With unsure weather comes uncertainty. I can slog through closets if nothing else.
Oh what a day. I am still trying to figure out weekends. How much to do, how fast to do it. One of my problems, as I see things, is that I can push to do things in a hurry, when I do them. I give all I have. I don't have a middle speed. I need to find that lower gear, for when I have too much time for the work at hand or so I don't drive myself to utter exhaustion on one or two things, and simply because I need more than just stop and "go, go, go"! Never mind how. I think I have... done it before. It is a mindset. I just have to find it again and encourage it? Yeah, something. But slower speeds often leave me more exhausted than high speeds. I will still explore it. Perhaps there is a way. And maybe, as I get on track with exercising more heavily, a greater stamina will allow for a lower gear? I will just have to tinker with it.
All good. But I have some things to do. I don't want to. I am tired. Really tired. And? Hey, get on it! Blessings.
When I am paying attention (that is, when I am trying to lose weight), I notice that my weight fluctuation over the course of a couple days can range as far as ten pounds or more. To make the data meaningful, I take frequent measurements and note the trend line.
ReplyDeleteHydration levels, and related to that the salt content of recently consumed meals is the biggest variable. Higher than normal carb intake bumps me up, and after a day or two on very low carbs, it drops. This can't be strictly fat weight either and has to be partially water weight variation.
I know it is hugely water weight related. But not so much food based. On some days, when I have eaten large for several days, I can still easily lose weight. Not even salt effects my water retention. After all, I am pretty much drinking four to six 24 ounce glasses of Gatorade with a glass or two of milk on the side daily, rarely do I touch pure water or soda. Water makes my throat raw after a few days, sometimes after a glasses of the stuff. Bottled of various sorts, my reverse osmosis, and the softened and unsoftened tap water, all of them rub my throat raw for some reason.
ReplyDeleteI honestly sometimes do wonder how I can be so different from other people. Or, maybe that is normal? Perhaps doctors have it all wrong and are simply confusing me by being wrong or untruthful about very normal things? But if they actually know anything, and are telling me the truth, regarding normal people, then I am extremely biomechanically abnormal. Mostly to the good though, I think. So long as I give them a chance then ignore them when they prove false.