Fat with thin?

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Oh, I feel great.  I do.  At least what I feel.  I'm pretty much numb.  That can be better than some options if it is definitely not optimal.  I took a break from medication yesterday, on purpose this time.  I don't think it has much to do with the numbness though, that was already setting in.  Every once in a while, for me, it is good to stop medication for a day, maybe two.  It gives my body a break.  These medicines are tough to take.  I also believe I will be cutting back on the diabetes medicine.  To be honest, I think that is a larger part of the problem.  I will know soon enough.  My A1C was coming down so I am not terribly worried about that.

Ugh.  It can be ugly trying to figure things out without a body and mind that will connect with each other then function in the world.  I am hoping to get the trash and recycling policed, collected, stored, then taken to the curb.  I have only a few hours.  It seems so easy, and it is an easy task.  Like I said, sometimes there is a disconnect that doesn't allow something to happen.  I've jacked the furnace up and will take medicines.  Yeah, I know.  Easy.  But...

As my days and nights are swinging through the dark, I keep losing track of what day it is.  Waking one day, then going to bed on another, seems to add to the confusion.  Being awake through the night, though, is confusing all by itself.  There isn't anything regular, like the sun, to monitor progress.  I did stay up until past 10:00 today.  Progress towards days is decent, but more measured than last time.  There is some hope that as days come around this next time that I can latch onto it.  I have been able to do that a great deal better in the last few years, improving more than not I think.  Without requirements on top of health though, this will always be a difficulty.  As I have said though, when with a woman, my schedule really straightens out.  Even if I don't really like her.  :)

Hmm... time to warm up, then try to get going.  Later or good night.