A true day off.

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I didn't set an alarm, I didn't get up when I could have, I slept until I woke naturally. It was wonderful. I do have to change the kitty litter and take the trash and recycling out, I would like to do dishes and some laundry, and I probably will do those last, but at a leisurely pace. Oh, and I want to look over those tax forms and have those ready to send Monday. I did call my mother, and put forth my proposal regarding her involvement with me clearing my record so as to obtain a concealed weapons permit. She is on-board, and a little unhappy with the V.A. herself. She has done her own research and come to realize just what a piss poor job the V.A. has done for me and doesn't like that they still, when they see they have made a mistake, won't back off on this. She will also be getting me contact information for our sheriff. He is the same guy that processed my claim for a permit to buy handguns (same background check), and for four years. I have two other personal references lined up as well. Once this is cleared, if it gets done (Utah is rather statist and the feds are worse), I won't be buying guns in a hurry. One every six months to a year, no rush then. The 9mm first, though, I think.

I tried something new yesterday. I kept the heat higher most of the day, save when I was gone, as I never did warm up. Then I didn't turn the heat down or close my door last night. Closing my door effectively turns off most heat to my room. I even slept with long johns (bottoms), a t-shirt and layering shirt, and socks on. Then I added three blankets. Way more than I can normally stand! I think, when I get cold like that/this, my heart is having problems. Either that or my body isn't handling the low flow well, again. That is what is causing me to be tired. I would also guess, just a guess at this time, that in the summer I become much more susceptible to heat when I go through this. I am figuring things out, no thanks to the medical community. Tinkering with my medicines, like a mad doctor, has been the only way to tell. I just haven't been on the right doses of the right medicines, to date, until now, to do that. At least there is that. I also found a 19:00 Mass locally. I may go there from time to time, if I miss at the main Church. Not today, I don't think, probably.

What an absolutely amazing world I am living in now though. If the medicines don't fix my heart, if they can at least maintain it, I will do just fine for a long time I think. And when I do, eventually, check out? It will be fast, and a little harsh, if I am awake. Not bad. But too, as I start to work out, perhaps that will help. On these medicines, unlike Ritalin, I won't always be able to work out. But that is fine, as long as I do what I can. I will permanently live in a hit and miss world. I think that the hits will be much more common and the misses will be less devastating and shorter term. Now that I know what I am working with, I can get a grip on it. For a nearly dead man, I am a wonder. The superman of the lame, lazy, and crazy! :)

Now, go, blessed and loved. The world needs you just as you are. Be there for it, your brothers and sisters, and what you have as your lot. Peace be on your soul, mind, and spirit.